First Package Arrived
Earlier this morning, I am in a rush mode due to meeting the deadline of my project. I need to get it out as early as possible. Since we had power interruption last night, I need to rush myself from issuing.
Few minutes after logging in, my baby chatted me as he is having problems on his PC and he called me in the morning and we just had a video call. I was so busy in the morning and the power interruption happened again without prior notice. It was really annoying and it really affects my work now. Like I’m losing the momentum of working.
It was another busy day for me and I just keep my focus at work earlier. I tried to divert my attention to work than to him. I felt a little annoyed with him to be honest, like he is okay when he needs something from me and I never felt that to him. I don’t know.
In the afternoon, I received a package from him and it was the pastillas that he sent me. I don’t know what comes to his head why he sent those to me. He just randomly did and I was shocked. I got 9 packs of it and he said it was made my his aunt from Zambales. It actually tastes good and its not that sweet.
He chatted me about it how was it and I fell asleep and forgot to taste. It feels nice receiving something from him even just those little tiny items. I mean I admit that I am materialistic person but I don’t care how much does the item costs, what matters to me is the effort of sending me one. It was really good. My mom were so happy too. Both of my parents knew him already and I don’t know if its a right choice to let everyone know about him - like introducing him to the family cause I am scared that what if I lost the feeling on him due to less appreciation that he is doing, will it still be worth it?
Also, after feeling extremely happy, he made me feel annoyed again by not letting me know that someone come over to our house without inform me and letting that person sleep in my bed. I actually felt awkward when I knew someone will sleep in my bed using my pillows. My bed sheets, my items at home. It was too personal for me but if its him alone I don’t care. But, I made way on his best friend but someone come over again and I felt a little annoyed by it. I don’t know if this is some sort of jealousy again or what.
I maybe be jealous but I hate this feeling lately. I felt abused.
Good night.
Love Always,
Iyaaan
