➜ 𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑆𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑡 𝐴𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑙
( Jake Jensen! x Innocent Reader )
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• Plot: Just Jake giving comfort at a SA situation.
•Important to read before continuing!:
I do not romanticize, normalize or promote the consensus of any type of Abuse.
I do not romanticize the BARE MINIMUM that a person or in this case a man should do in a situation like this.
This is pure fiction and I wrote it because I empathize as SA survivor.
I do not intend to take this topic as a subject of romanticization, if this content triggers you DO NOT READ IT, I send a hug to all the survivors out there ♡!
•WARNINGS!!
•The content of this fanfiction is for people over 18 years of age, any interaction by minors will be blocked without hesitation.
•SA/SH topics •Fluff Jake Jensen •Naive reader •talking about despersonalitation and desrealization! •mentions of abuse •angst •difficult content that can trigger sensitive people • (does not implied consensual sex)
•I tried to be as less explicit as possible but I left writings open for this.
•Author's note: I wanted to make a fluff thing with Jake jensen So bad! there are many things mentioned here that unfortunately happen daily.
THIS IS PURELY FICTION, I DO NOT AGREE, NOR DO I SUPPORT BAD THINGS MENTIONED HERE. IF THIS IS NOT YOUR CUP OF TEA KEEP SCROLLING ♡
LIKES, REBLOGS AND COMMENTS ARE VERY APRECIATED 🧚♀️💗🌷
ANY MISTAKE OF WRITTING ITS COMPLETY MY FAULT, INGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LENGUAJE.
A knock on the bathroom door makes you come out of your depersonalization in the shower, letting the warm water run through your body, trying to "clean yourself"
Running the duck-shaped sponge over and over your thighs and waist, as if a second skin were going to come off, trying to assimilate what happened.
"Darling is everything fine?" said Jake, worried about the time you took in the shower, 20 minutes longer than usual, usually he wouldn't ask why you took so long, but your strange appearance when you returned home made him hesitate.
"I..I yes! almost ready Jakey."
You said clearing your throat so as not to show signs of having cried.
What a shame, what a shame to have to confess all this to Jake, surely he would be angry if you confess such a thing, he could be disappointed on you or maybe he would be annoyed!
You shook your head and rolled yourself up in the withe bath robe.
Taking small steps to get out of the shower, He came to hug you and take you to bed
"You know I missed you so much today my little girl."
He commented while kissing your cheeks and slowly untying the knot of the towel, showing lovely caresses on your naked body, letting his fingers slide over the wet skin of your arms, the only thing that separated him from you was a stupid robe that he himself gave you thinking about how much you like comfy things.
He had missed his girl a lot, his sweet Angel.
He stayed at home, working on Curtis's computer programming, that's why he decided to let you go to the supermarket alone, but he ended up missing you more than usual.
You tensed before his action, remembering that what happened was absolutely your fault, you cheated on him, you lied to him, you broke the promise to be loyal.
Guilty thoughts invaded your mind, he would never do that to you and you betrayed the relationship.
"Uh..Jakey I think it's better that I...put my clothes on."
You tried to hide your gaze from across the room, avoiding his possible angry reaction.
The man separated from you and took you by the waist, arching his eyebrowns in concern, he wanted to go further.
Something like this had never happened in the time that you both have been together, you usually like to please him and he like to please you too, an implicit mutual agreement of pleasure.
You received a kiss on your forehead, he understand before the clear evidence that today you would not do anything in the room with him "It's Okay princess, we can watch a movie downstairs if you want."
He smiled kindly, "we can eat hundreds of candies just for today my girl"
He gave you a kiss on the cheek, his love lenguaje was always physical contact.
Other times that idea would sound like the best idea on the planet, but your stomach was in a knot to even think about food or candies.
He understanded your decision, smiling tenderly, maybe you were not in the mood or you were very tired he thought, and without wanting to ask why he left the room.
A quiet cry came out of you, the sadness it was very strong, your chest hurt and you did not feel that your body was on the planet, a horrible depersonalization attacked you.
You couldn't keep hiding this from him, he's so good to you and you cheated on him!
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Your body lying on his chest while he was still sitting on the couch, watching one of those comedy movies while he played with your hair.
"Honey you haven't touched your plate since i turned on the tv."
The man was worried, usually you could eat candies until you got a headache that would force you to go to sleep with you both snuggled up.
You couldn't pay attention to the movie, In any moment the tears could come out of your eyes, Jake's laughter only made you smile weakly.
"Don't you think it's funny? it's a paradox." he said raising his arm pointing to the TV.
You nodded shyly without understanding the plot of the movie, your mind was elsewhere while your eyes focused on a fixed point, in the distance listening to the dialogue of the movie he chose.
Jake realized that something strange was happening, something different, that its not you, the things are not usually like this.
"Jakey...?" you spoke, you finally spoke.
After hesitating, you had thought of just telling no one, and omitting the truth to Jake, but you would probably feel worse.
With a shy tone you looked for his eyes, he was still playing with your hair but paying attention to the television.
"Ja..Jakey?" with a broken voice you called him again, and this time the man paid attention, he turned his head to see you.
"Tell me princess, are you alright?"
In his eyes you could see the adoration and the total concentration that he gives you when you want to talk to him.
He was with a doubt if there was something strange, something that he didn't know yet.
"You can count on me for anything, even if you need to hide a..."
Before before he could finish the joke, you interrupted him.
"I'm your angel?" The question took him by surprise, he frowned his gaze in doubt.
"Of course you are doll, my only and beautiful Angel."
His tone that exudes confidence makes you believe him every time he says anything to you, every time that he is so confidently affirming something to you...you believe him.
Small kisses were distributed all over your face, his affection was one of the things that made you happy the most and he knew it, he knew he needed to have that protective instinct with his sweet girl.
You nodded at his words, a little better but still worried, even so you had cheated on him, still you betrayed him, those words you repeated to yourself over and over again
"you still cheated on him".
Lovingly he rubbed the top of your head and gave you a kiss, a warm kiss, a kiss of love.
He loves you and you know it, he always shows it.
He doesn't deserve this but you couldn't take it anymore, you couldn't hide it anymore, big tears, tears that you had contained since the morning came out.
"Jakey..I-I'm so..so sorry"
Between words, small gasps from the loss of air before the uncontrolled crying worried the man, he paused the movie and incorporated in the couch.
He had never seen you cry like that, and he honestly didn't like that your angelic and innocent face had another expression other than happiness and emotion in the face of little things.
"Doll what happened? you are scaring me."
Because for you to have to interrupt one of his jokes, things had to be serious, you really liked to laugh out loud at what came out of his mouth, but not this time.
No words just cries and silence.
"Tell me what's wrong so I can help you."
He cleared the hair from your face to see you, with his fingers he took your jaw and raised your face, tears and eyes like a hurt lamb were shown on your face, the shame, the sadness and the fear.
His eyes were desperately looking for yours.
"Honey what's up, you can trust me, you're really scaring me"
You sniffled, "No..Jakey.."
You moved your head to the side again and again refusing to speak, he gave you a warm hug, "Anything princess, I'm for you."
You whimpered from the center of your stomach.
"Promise...that you won't tell anyone, and that you won't get mad at me."
Your swollen lips from biting them so much to not let the words come out of your mouth caught his attention, when you are quiet you usually bite your lips until you slightly hurt them.
You raised your little finger to seal a promise, a very common habit between the two of you when you have a secret to keep.
Jake nodded and intertwined his little finger with yours, with a face of doubt that was more evident than anything else.
"Please..Jakey promise me I'll still be your favorite person after this."
You said while playing with the sleeves of your nightgown and with your head down.
"I promise I will continue to see you sexy after this princess."
He said winking his eye, still not knowing that this was more serious than he thought.
You smiled slightly and started.
"Today... I..I went to the supermarket.."
The man grabbed your head and ran his hand through your hair waiting for you to finish telling the story.
Not knowing what was going to come out of your mouth was that was making Jake nervous.
"Everything was fine... but in the fruit hall..."
Jake smirked.
"Are you going to tell me you're like this because you stole a grape from his bag again and got caught?"
The man laughed, trying to soften the tension of the moment, because honestly with your naivety it was very likely that you would be caught stealing grapes.
You raised your head in denied.
"I met a man.."
Your heart was beating fast, as if you had run hundreds of kilometers, your hands were cold and your mouth was dry.
His heart dropped from his chest to his stomach, his first thought was that you stopped loving him, that the spark went out and you found someone else, he swallowed thickly.
"A..and I was trying to reach something from a high shelf"
Jake's breaths were slow, almost like he was being charged $100 a breath.
You waited for a sign on his face to continue, looking at his two eyes, because of his height you had to raise your head a bit, and it was almost like the times when you were on your knees in front of him, like when he has a stressful day.
More tears came out of your eyes going through your soft big eyelashes as you remembered what happened next.
"He...he was nice at first but..."
After being silent, Jake spoke
"But? what happened next?..babe?" he took your knee with his hand that was going up and down quickly.
"He...he lied to me." he tilted his head a little and opened his lips between, he didn't know what that really meant.
"He..he said that could help me reach what was on the higher shelf."
The change in your gaze was drastic, that's where Jake suspected what happened.
Hiccup and insignificant sobs came from your mouth.
"I said yes, and..And he got behind me..And.."
Jake wanted to rush the way you told everything, but he couldn't be too anxious or he would lose your trust and the small talk that you both had about this.
"How was he?" Dumb question, maybe he didn't know, he didn't know what to ask, you closed your eyes quickly and brought your hands to your face, when tears kept coming out of your eyes, he wiped each one of them with his fingers.
"I hear you."
"Tall, and..and he have green eyes.." he nodded.
"And... I thought it was fine that he was getting behind me...Jakey..I swear it was a very high shelf for me"
You tilted your head, looking for pity in his eyes and making your eyebrows furrow in sadness.
And it's true, anything compared to you is taller unless if you're wearing the black heels you bought for Christmas.
"But then... he started running his nose down my neck..and... there weren't many people in the supermarket to ask for help."
Loud sobs kept coming out of your mouth.
Jake closed his eyes for a moment, he knew where this was going to go and he wasn't liking it.
He wanted to rip this moment out of your brain and burn it with the crumpled papers from his office, you don't deserve this, not to his sweet girl.
In case it was what he believed, he was sure that he would do everything possible to kill whoever hurt his girl .
"And... and it seemed strange to me when..when he.."
You lowered your eyes in shame to have to say it out loud so you lowered your tone.
"He was...just like you."
Jake tilted his head, he didn't understand what was happening, and after giving you the time to talk he expressed himself
"Could you repeat that?"
You agreed "He was like you."
Jake put his elbows on his legs, a curious look followed by taking your left hand.
"what does that mean doll?"
"Yes, when... when you and I played in the room... you... you are... was it..hard?"
Jake sighed and his exhalation took a long time to come out, he took his glasses and ran his hand over his face, he was frustrated, angry, annoyed, but not with you, with the guy who had dared to do something as cruel as insinuating and abusing your innocence.
The information chilled his bones, as if a bucket of frozen water had been dropped on him while he slept.
"And..and"
"he lift my skirt, and he.. rubbed his thing against me"
You shook your eyes at remembering the feeling of the man behind you rubbing himself.
Jake couldn't think of anything else but the way in which even talking about this, you were ashamed but even so, he appreciated the trust you have in him.
You sniffed at the amount of fluid coming out of your nose.
"Jakey..he still had his pants on but I could feel him..sorry..sorry I..I didn't mean to cheat on you!"
He looked up, your face eager for his forgiveness, afraid that he was mad at you.
How could he be mad at you?
How could he be mad at you for something that wasn't your fault?
How could he blame you for having no idea of the cruelty of some men?
Something got damaged inside him, something consumed him at your words, in your innocence you thought that was cheating on him.
"And...And I had noticed that he was following me before but...but I thought he wanted to make friends!"
You are too innocent and sweet for this world.
He tilted his head
"Doll..a lot of people out there are mean."
And he blamed himself for not coming with you, he blamed himself for not quitting his stupid computer programming job to protect you.
You lowered your head while your hands continued to play with your nightgown
"I...I feel...dirty."
"I believe you doll, you are very brave for talking to me about this, if what he did made you uncomfortable then it was wrong, you are not dirty, or bad, you were just getting into your business, he is sick"
After that Jake's silence was worrying for you, he didn't speak at all, you could only see you in both eyes, looking for words to tell you.
"You don't deserve this, I'm not going to leave you alone"
You smiled tenderly.
"I'm not mad at you because you are my Angel, and Its also because I love you so very much no matter what."
Jake's words were like a glass of water in the middle of the desert.
"He asked me.. if I wanted to be his girl for the night."
He just wished this was a bad dream, he wished he hadn't had to work to come with you, he wished that man hadn't touched your innocence in such a cruel and depraved way.
The seat of the armchair became more and more uncomfortable, and the darkness of the room only illuminated by the television gave a dramatic aspect at the revelation.
"I told him that I had a boyfriend... and... he told me that I was probably a stupid boy who doesn't know how to play well."
The words were on the tip of your tongue, you remembered everything in detail.
As if nothing, you finished telling the story,
you wiped away your tears with your thumbs, your head started to ache from crying for so long.
"Doll, you didn't cheat on me, you were just minding in your own bussines, this is not your fault, you are not dirty, you are not bad, he is."
After the two of you were silent, and Jake looked at you with the worried face you've never seen before, you took a piece of candy from the bowl and unwrapped it to put it in your mouth.
"Jakey?... are you mad... at me?"
He looked for your gaze, swallowing his tears, to be strong for you.
"Princess... what? no! absolutely not, I wouldn't be upset with you at all, you are not alone"
Your eyes lit up through so many tears, you swallowed the strawberry flavor of the caramel.
"Seriously?" he nodded and hugged you tightly.
"Sorry, sorry for not coming with you, sorry for not protecting you my girl"
He said and you giggled.
"This isn't your fault Jakey...maybe if I hadn't put on my favorite skirt he wouldn't have lifted it."
Every cell in his body caught on fire, with the force of his being he hated that man so much, and blamed himself for not protecting your innocence.
"You know this is abuse, and pretty girls who had been abused have to speak up right?"
He said putting your hair behind your ears and taking you to lie on your chest.
"Mmm..I thought I was cheating on you"
He kissed your head.
"Nothing that man did has anything to do with you, or your look, or your skirt or your gentleness, he's rotten inside, and deserve death."
Tears came to your eyes as you remembered everything again like a vivid memory.
"Jakey...I didn't want that he.." Jake shushed you.
"I know honey, I know, let me take care of this."
Tears stained his t-shirt.
"th..thank you.."
"¿Jakey?"
A soft sound came out of his mouth, giving you permission to continue.
He was rubbing your back and you clung to his shirt like your life depended on it
"I..think... I think I don't want to go to a supermarket again for a while."
His hard look scared you, but he was just thinking of ways in which he and Lloyd could help him capture and kill that idiot.
"Don't worry princess, I can take care of that... so you can't had to go to there again..but I can help you, find a safe space you know..to get over this."
Your heart jumped with joy, like the flowers that bloom in spring, he was not angry with you!
He understood you and supported you, there was nothing more you could ask for than to feel understood.
"I'm sorry..for..for not having sex with you when I went out to the shower."
You wiped away your tears as high-pitched sobs escaped your puffy red lips.
He inhaled air scented with your perfume, still wondering what he did to win over a girl as sweet and innocent as you.
It seemed you cared more about what he thought than your own abuse.
"We can stop doing it for a while if that bothers you ...I wouldn't mind at all, I care..I really care 'bout you and your safety"
"Uh..I like cuddles...we can do that!!"
The man nodded trying to give you a smile of encouragement, he knew that these issues are more difficult to overcome than they seem, and a false step could trigger you.
"Sleep" he said "you need to rest my brave little girl, thank you for telling me."
you let out a deep exhalation.
"Jakey?" an "uhm" came from the man's lips.
"what if I had a nightmare?"
you said raising your eyes to meet his gaze, He thought about going to the room to get your stuffies but he didn't want to leave you, not again, not for a moment more..
"I'll fight with your nightmares then."
A soft sigh left your body as you settled into Jake's chest.
"I love you...a-and sorry to ruin your movie."
The man clenched his jaw, what happened to you it's not fair and it never will be.
He is not capable of getting angry with you for interrupting a movie, much less for trusting him.
He continued to draw circles on your back, and you started to fall asleep, but only this time he would not be able to sleep.
In his eyes you are an ethereal angel, and he would know very well who to require to to take care of that situation.
Perhaps it was difficult for him, because one part of your spark had gone out, seeing you discouraged or depersonalizing at any time, but he was not selfish, you felt it even more and needed support.
To see how before leaving home you replaced your skirts or dresses with comfy pants.
You Patiently waiting for him at home, anxious to see him walk through the door with the supermarket purchases, and making a list on pink paper with many stickers so that he would not forget what you need, because you would not return to a supermarket in a long time.
And he became more careful, avoiding spooning you in bed, because that could remind you of that episode or get you triggered.
Also take care, what he said with you, worrying about seeing you depersonalize at any time or feel sad at some inopportune time.
fill you with courage so that you decide to go to a psychologist or to talk about small details that you focused on while that horrible episode happened.
He would do whatever it took not to abandon his girl, and anything to make that man pay for what he did with his sweet angel.
