I'm the awful one I'm the toxic one it's me it's me it's me I'm the stalker I'm the rapist I'm the one I'm the one it's my fault its my fault I'm the murderer I'm the one I'm the one I'm the one I traumatized everyone I traumatized everyone I'm the toxic one I'm the one I'm the one I dehumanized them I murdered I raped I made them feel trapped I made them feel dehumanized I made them feel like their world was made of eyes and ears I made them feel like they would never know silence again I made them feel like their body their mind their mouths weren't their own I made them feel like they were caged by fingers and needs and tears and screams by the mass of hatred and love like they were gods waiting to trip like they were the devil to be raised like they were plastic and partial and expected to be full in absence like they were unwanted as flesh but wanted by greed I stripped them and built them as my own and I stuck my own flag in their hearts and named it claimed ground I molded their works into the shape of God they could not fill I beat them without touch I slew them with no blood I took and took and took and called what they gave empty because it couldn't fill the endless pit of my belly I called them rapists in adoration I called them evil with hand outstretched I called them God and served until they broke oaths they never made and they were made to feel as if they would never know Humanness again and for many of them they never will.
My hands are stained with blood they can never claim they shed.
