April 3, 2017: First Monthsary.❤
When I met you, I wasn’t planning to fall in love that time. I actually wasn’t looking for love but you changed all that. We started talking, we became close, you became one of my closest friends and then one day, I realized that I like you. It wasn’t really something like ‘love at first sight’ and you know that. I wasn’t really interested at you but then gradually and slowly, I’m starting to have feelings for you. I started to enjoy our conversation even though all we did was annoy each other. The attraction and attachment I felt was much unexpected. In the short span of time that we’re together with this distance between us, the both of us found out more about ourselves and about each other that we barely let anyone else know. We shared a lot of memories together; we shared so many lessons in life these past months. Who would have thought we’re going to get back together after being separated for 5 months? I bet no one. I didn’t expect that and I think you didn’t either but I guess it was meant to happen. Even though I promised myself I wouldn’t risk the chance of getting hurt again but for some reason, it all seems worth it with you. They always said that two people sometimes have to fall apart to realize how much they need to fall back together and I definitely agree with that. I realized how much I need you, how much I love you, how much I want you in my life and how much I don’t want anyone else to have you and be by your side. I want it to be me. I want you to be mine and mine alone. I want to be yours and no one else’s. We committed our hearts to each other and there are still so many things to learn between us. There are times when I wonder about how things have worked out for us. When we started, we were unsure, let us not deny that fact, because we’re both afraid and unsure about where and how things were going to be. I knew in myself that I wanted you to stay but during that time I wasn’t sure if you wanted the same but then and again we decided to give it a go. And now as we keep on rooting the path that we chose, we both realized that no other two people could have been so meant for each other than you and me. Not a day goes by when I don’t feel thankful that I have found you and that I met you. I will always love you, I will continue to take care of you and cherish you. I will always put you above anything and anyone else. You’re my priority. You matter the most to me. Your feelings and happiness matter more than anyone else. Even myself.
Despite your flaws, I still think you’re the perfect one for me. I want you, all your flaws, your mistakes, smiles, jokes, sarcasm, everything. I want all of you. I believe that you’re the one meant for me. I’m happy because despite of me not being the perfect girlfriend, you still chose to stay by my side. I have my flaws and you love all of them just the same, I’m willing to change for the better for you. I might get mad at you, get annoyed and jealous, I guess it’s my insecurities acting up because I know I’m not the prettiest, smartest or most fun and exciting girl you’ll meet, I’m stubborn and overthink a lot. That’s only because I’m afraid someone else might make you happier than I do. I’m afraid you’ll find someone else who’s beautiful, more caring, someone who’s perfect. But one thing that I’m sure of is, I love you better than anyone. You’ll never find somebody that loves you like I do. You’ll never find somebody who’s going to put up with you and go through the hardship with you without giving up. That is probably the only thing I’m good at, clinging onto you and not giving up on you because you know I’m stubborn as hell baby. If other people tell me to break up with you and give up on you, I would say no in a heartbeat. There’s no fucking way I will let another person have you. You are mine, end of story.
And I’m sorry if I constantly want to talk to you. I’m sorry I get sad when you’re busy even though I understand the situation. I’m sorry if I say or do something that pisses you off. I’m sorry if I’m annoying at times, I’m sorry if I tell you my pointless drama. I’m sorry if I come off as being clingy when I miss you and spam your inbox, but I know you like it so I’m taking my apology back. And if ever, I’m sorry for the times I hurt you as well, or for every reason you get angry at me. The only thing I can do is promise to try to be better in the future. I love you, Eddy.
To me, you’re the biggest blessing in my life. We’ve put each other through a lot in the time we’ve been together, and I’m often amazed knowing that we’re still here after all we’ve been through. It’s a full rollercoaster ride with you, which are the good times and bad times. We’ve had our shares of ups and downs, and through all the tough times that life threw at us and whether it’s me or you that are busy, we managed to make our way out of it and still remain stronger than ever. Time has passed us by so quickly and time has made us see just how much love can do for someone. You have filled my life with so much emotion. You have showed me the true meaning of life and happiness that comes with having a person by your side who loves you regardless of any pain and troubles. You complete me.
Actually, saying the words I love you sounds too simple. Saying you mean the world to me doesn’t say enough. There is no definition that could truly express this love that I’m feeling for you. I want you to know that no word in the world can truly describe how I feel for you. Every day I wake up and every night before I fall asleep, I thank God, I thank life and everyone that has something to do for having us met, because without you, my life would never be the same, this may sound corny and cheesy but without you, my life would be so meaningless and lonely. There’s no doubt, you are the one that was made for me. I want you to know that I always pray to God about you, wishing you well and thanking Him for giving you to me. I already placed on His hand whatever fate the both of us have.
Lastly, thank you for choosing me, for falling in love with me, Deeyoo. Thank you for sharing everything with me, your never ending love and care, for wanting me to be your wife. Each day that passes by makes our love for each other grow stronger, I know it’s been hard being apart with the one you love, but I also know there is nothing that can keep us apart forever. Nothing can stand between us, and nothing will stop me from meeting you. One day, soon enough, we’ll meet and from that moment on I promise we’ll make our wish and dreams come true of being together. You are my present, my future and nothing can ever keep our destiny of being together. Thank you my love for being my strength and my guide, you are all that I can ever need and want in life. You are the reason for every happy moment in my life and you bring so much in this relationship that I would be lost without you. You have given me so much love and happiness that I cannot imagine a life where you are not there. Thank you for loving me despite of my shortcomings and my emotional self. I have so much to thank you for, so much more moments to share and enjoy with you by my side. I’m looking forward to spending the rest of my life with you, Eddy. It’s not gonna be easy, it’s gonna be really hard and we’re gonna have to work at this everyday but I want to do that because I love you, I want you, I need you. Forever. You and me. Everyday. I love you so much, sayang. Happy First Monthsary!♡
─ your clingy wife, trisha.