#fockbambi .

[theyforget]

@fockbambi​         /      ‘ kiss. my. ass. ’ !!!!       /         prompt.

‘ i stopped kissing your ass a long time ago. ‘ jiseok doesn’t hesitate to roll their eyes , sitting in their old bedroom , staring at the little nemo wallpaper that was still slowly chipping off of the ceiling. they can only assume that their grandparents let bambi inside or he had climbed through one of the windows , they wouldn’t put the latter past him whatsoever. they can feel a headache creeping up , annoyed wasn’t how they would describe it. 

they don’t know what to feel these days , with evie’s death and having to see all of their old friends in the same depressing place they had all started in , it makes them feel a bit of an outsider. they never really felt like they fit into the group , to begin with , too quiet in contrast to how loud the rest of them could be. too reserved , too scared of doing a lot of things when the majority wasn’t afraid of breaking the law for a candy bar. 

they can’t say that they aren’t hurt by bambi’s words at least somewhat , he was their first love and one of their first friends. they still considered him to be one of their best friends to this day , despite everything that had happened between them , even with how they had left off. jiseok isn’t sure what they did to hear this from bambi , they aren’t sure half of the time whenever bambi says anything. they stand up , pulling themselves from off the floor , rubbing the side of their temple almost hard enough to move the piercing above their eyebrow. 

‘ what the fuck is your problem now , bambi? ‘ these days , they weren’t as reserved as the group may have remembered them. sure , they were quiet but they are quick to stand up for themselves. maybe , at some point , they had gotten tired of being pushed around by everyone and anyone. and they weren’t going to let bambi , out of everyone , just start shit with them when they were barely out of the dissociation zone. 

they close the distance between the two of them , still standing a few steps away from bambi. ‘ i know we left off on shitty terms , but i’m not going to let you try and start shit with me. so , either we can steal some soda from the gas station and talk about whatever the fuck is going on between us or you can scream about me like a fuckin’ child while i walk away. pick your poison , because i’m not going to let you go off on me again. ‘

[theyforget]

@fockbambi         /            "stop crying." ( AAAH )         /         prompt.

they tense up when they hear bambi’s voice , after the chaos that was evie’s funeral , they thought that they were finally alone and had time for their scheduled breakdown that was bound to come at some point today. part of what he said made them realized how much he had changed since they last saw each other , bambi felt the same yet like a whole different person sometimes. it always felt like that to jiseok growing up , but now it felt like whoever bambi was , had disappeared somewhere between the lines of drugs that he probably saw more often than jiseok would have liked. 

they take a deep breath , wiping their tears away with the sleeve of their hoodie. they didn’t really bother to even glance at him , they aren’t too sure why they didn’t , maybe because they couldn’t bring themselves to look at him like they use to. they used to look at him with nothing but love , yet these days , the only thing in their eyes was always unreadable. they shift in their seat , focusing on what’s in front of them. it’s dark outside , jiseok is sure that the rest of the group is either trying to sleep or staring at a wall somewhere. 

maybe this is why they figured it to be the perfect time to just sit outside and try to get all of their feelings out , had this still been before everything , they wouldn’t have listened to bambi and would still be crying either way. they aren’t sure what drove them to listen to him now , maybe because they didn’t trust him enough to cry around him anymore. it feels like there’s a heavy tension between them and jiseok isn’t even sure if bambi is sober enough to feel it , or if he is sober at all right now. they look at the sky , the moon was out and part of them wondered if evie would have liked to look at the moon with them. 

they never knew if she liked that kind of thing , but it felt like she probably would have. after all , she liked the majority of things the group was into , maybe she liked space too like jiseok does. they take a deep breath , noting that bambi was still there and it makes them wonder if he knows that he’s still here too or if he had astral projected back inside during the time that they got lost in their thoughts. 

still , they want to say something to him at least , something so that the silence could be broken. yet , they couldn’t help the sharpness that laced their tone , a surprising thing to hear in the raspiness of their voice. ‘ well , congrats. i’m not crying anymore .... did you come out here for a reason or was i just crying too loud , bambi? ‘

[theyforget]

@fockbambi​       /       “tell me how to make it better.” uvu     /     prompt.

there’s something about bambi saying those words that reminded them of the years prior to now , it felt like a long time ago , like decades. but , it really hadn’t been that long ago , hadn’t it? back to when they were kids , the day jiseok got home from the hospital , after the accident. after everything , it hit them like a pile of bricks. the fact that they didn’t have their parents anymore , the guilt of not being able to remember them or anything prior to the accident. 

it left a feeling in their chest , like an empty space that shouldn’t be there , like they had lost a part of themselves then. they remember him saying the same thing , tucked away into their bed , tear-stained and heartbroken. even to this day , jiseok isn’t sure if they deserved to cry over their parents , after all , they remembered little to nothing of them anymore. nothing clear anyways , it felt like all of the memories of their parents had been brought in by different sources. none of those being their own or their parents , all from others who thought sharing these things with them would help. 

despite good intentions , it only made them feel worse for not remembering. for not knowing these things like they should , why couldn’t they be normal? in this moment , they felt like a child again , so small. it made them feel useless , like they should be helping everyone else , they didn’t want to focus on themselves. not after everything that had happen , yet here they were. tears spilling down their cheeks that they tried to roughly wipe away to no avail , sobs choking them between every attempt. 

hands are shaky when they pull their inhaler out of their pocket , bringing it to their lips to inhale. afterwards , bringing it down to their side , taking several deep breaths before glancing at bambi with a forced smile. they wished they still trusted him enough to confined in him , but that was in the past , before they ended up breaking each other’s heart.

‘ i’m fine .... there’s nothing to make better. ‘ there’s a pause , looking away as their eyes focused on the floor. the tension in the room felt unbearable , the raspiness of their voice was unable to hide the pain behind it. ‘ if you were suggesting something else by that .... then i think that might been too overdue to fix , bambi. ‘

[theyforget]

@fockbambi​​         /           ♠           /          prompt.

jiseok is taken aback by the hug itself at first , despite not hesitating to hug back whatsoever. they hug him back tightly , smile was ear to ear , noticeable without even having to see their face. then they feel their feet lift off of the ground as bambi proceeded to spin them around , making a series of giggles to spill from their lips. 

they had always been one of the smallest in their group of friends , but they couldn’t remember the last time they had been hugged like this , by anyone , especially bambi. probably during junior high , if they tried hard enough to remember , although it would still all be rather blurry even so. 

giggles still coming out in bursts when bambi sets them back down , they press a quick kiss to his lips , absentmindedly playing with the other’s hair as they spoke. ‘ hey , what was that for? did you miss me or somethin’ ....? ‘

[theyforget]

@fockbambi​                    /               19 👀               /             prompt.

they would never forget it , it had been the night prior to their falling out , taking place in jiseok’s room. their grandparents had been asleep long ago , they hear a knock on the window , glancing at their phone to check the time.

1:42 a.m. , it had read , a smile making its way on their lips as they shifted out of bed. the book that had been previously reading became forgotten as they had always looked forward to the nights where bambi would come over. 

climbing in through their window at the most ungodly hours of the night , yet they didn’t mind it one bit. they always slept better when bambi was with them. they pulled the window open , a series of modicum giggles leaving them even before he had come inside. 

once he is inside , there’s no hesitation in the way that they take his hand , tugging him closer. once he is close enough , arms snake their way around his waist. they are smiling ear - to - ear as they place a kiss on their lips , the first one is quick. pout forming on their lips before the second one is placed , which quickly disappears once the kiss was placed , a slower and more loving one than the last.

pulling away with nothing but love in their eyes , shining brighter than any star possible. a hand leaving his waist to find its way to his cheek , the action taken as gentle as possible. voice is soft when they speak for the first time that night , barely above a whisper. ‘ i missed you. ‘

[theyforget]

@fockbambi​          /           “I’d be a witch in another life.”        /         prompt.

smile tugs at their lips when they hear the comment , laughter bubbling up in their chest , beginning to fill the previously empty air. eyes had been looking at the racks of costumes prior to looking at their best friend , seeing the mentioned witch costume in his hand. closing the space between them to admire the outfit , slight tilt of their head as they looked at it. 

they didn’t believe that the witch costumes were entirely accurate , after all , they didn’t know how a witch was supposed to look like themselves. but , they do think that the green skin is pretty far off , since no witch they have met has ever had green skin. yet , that was still up for change since they hadn’t met many witches. they assumed that they were a good enough example of a non - green witch , although , maybe they were thinking way too much over this considering it was just a costume for what people assumed was just a fairy tale. 

they find themselves looking at bambi , cheeks heating up slightly as they took notice how close they were to him , along with the fact that they had been standing there quietly for what could have been an awkward amount of time. even though , it seemed like a moment to be ignored , so that was exactly what they did. in attempted to forget about the flush on their cheeks. 

‘ well , if that’s the case , are you thinking about getting that costume ....? ‘ eyes lighting up briefly as if a lightbulb had went off. ‘ maybe we could do matching costumes? ‘

[theyforget]

@fockbambi​  — x.

jiseok didn’t know why they even came here , they hated loud places like this and clubs were just about the loudest place you can be. everyone was either drunk , high or both and they were close to leaving , making their way to the exit from where they had been just waiting it out at the bar. halfway hoping that all of this would die down , it had been hours and it did the exact opposite of die down , if anything it got louder. they got somewhat startled when they heard someone’s glass fall , shattering on the ground , taking their attention away that they ran right into the someone. features quickly find a look of disgust on them by whatever heavy smells that came off of the other , taking a step back before they spoke. ‘ oh — sorry. i was just trying to get out of here , got distracted by that noise. ‘ a pause as they motioned a hand , not giving the specific details on what the noise was. ‘ i’m sure you know how it is. ‘