I am in so much emotional and psychological pain right now. My mental state has just been getting worse with each day. Every little thing feels like a stab in the heart, and I don’t know how much more I can take. God, I just want this to end. I want to go far, far away. Everything is too much, and I can’t handle it. I can’t. I can’t. I can’t. I can’t do this. I can’t. I don’t know what to do. I’m lost. I’m frozen. I can’t ask for help. Why can’t I ask for help? I don’t know what to do. I don’t know. I can’t. What’s wrong with me? I can’t do this. I can’t. I sound like a broken record. It’s reminiscent of the past. I didn’t know what to do then, and I don’t know what to do now. But this is different. I’m not there. No one is hurting me right now. I’m fine. I’m not being cornered and commanded like an animal. Nothing is in my mouth. Nothing is in me. I’m fine. Why can I feel it. Why can I feel it. I don’t know what to do. I can’t make a sound. Why am crying. I can’t I can’t I can’t. No no no I don’t want to I can’t. I can’t.
