#flourescent hell

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The shadows weren’t monsters. That would’ve been too easy. They were him. One was hunched over. Another was trying to fly. A third was just perfectly still with the glowing, dissociated gaze. Fragments of a mind, scattered across an obsidian floor that went on forever.

CONTENT WARNINGS: Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Dissociation, Body Horror, Liminal Horror, Bureaucratic Horror, Psychological Horror, Institutional Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Medical Trauma, Psychological Distress, Emotional Distress, Trauma Responses, Dissociation, Self-Erasure, Self-Neglect, Identity Crisis, Sensory Issues, Panic, Overwhelm, Existential Dread, Implied Death

Read Chapter One HERE

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"There is no line item for 'death' in the budget! There are deadlines, Keigo! Infrastructure and protection statutes that haven't been audited in three cycles because you were busy pining over someone you knew for five minutes. Did you ever think what would happen to the public, the very people you set out to protect, if you just... stopped?"

CONTENT WARNINGS: Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Dissociation, Body Horror, Liminal Horror, Bureaucratic Horror, Psychological Horror, Institutional Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Medical Trauma, Psychological Distress, Emotional Distress, Trauma Responses, Dissociation, Self-Erasure, Self-Neglect, Identity Crisis, Sensory Issues, Panic, Overwhelm, Existential Dread, Implied Death

Read Chapter Two HERE

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“You aren't him. I don't want a perfect version. I want the version that would still be broken, because that's the only world where I'm real. Because I am broken.”

CONTENT WARNINGS: Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Dissociation, Body Horror, Liminal Horror, Bureaucratic Horror, Psychological Horror, Institutional Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Medical Trauma, Psychological Distress, Emotional Distress, Trauma Responses, Dissociation, Self-Erasure, Self-Neglect, Identity Crisis, Sensory Issues, Panic, Overwhelm, Existential Dread, Implied Death

Read the Final Chapter HERE

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“It wasn’t enough! If we aren’t hurting, then we aren’t working. If we aren’t bleeding, then we aren’t real. You want to forgive yourself? You want to wake up and go back to a world where you don’t have to carry the weight of your transgressions? That’s cowardice, Keigo. Pain is the only thing that proves we were ever there.”

CONTENT WARNINGS: Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Dissociation, Body Horror, Liminal Horror, Bureaucratic Horror, Psychological Horror, Institutional Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Medical Trauma, Psychological Distress, Emotional Distress, Trauma Responses, Dissociation, Self-Erasure, Self-Neglect, Identity Crisis, Sensory Issues, Panic, Overwhelm, Existential Dread, Implied Death

Read Chapter Three HERE

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“No, you’re a kid who was hurt so badly you thought being a weapon was safer than being a person. The violence you endured. You were told it was for the ‘Greater Good,’ but they just wanted a blade that wouldn’t fight back like Kaina did. You weren’t a hero yet, Keigo. You were a victim of the people who told you they were the only ones who cared."

CONTENT WARNINGS: Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Dissociation, Body Horror, Liminal Horror, Bureaucratic Horror, Psychological Horror, Institutional Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Medical Trauma, Psychological Distress, Emotional Distress, Trauma Responses, Dissociation, Self-Erasure, Self-Neglect, Identity Crisis, Sensory Issues, Panic, Overwhelm, Existential Dread, Implied Death

Read Chapter Seven HERE

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“They gave us everything. A bed. Food. Training. A purpose. We just have to be good, right? I just wanted them to keep me. I thought if I tried hard enough... they would.”

CONTENT WARNINGS: Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Dissociation, Body Horror, Liminal Horror, Bureaucratic Horror, Psychological Horror, Institutional Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Medical Trauma, Psychological Distress, Emotional Distress, Trauma Responses, Dissociation, Self-Erasure, Self-Neglect, Identity Crisis, Sensory Issues, Panic, Overwhelm, Existential Dread, Implied Death

Read Chapter Five HERE