On these months, I've got frustrated, because of my first job as Enviro Officer. The more I depressed, the more medicine I used everyday to lighten my horrible life as enviro officer then :') at this time, my workplace shape me to be strong enough for getting insult every week at weekly meeting, getting tanned because of everyday's monitoring on field and.. getting sick by non stop working day since I was office worker before :)
But, with my determination, passion, and never ending positive thinking I succesfully passed this phase and start to know what exactly my jobdesc is. Alhamdulillah.
Im getting used to be Enviro Officer. My workplace become more convenient for me. It started to be my second home after all of ups and downs. And I started to be happy with my job back then, alhamdulillah.
And then.. I went to "bukber" and "lebaran" with some of my besties in Perawang. Guess what? I was really happy then, because I'm making peace with my past. I can see him 100% as my bestfriend and my lesson. I don't see him as my past that haunted me anymore :'') it feels like, look.. we can still be longtime friend who's seeing each other once in a year :)
Through this months there are more ups than down that happened to me :') until 29th July.. My first boss in project left and everything on my workplace has changed since then.
My partner in crime, the one who's always listen to the talkative version of me got a promotion as my new boss.
ANE, cerita-cerita bodoh kita di ruangan ketika bos gak ada soal pak bos pindah dan kita yang jadi penggantinya kejadian dalam 1 malam! Feels like a dream but it happened XD
On August 17th, another "cerita-cerita bodoh di ruangan ketika bos gak ada" happened and surprised me a lot :')
After my first independence day ceremonial on Pekdum 1, I signed something that relieve my stress a little bit after my first boss leave us.
After she got promotion as my boss, Ane and I didn't get enough sleep, stress, and get more pressure for a month :')
With our big heart, passionate, and never ending efforts, we tried our best to replace our past boss. And.. after a month, once again, Alhamdulillah we passed all of those inhibitors, challenges and cursed from the external parties who really wanted to make us down. And finally, we can handle it and make the situation better than before :')
In September, we decided our new coworker from project and HQ helped us by put in our new coworker. Alhamdulillah, it helped us a lot to handle our work since then :)
At the begining of september, someone from my workplace told me something that changed the next 3 months of my life XD
I will call him "A" (alias)
"A" said that someone will come to my life as my destiny soon
I cant help but I laughed out loud after heard the ridiculous argument. After that argument, "A" always told me the same thing when we met. I ignored that ridiculous argument and live my life without getting distracted by other people XD
And voilaaaaa.. "A" didn't wrong enough about someone will come, it did.. but not only one hahaha
3 people came to my life and distracted my day since then XD
The elder said that before you're going 25, you need to change and open your heart for another soul.
And voilaaa.. I tried to open my heart, my eyes, and my mind for these people. But, between 3 of them I put my expectation to one of them :')
Ah, my distraction in October continued to the next month :')
The distraction continued day by day in November. Ah, I lost my mind and my logic. I need someone to give me advice at the time. Although there is no "yes" from this people for the future, I lost my mind because of putting an expectation for this people :')
One day, we talked about destiny and future. But, I was full and annoyed by this people statement wkwkwk
Because of getting annoyed by this people, I breathed out my exasperation on twitter wkwkwk and then, one of my follower was giving me strong argument about how to get rid this people from my day :')
In the end of december, slowly but sure, I netralized my head, soul and mind by going on day off from work for 8 days. It help me a lot to get rid my feeling, duh :)
And todaaay is the last day of my day off from work for this period. Ah, I need more holiday huhuhu
At last in this 2019, I need to note this argument haha because of my attention to detail and my observation to people around me, I can say that I'm the one who put Ane with her new boyfriend up! \^^/
Dila's mind wandering on 2/366