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[fishfortress]

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i would buy his album

[blu-engiespy]

I love your Spy!!! Sylvian is one of my favorite versions of them! The design is so cute, I love the personality, marvelous!

I’d love to hear more about him! Whatever you wanna share I’d love to hear!

Thank you so much! A lot of stuff got finally written out on his artfight profile which I had a lot of fun with, but I'll ramble a bit of other facts for you :]

He's very good at playing the piano. A lot of hand dexterity based skills come very easy for him, as the muscle memory came built into him as a clone. He's very proficient in of course, butterfly knife tricks, but also slight of hand and card tricks.

For a long time he finds himself completely unable to show his teammates his face other than Dell, and their team's Medic (but after the spyhead incident he has difficulties feeling safe around Medic again for some time). Of course if he ever needs to go out around town, he would go without his mask, but that's around strangers and he considers it more like playing a character.

His teammates know him more personally, however much he tries to maintain an air of detached formality around most of them. Showing his face and telling people his name is a vulnerability that makes him incredibly nervous and requires a lot of trust. The third teammate to see his face was Scout, not long after he revealed the fact of being Scout's parent to him.

I personally consider a lot of his behavior to be rooted in OCD, an obsession with the fact that if people know him too well they'd use it against him, only relieved some by the compulsive need to hide himself. He also has cleanliness obsessions that result in hand washing compulsions (and is why he tends to wear gloves often).

Also, he's actually not that bad of a parent! Syl has been looking out for Scout since day one, subtly taking hits for him on the battlefield and backstabbing enemies before they can get to him. Dell, from his backline position, noticed this and it was part of how they first started seriously talking to each other. The others didn't trust Sylvain very much initially due to his secretive and withdrawn nature, but Dell could tell he had some connection to Scout and also was very much secretly rather caring. Syl feels incredibly guilty for what happened with Scout's mother and how Scout was raised without a father (even though he had no real say in it as he is a clone and this is all implanted memories).

I care about him SO much and have so much nuance and information on him so thank you for letting me ramble a little :]

[fishfortress]

Happy 22nd birthday!!! I hope it's a good one ::D

thank you so much!!!

[fishfortress]

the trypophobia meme would fit your fanfic (a symphony of suffering) so much, and especially the final act of the story. i've just realised this today as i listened to the whole song. besides the dark tone, the lyrics just match. there's mentions of brain parts like frontal lobe and amygdala, and medic is literally a trypo-puppeteer: spy's his puppet and he made holes in his head. (trypophobia = fear of clusters of holes) "I'm losing my autonomy, a mutilated part of me" "Supplications to leave him alone" "I can't inhale anymore" "Pull my skin and swallow ichor" -> ichor is a mythical golden fluid that flows in the veins of gods. Medic is playing god. "Tie the tourniquet" -> there wasn't a literal one in your fic, but the act of ceasing the blood circulation was. and there was also that metal vice in chapter 5 that this reminded me of.

i just thought this was cool. your fanfic quite literally started my obsession with the blu spy decapitation plot and i keep thinking about it

omg i LOVE amygdala's rag doll, I've been a big fan of GHOST for years!! I'm not very familiar with animation memes but I'm very familiar with the song itself. You're so right, and I'm honestly shocked it didn't end up on my playlist I made back when I was writing it. I love this breakdown of the lyrics so much, it fits so well! Thank you for sharing!! I'm so pleased to hear I've spread my blu spy obsessed spores to you

[blu-engiespy]

Everyone's thoughts on Medic? Whether it's before or after The Awakening is your choice.

oohhh hehe okay I'll do that one next and tag you in it when it's done

[blu-engiespy]

are u ok? u haven't updated in a while :<

hi! im okay. I was taking a break originally in early april for health reasons bc i ended up in the hospital again, then once i got my creativity back i got caught up in my other tf2 project Severed Fortress, and then in the attempt to take a break from that and work on my other projects like kmmd again, my chronic health issues got worse again :[

so I've been stuck in migraines every day hell for over the past week. which isn't like hospital level bad but it's been pretty impossible to focus on writing. i really wanna get back to it as soon as i feel better though. so sorry for all the delays!

[fishfortress]

I felt like thinking about spy torment today so I started kill me and I’m only a tiny bit in but can I just say? Holy fuck. This line. It’s so good. It’s so medic. Thank you. I love it and I hate him so much already.

Hehe thank you!!! I had so much fun writing Medic for that fic. I hope you enjoy it!

[fishfortress]

P: Hello fish who is made of smaller fish I have made a tumblr account Behold! My existence

AH ITS YOU! i was like huh....? who? and then i clicked to view your blog and it clicked. hiiii pawpad