#for reminder

[tinta-merahmuda]

Ketika kita berbuat baik, lalu perbuatan tersebut tidak dibalas sesuai harapan kita, tidak mengapa, sebab untuk mendapatkan balasan kebaikan tidak perlu hari itu dan juga dari orang yang sama.

[tinta-merahmuda]

Mengasingkan Diri

“Ada saatnya engkau ingin sendiri saja bersama angin, menceritakan seluruh rahasia lalu meneteskan air mata” (Bung Karno)

Benar apa yang dikatakan Bung Karno itu. Ada saatnya, seseorang ingin mengasingkan dirinya sendiri, dari siapapun. Bukan karena ia membenci semua orang, tapi karena ia kecewa dengan apa yang telah oranglain lakukan terhadapnya. Bahkan bisa jadi, ia pun kecewa pada diri sendiri.

Ah benar saja, kita tak bisa menghindar dari sesuatu yang dapat menusuk hati. Yang terlihat baik didepanpun, tak berarti baik pula ketika dibelakang kita. Bahkan yang membuat kita bahagia selama ini, tidak menutup kemungkinan bisa pula membuat pengkhianatan.

“Ah baperan!” “Ah lebay, gitu aja ngambek!” “Dasar cengeng!” Pernah berkata atau mendapatkan kata seperti itu? Kita tidak pernah tahu apakah seseorang terluka hatinya atau tidak ketika kita berbicara. Kita tidak bisa mencap bahwa seseorang akan baik-baik saja ketika kita pikir apa yang kita ucapkan adalah kata yang biasa. Mungkin menurut kita iya, tapi tidak dengan mereka. Apalagi bila sesuatu yang menurut kita itu ‘bercanda’ adalah hal yang biasa, namun tanpa kita sadari kita telah menyakiti mereka. Dan dari sanalah, rasa kecewa dan luka itu bisa ada.

Inilah hidup, dimana kita harus cerdas memposisikan diri dan juga hati. Memporsi harapan secukupnya, karena tidak semua orang mampu, tahu, dan mau menghargai kita.

Saya pernah baca sebuah kutipan dari teman “Meninggalkan atau ditinggalkan. Pada akhirnya kau akan sendirian”. Benar sekali. Hidup tak melulu tentang kebersamaan dan harus selalu bersama orang banyak. Karena terkadang, mengasingkan diri bisa membuat kita lebih paham mengenai apa artinya kehidupan. Begitu pula dengan ditinggalkan, mungkin dapat cukup memberi pembelajaran bagaimana berharganya sebuah pertemuan.

Tak ada salahnya ketika mengasingkan diri. Kita tidak selamanya harus bertahan dilingkungan yang orang-orangnya sering membuat luka pada kita. Dan atau yang tak memberi manfaat apapun. Kalau kita merasa setiap kali kita berada didekat mereka kita terluka dan membuat diri menjadi buruk, itu saatnya kita mulai memberi jarak.

Namun bukan berarti mengasingkan diri itu sama dengan meninggalkan seluruhnya sampai menjadi asing, benar-benar asing. Mengasingkan diri adalah memberi ruang pada diri sendiri untuk menyembuhkan hati, untuk beristirahat dari segala hal yang membuat kepala terasa berat, dan untuk belajar ikhlas memaafkan semua orang-orang yang telah menyakiti.

Setelah mengasingkan diri, kita bisa kembali, tergantung apa yang menjadi pilihan hati. Pilih yang memang baik untuk diri, bukan yang membuat rugi. Memberi jarak mungkin lebih baik, untuk meminimalisir terjadinya sakit hati untuk yang keduakali.

Pandai-pandailah menjaga hati. Sebab tak ada yang mampu merawat dan menjaga hati selain diri kita sendiri. Tak akan ada sakit hati, apabila kita sendiri tak memberi izin pada oranglain untuk menyakiti, mencabik, merobek, apalagi membunuhnya. Jadi apabila oranglain bisa mudah menyakiti, barangkali kita yang terlalu mudah mengizinkannya berbuat seenaknya pada hati kita.

[tinta-merahmuda]

Setan itu senang sekali menghancurkan rumahtangga, satu-satunya yang bisa membentengi yaitu keimanan. Maka, upayakan diri untuk tetap beriman sehingga tidak ada celah setan menghancurkan.

[novasunriseturtle]

List of things to draw to remind myself

Draw sharks for friend

Voltron x Super Sentai/Kamen Rider

Next Generation (not a band)

Beet J Stag (my new son)

Zi O

My Dark Lord OC

My Dairanger Comic (I’m fleshing the characters before drawing them)

Royal Knight Digimon

AUs for a anime show

Pokémon Team I played for each Pokémon game installment

Redraw past OCs without cringing

Backgrounds

Worldbuilding

Vehicles

Mechas

Diverse OCs (need to draw a variety of body shapes)

Monsters/Mythical Creatures

More dragons

[novasunriseturtle]

So how about that What If AU aka if Voltron was made for adults

Out of order but an idea for me to remember

Story idea - Shiro doesn’t come back until the final season revealing he’s in fact Keith’s uncle/older brother (whichever works) and did not die “I live bitch!”. Or better yet, he forms a team he finds on a planet he got teleported and saving other lives from the other side of the universe. Even though he’s no longer the Black Paladin as he entrusted Black to Keith, the people they saved still saw him as one and a hero. They also made like paintings of him or a statue. So it does switch between the main story and Shiro’s side story unless that’s bad writing. Cuz I was planning on adding more story to Shiro with his new rag tag team since I decided not to kill him off or use him as plot device.

Then it all comes together when Shiro sees Voltron and best reunion ever between his teammates he saw as family. Tears will be spilled.

They did discover the Blue Lion like the show so it stayed that way for like 13 chapters. So after Shiro is now stuck in the astral world (or his rag tag team adventures) lion switch happen, there’s an exchange between the leader and right hand man. Bayard exchange.

So they don’t work along at first leading to frustrations between members, yeah there’s a point even Lance got irritated but after some bonding and vulnerability they finally synchronized. So same thing like the show, just them being more open about it.

“I don’t think I’m cut out to be leader. I’m not calm like Shiro, I’m not as graceful as Allura, and I’m certainly not as good of tech like Hunk and Pidge. And you... Black made a terrible mistake of choosing me as its new paladin” Keith

“Honestly I was jealous you were chosen as the Black Paladin since you’re always the best out of everyone else. And that fact still stands even if I was forced to admit it. But to be frank with you, since the lion switch. I don’t think you’re as bad as you make it out to be. Sure you made an irrational decision and almost costed our lives but not everyone is perfect. Well maybe Shiro but the point is, you are a good leader and the lions never make mistakes. Black chose you for a reason and whatever it is, I will respect it. Besides, you’re not alone anymore. We’ll find Shiro. If it means risking and maybe not destroy everything in our path, I’ll gladly follow you and do this; together. Now let’s go fix this mess.” Lance

I’m taking the concept of Voltron only forming by bonds between lions and paladins into consideration by also having them not able to form Voltron because of dispute. This will also transfer negatively now they joined the Galra side since Lotor killed his father. That’s something I like seeing. Not to mention Lotor and Haggar being the main source to cause tension between teammates.

Do I keep Shiro clone? Nope. Gonna use the generals as double agents.

Do the Blades stay? Yeah. Also make tension between the Blades and Empire Galras cuz why should I trust them?

Does Hunk make food jokes? Not really, he’s a passionate cook sure but majority speaks science, math, and logic. Unlike the show shoving Pidge is the only smart one of the group.

Do I keep the Holts? Let them have death like I wanted.

Does Pidge stop being a dick? Yes

Is Lance reduced to comedy relief? Fuck no

Does Coran have more purpose and gives his insights to his past not to mention I’m bringing his son back for drama and betrayal and reunited? Yes

Does Keith get pissed at Krolia for leaving him despite she did it so he’s safe? Yes

More insight on Krolias relationship with his dad. And yes they had a dog.

Wow romance in the AU? Pining Keith is still happening with a dash of oblivious Lance. Established Hunk and Shay. Unfortunately I’m gonna do Lotor and Allura. Except she realizes Lotor isn’t who she thought he has and final battle between them. Just let me have that. I want her duking it out against Lotor.

Oh yeah have Lance comment on an alien guy that’s he’s cute or flirt with him. Boom established bi. I’ve always liked the idea of Lance knowing he’s bi but hasn’t come to terms yet. Probably denying. I don’t know how to describe it. Or Keith is the only guy he’s ever truly fall in love with like Jenny but he’s like I’m not emotionally ready to love again. Cuz his heart has been broken many times before. Personally I think he stopped believing in love after experience cuz he’s always second never first. And the day Keith confesses he loves him is like, probably laughing bitterly “I don’t believe you” or something.

Does it end with Keith heartbroken and Lance realizing he does love him and done fucked up to the point they make up when he saves his ass? Yes. Does Lance die like in the show where Keith felt his bond with Red cut off and panicked? Allura revives him.

This is indulgment but when Krolia sees Lance? “He reminds me of your father.” And then sees Shiro. “Is this your father’s brother he never told me?” She also may have adopted Hunk.

Who does Shiro end up with? He becomes Kakashi and gets a pet cat when returning home.

More of them getting a break and having fun. Like Space Mall and D&D. Also dimension adventures meeting their alternate selves.

Also give the parents trying to fight their way to Garrison about their children’s whereabouts. We need to know dammit. Have them refuse to believe their children are dead.

Nyma, Rolo, and that robot I forgot his name return as allies.

More Alteans they find. Romelle (like the originals) is her cousin

Bring back Queen Merla ugh my bi heart

Haggar being the true villain because yes and she has magic

Epic battle ensues, war ends, peace finally sets in the universe and everyone goes home.

Plot twist, they return to space. I know they all miss home but something tells me their parents will understand and encourage them to go. “But always visit us again. Send pictures to let me know you’re okay.”

Would it be bad there’s a massive time span where their families grow old once they return home? Cuz you know how time doesn’t exist in space.

Also references of GoLion and DouT. Watching a show Beast King GoLion or meeting the OG paladins. “So Voltron was a sentient being?!”

Because I’m a hoe for Tokusastu. Meet space Godzilla and becomes an ally to Voltron.

Chapters will be referred as episodes so why not

[tinta-merahmuda]

Mencoba itu penting, bukan hanya karena kau akan tahu apa hasilnya. Tapi dengan mencoba, kau akan banyak belajar dari tiap-tiap prosesnya.

[tinta-merahmuda]

Semua hal yang besar berawal dari titik terkecil. Kau tak akan bisa mendapatkan sebuah pencapaian yang besar, bila memulai dari hal terkecil pun kau tak mau. Semua butuh proses dan pengupayaan seseorang. Bila kau tak ingin berusaha dan tak ingin mencoba berjuang memulai dari hal kecil, maka jangan mempunyai harapan dan cita-cita.