listen listen LISTEN TO ME GRABS U BY THR FUCKING SHOULDERS
byler as you are au u see it i know u see it u see my fucking vision
obviously will is jack and mike is mark u see my vision
the i wish u were a girl scene comes up, it’s fucking tragic like it normally is but fucking tjink abt it
U SEE MY GODDAMN VISION ITS HAUNTING ME BECAUSE MIKE WOULDNT MEAN IT LIKE THAG HE MEANS IT IN THE “ur a guy so i can’t possibly b with u” BUT MIKE KNOWS WILL IS TRANS AND IT FUCKING STINGS BECAUSE HE WISHES IT WAS THAT FUCKING EASY WILL WISHES HE COILDVE JUST STAYED A FUCKING GIRL AND BEEN HAPPY AND BEEN NORMAL WITH MIKE
IT TEARS HIS HEART OUT BECAUSE EVEN IF MIKE REALIZED EVEN IF MIKE APOLOGIZED LIKE HIS LIFE DEPENDED ON IT (it does, will is his world) NOTHING CAN FUCKING HEAL THAT.
the end scene, in the forest, things aren’t the same between them, it’s unspoken but they can feel the tension because that’s something u cant ever take back
they have the guns, they’re fucking around and mike feels so hopeless knowing what he’s done. he’s being rash because he can’t picture a world with will rightfully hating him. he pulls the trigger.
IM IN SO MUCH FUCKING PAIN SOMEONE PUT ME OUT OF MY MISERY