Last 5K of August. August has been my worst month since March. I spent all of March sick with bronchitis so running was off the table. Now with my back, tailbone and leg out of whack... just feeling all sorts of anxious, angry and mostly feeling defeated. My family is getting the aftermath of me not running and that makes me feel even worse. I have a marathon in January that I haven’t trained properly for because I keep thinking it won’t happen. Who knows what restrictions will come with it if it does happen. I’m not ready and I’m a fool thinking I was. My job doesn’t make me happy anymore. My weight gain is making me extra depressed. My family and I may have to leave our forever home for financial reasons and because covid-19, the hubby has yet to find a job. Feeling like a failure all around that I’m unable to provide for my family. I’m not OK. It’s fine that I’m not OK. Trying to find my way to be OK. Here’s your reminder to check on your friends that continue to smile, post silly pictures and memes even though they are struggling. We’re not doing so good. 🖤🖤🖤 #floridarunner #instarunclub #fortheloveoftherun #teamrundisney #runwalkrun #werunsocial #distancerunner #ihavearunnersbody #runhappy #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #rundisneytraining #runningcommunity #runlikeagirl #momontherun #momswhorun #inspiringwomenrunners #thesparklesquad #shokzsquad #keepittight #streakingwiththecoolkids #runningformysanity #runwalkrun #myhappypace #paceyourself #runnernotrunning #rawThreads #injuredrunner #itsoktonotbeok (at Country Club, Florida) https://www.instagram.com/p/CEg8H12H9AV/?igshid=1oj91g65abizj