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[fmdjaein]

4am, after a late night practice (august 26th), off-camera

the first thing jaein does once they finish their practice is turn off her microphone and hand it over to a poor audio staff member who’s stuck staying up at this time of day because of the stupid rules that have been implemented. they exchanged sorry smiles for one another befor she ran away to the house ultraviolet was staying in. 

it was only the first night of this retreat, and she already wanted to run away. sike, she wanted to run away the moment she had to get on the van that brought her to this retreat. definitely didn’t help that the final broadcast for crowned was happening on her birthday. overall, this whole experience has done nothing but annoy jaein. 

she lets out a yawn in the bathroom, sliding down on the wall until she ends up on the floor. this is the only place without cameras thus the only place where she feels safe to complain. “i can’t believe our company signed us up for this,” she says along with a groan before looking up at her youngest member. 

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[fmdmin]

❝ son of cups

❝ artistic and introspective he’s usually a musician or visual artist of some kind, and he finds success within his field. his natural tendency to look inwards adds his charm and mystique. @fmdlucia august 26th, off camera

this is what minhee had been missing really, to see some other people in a not so serious enviroment. in a setting where he didn’t need to worry about a camera being shoved in his face, thought it was debatable. there was one everywhere but their bedrooms, so he can’t say he was safe from them. it was a survival show, a place where mnet knowing your every move was the goldmine. who you talked to, what you did. it was just as suffocating the more than he thought about it, a great illusion of freedom being portrayed. 

so he needs to blow some steam after that realization, beaning pulled over his head, baggy clothes to cover for the lack of will to look presentable. polaris was at the end of their world tour, minhee could count the days they had left on his fingers, no jetlag that was too annoying, but still not enough sleep to keep him happy. a weird limbo he tends to reach whenever their tours are ending. so, what better way to get himself in a mood  than go dance a bit?

of course with his luck, he ends up picking a taken one. “oh.” he says and is pretty much frozen at the door, unsure of what to do. “uhm.. are you gonna be long?” he finally collects enough brain cells to make a statement, a question. he has the power to kick her out, but minhee doesn’t feel like using it “i can chill in the corner while you finish up if you’re not gonna be long-”

[fmdduri]

@fmdlucia:

one thing that duri loved to do in his free time was karaoke. it was something that he had always enjoyed, ever since he was young with friends - renting karaoke rooms and just singing for hours. perhaps it was just because duri liked singing and performing, so in a sense, it was like he was performing in a way by going to the karaoke rooms to sing. he fell in love with singing in a different way, but it was something that had provided him with that love even more when he was younger; though some of his friends always saying it was unfair that duri can actually sing and sound good during karaoke. 

today was luckily, one of his off days, before things got busy again - in the last quarters of the year, unless the fourth coming up rather quickly, duri always found himself at his busiest, easily with titan. so, he was really just happy to get that day out, which happened to be a noraebang. but, luckily, he wasn’t there alone today, and instead, he was with a newer friend, sophia. 

happily, he giggles, in his usual manner. “ah, i’m really looking forward to this it feels like forever that i’ve come to a noraebang,” he says, chuckling softly. “feel free to order whatever you want, it’s on me!” he responded, his smile growing a bit more. “and you can pick the first song!”

[fmdkiana]

august 27, after the bbq, off camera

kiana didn’t adjust well, in most any situation. expecting her to immediately feel comfort in a new home with a set of roommates she barely knew was a fool’s errand. after all, it’d taken years before she became comfortable enough in the dorms with equinox to fully relax and be herself. she’d spent every second before coming to the shoot location worried about these few days, and while per usual the reality hadn’t turned out to be as bad as her thoughts, it wasn’t easy either.

she needed this space, to be able to curl herself up in the back corner of her part of the bunk bed, phone against her legs as her one saving grace without her laptop to comfort her. on the other end, she hoped, would be her mystery companion willing to get her mind off of reality. she typed out a message, “i’ve been thinking lately that if i was a magical creature, it’d be a waste to not be one that flies. it’s not all that show-y, but it’d be very useful in getting out of situations.” often kiana imagined herself sinking into the floor when negativity struck, but flying high might be the positive spin on that. she typed out a second message, “or at least you could see the world for free.”

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