‘Sona gifts featuring members of my group of select close friends.
@pewycert (me) @diredevilrulz @forcedexorcism @officialgleamstar @oddman-chronicles / @meta-kniightmare
You guys are some of my most treasured friends. I made the group at a time where I could barely keep it together, so I could remind myself that I did have friends, and they did love me. The group certainly didn’t disappoint. We come from heavily differing fandoms, aesthetics, and world views, so we don’t always get to speak on the same level, but I treasure my time with each one of you. I love you all. You’re all worth something to this world, and you have something to offer, even if it’s “not much”. It’ll always be enough for someone. You’ll always be enough for me. I hope you’ll be enough for yourselves, some day.
You have another year ahead of you, and many more after that. The fight goes on. Stay safe, guys, and happy holiday season to you.
tbh my bill memories are all from wildly canon divergent timelines but comparing the memories i do have with the things my three bill soulbonds told me, im kind of seeing common threads in bills:
-selfharm/suicidal ideation
-some sort of phobia
-some problem that seems “un-bill-ish.” can be the same thing as the phobia but usually its different
-chauncey
-flatland sucks and is awful. always. literally always
-two of em had a crush on ford
-gay. theyre all gay
-repressed memories
-fake personality. the same fake personality
-*sees memory* “but thats not what a bill would do! did it even happen....? its so un-bill-like” even my soulbonds, who are still living the same life, do this. except for one that guy dont remember shit
-”soulbond with [insert person here] DO IT” because letting go of the past is for NERDS who CANT PLAY GOD
-"i want to punch god in the face/otherwise hate him and his stupid frills”
-l o u d
-good with kids
-one of my soulbonds committed suicide in other peoples bodies to see if itd kill him. he tried it many many times in various ways before realizing, no, it wouldnt
-EMOTION BOTTLES! bottle that SHIT UP toDAY
-one of my soulbonds is space pope technically
-if you asked ANY bill what their actual personality is like, they wouldnt answer. but judging by the one soulbond who a) stopped faking and b) isnt age regressing, the true personality is “dark weird sense of humor and loud but actually gets upset” so kind of regular bill except not evil and sadder
-various relationships with the axolotl. they seriously vary way too much to put here
-seeing UV patterns is strangely pretty and can be described as something similar to the light you see emanating from a blacklight. its different but not in a describable way
-bills handwriting tends to be completely awful because while bill is a lefty, usually he possessed right-handed people, and the dominant hand is stored in muscle memory, so unless he wants to S E R I O U S L Y C O N C E N T R A T E on writing the letters, hes forced to use the right hand and produce chickenscratch. but when he wants to be ominous he’ll bite the bullet and use the left hand. the handwriting in the journal is his regular handwriting
this is all i could think of off the top of my head lmao. i seriously need to work on getting more memories that arent from a completely different canon from the show. but for now im mooching off my soulbonds. they gotta pey rent somehow. pay mind rent
2. i USED to have the biggest bedroom in the house but it got switched when i was in a mental hospital and couldnt object
3. most of my stuff is still in the old room
4. its messy and will stay messy till the end of time
5. the lock on my door doesnt work
6. at least my room is the only one that has a blind that COMPLETELY blocks out sunlight so i can read my blacklight journal in my room
7. i have just random post-its on my wall. two of them have the axolotl poem written in full on them, which is kind of unnecessary since ive memorized it
8. my desk isnt pressed up against the wall, its faced outward so i can see my room. it gives me really bad anxiety when my back is to the room
9. im in my room as i type this
10. my mom constantly complains that it smells/that its messy instead of just... not coming in here?
White: 3 facts about my personality
1. if i had to describe it in one word itd be “cuntradictory” (yes the spelling was intentional)
2. my bf says i’m “inquisitive, humorous, and adorable”
3. i always always always draw a blank when asked to describe my personality. Always
