My Very Best Friend.
What I regret the most is taking you for granted. I realize now that I did. I took you for granted and didn’t realize your way of communicating your discontent with the relationship. I will always carry that guilt with me.
We both messed up. I took you for granted; you told me; I changed; you hurt me; I changed back to how I used to be; I hurt you; you didn’t tell me; I continued to disrespect and treat you badly; you cheated; I lashed out instead of approach you with love and understanding; we hurt each other.
I don’t want to hurt you anymore. I’m so sorry. And I can’t tell you. You don’t want to hear from me. I’m too ashamed and scared to face you. And deep down inside, i know the only way to show you my last ounce of love and how sorry I am is to let go. It’s to allow you to fall in love with someone better for you...it’s to allow myself to love again...myself, my friends, my family, and whoever God has lined up for me.
I pray for you every day. I pray that you find the happiness and love that I couldn’t provide you with. Deep down, I know this isn’t you. You’re a good person, I will always believe that. I hope you think of me in that way too.
I will always have love for you, Vener. You’re my very best friend. I will always be thankful for you. You showed me love when no one else did...not even myself. You taught me how to be treated by a loving man and what I want in a relationship. But now, you’re teaching me your final lesson...to let go. My only choice is to let go.
I love you, Vener...always did and always will. I realize I never unloved anyone in my past. And I won’t start with you. I wish the best for you, Vener. I wish you happiness and success. I wish you the woman and family that you always wanted. I wish you happiness, kindness, respect, loyalty, care, and above all, love.
