Marks exactly one week away from that special date
That day that I’ll be coming home with a scroll in my hand
A degree of the hard work and sacrifice within the past four years
Of intense studying, cheat sheets, and Chegg
That I’ve put into this degree called Mechanical Engineering
Which I hope to use wisely and bring me great success
Not just for myself, but for my parents and also my future offspring
To aspire those around me
To study hard, play hard, and break out of that comfort zone
And empower women and minorities
Not only proving them but to also set a new stereotype
That there is no such term as stereotype.
Where I’ll start that career life
No longer bounded by grades
But rather my critical, logical, and analytical skills
Where I’d be responsible for my own actions
And expected to push myself in that field.
Where money would suddenly become the main topic
Determining whether or not I can afford an AAA insurance
Or something as small as a RM300 Nike.
I’m just hoping that money won’t blind me in sha Allah.
Where each year from then onwards
I’ll be nearing more responsibilities
Once married and delivered,
Tendering to the kids will be top priority
And their needs will be my main concern
Sleepless nights will come thinking of ways to mold them
Into decent human beings with teachings of Allah
And enough knowledge and wisdom to live their life
Because my teachings will determine whether or not
I’ll go into heaven or hell.
Where I promised myself to learn Arabic and Thai boxing
To travel Southeast Asia,
And to be present with my parents as much as I can
Hoping to love myself first before finding a partner
Because he needs to accept all that I am
And tolerate it for the next 50 years together.
This is current 23 y/o Hidayah sitting on her bed
Listening to Zion T’s OO Album (I do hope you change your taste in music, preferable to Quranic verses)
With Hanisah by my right (she’s been here for 3 months)
And having my last paper ever for my degree years (MATH 311 which I need ot score 100% to get an A)
Remember to always be grateful
You need to always take care of your heart
Surround yourself with positivity and those with knowledge
So that you’ll always be close to HIm
Because the current Hidayah is in dire need of self-nourishment
When will that time ever come again?
Love your parents and family,