#forgotten notes

[falckie]

Sometimes I like to play a game I call 'Notepad Roulette'.

It's like Russian Roulette but instead of a gun it's my notepad app, and the bullet is whatever insane bullshit I wrote months to years back and forgot about.

Examples...

These are the milder notes. There are worse ones. Much, much worse.

[dearnobodyimportant]

So basically I want a different brand of misery please

This flavor is getting old now

[dearnobodyimportant]

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[dearnobodyimportant]

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Sittin at the bottom counting the days, down here the sun doesn’t hit the same way

Biding my time till the flood waters come to — deliver me from this…

I’ve Been putting off crying for way to long,

the deeper I go the more I dread

The day when it all comes crashing down

And I’m left empty and broken on the ground.

Just a little longer till I can catch my breath

Just a bit more then I can rest

Then when I pick — myself — up

I can start this all over again

I’m treading water just trying to maintain

Everything hurts, but numb the same

I’m angry at you I’m angry at me

I just wanna close my eye till it’s over

But where would be the fun in that

I hope I can make it out the other side relationships intact

I

Wish

I

Could

Care

For

You

Like

I

Once

Did

But

when

I see

your

name

Re-

ality comes crashing down — on —my head

Just a few more days

———

I used to love your youthful smile now it fills me with rage

[ghost-hawk]

When I dated my exboyfriend in highschool, i previously had a crush on a teammate. He was straight, and he would help me learn work out routines. I thought he was the nicest and coolest guy at school.

I embarrassed myself hanging out with him and our mutual friends and was too afraid to talk to him again.

He's married now, I hope happily.

A long time has passed, no point in me re-opening my unrequited feelings.

[durneytune]

The faded one in the middle reads "yes i do"

9/28/22

[m-tns]

I wish I knew how to hold myself, how to hold you, simply how to imagine love without fear how to accept my finitude, my imperfection. I wish tears can heal the fear I feel thick like a wall between this body and those I love I wish I can live my life and that you can be part of it. I wish you peace, serenity, strength, and love. I wish this and more love and happiness for you, for me and for us Dusty included.

[lesser-robot-cat]

A request for @mayor-kodama, “Forgotten Notes” by Hackman