9/11
So today has already been quite the exhausting day and it's only 8:09 am and counting.
They say old habits die hard, and I guess that still remains true of my procrastination.
I have a public speaking class and I've got a 4 minute informative speech today but my content is crap so there's that. There's also the fact that I stayed up all night and slept for-what was supposed to be a 15-30 minute power nap- but actually ended up being an hour of sleep, which feels even worse. So I leaped off the floor where I had quite literally crashed out of exhaustion and first words out of my mouth were: "OH SHIT I'M AN IDIOT FUCK ME UGH" which are quite the intelligent #FirstWordsofMyDay. Then I got mad at myself for..
A) being an idiot and watching (#connorfranta #tyleroakley #troyesivan #youtubersreact #mydrunkkitchen aka #hannahhart etc etc) YouTube videos for way too long which resulted in me:
B)pulling an all-nighter to write my speech that turned out to be:
C) total and complete crap.
D)uttering such unintelligent words as the first thing of the day to be said by stupid stupid me.
E) I also am shit with directions so I made the already 30ish minute drive to school into at least 40 minutes.
F)freaking out thinking I was late when in reality I WAS 30 FUCKING MINUTES EARLY TO CLASS
g)where I am now typing this post that I doubt anybody will see.
After all that, you're probably thinking "Wow this girl is an idiot"..
Follow this idiot because my head is not actually filled with air.
After all that, I am not drowning in my sorrows, no I am not!
NO, because today is 9/11 and I have realized that at 8:18 AM on this particular Thursday that
in the grand scheme of things, there are much bigger things to worry about
then the petty little happenings of a bad day- we all have bad days like these and I have no one to blame for this crap start but me.
TODAY IS 9/11 AND IT'S A DAY TO BE REMEMBERED IN CELEBRATION OF THE MEMORIES OF THE PEOPLE WHOSE LIVES WERE LOST/TORN APART BECAUSE OF A LOVED ONE.
If today, you find yourself whining to yourself about stupid little issues that don't affect the outside world all that much,
I advise you to take a step back and realize how much bigger the world is than just you. and after you've done that, take a moment of silence to celebrate the memories of the lives ripped to shreds that day. if you are remembering someone special, my heart goes out to you and just know that we salute you for being strong and in your moments of weakness that you have someone to give you strength.
much love my internet friends,
random acts of love,
random acts of kindess,
random acts of strength,
random acts of courtney <3
signing off at 8:23 am
have a fan fucking tastic day lovies