To say that he was fascinated was an understatement. Of course, the situation was not entirely ideal, considering he had no intentions of impregnating Molly in the first place, or any female for that matter, but now that it happened, and he had some time to accept the fact, he was intrigued. Mary hadn’t been around enough to allow him to track the changes in her body, so he missed out on that opportunity. But now with Molly pregnant, and with his child no less, he had a nearly unrestricted ability to observe. He could have more, easily, but to achieve that he would have to enter into a committed relationship, and he’s not sure if that’s possible.
Sherlock’s desire to be in one is not the problem. It’s what comes along with him should he commit. Molly and their unborn child were already a weak point to him; if the whole of London was to find out about them, there’s no telling in what sorts of danger they would be put into. Anytime he thinks of asking for more from her, the names of all those who swore revenge on him flood his mind, names of those who would have no qualms with using her as a bargaining chip, who would abuse her without a second thought. Only the idea of that makes him ill enough to keep his mouth well and truly shut about the matters of a public relationship.
Of course, if he truly wanted her safe, he never should have gotten into bed with her in the first place. It was a moment of weakness, walls torn down as he surrendered to her embrace, and he couldn’t find it in himself to regret it. Still, perhaps he should work more on resisting her further on, as much as he was unwilling to. It would be for the best.
For the time being, Sherlock’s knocking on the door of her flat, bouncing on his heels and full of energy. Half an hour ago he was informed via a text message that Molly had felt the first kick of their child, and he was eager to see if it would be repeated for him to feel against his own hand as well. Another bout of rapping his knuckles against her door, an impatient huff rushes out through his nose. In his hurry he had forgotten to grab her spare key, and he was in no mood to hear admonishments about his lock picking skills either. “Molly! For Chrissake what’s taking you so long?”
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