#forxavie

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Clearing the slate....again

eah i think i fell in love at 15

People tell me that I’m speaking a lie

But i think im saying what i mean

Cause when he left he took all my light

It’s the kinda thing that crumbles your life

and you don’t wanna put up a fight

for the one that loves you

one that hugs you

the one you gave everything

that you, you had in you,

cause on the flip side it’s darker

the flip side is harder

because you weren’t the only one

that he was giving his heart to.

He said “i never wanna hold a girl down”

.starting now and every time after.

and sorry baby

thought you knew just who i was after

I’ll find a man and call him my own in our home

and cherish the moments from now”

I’m thinking ill gonna run away from this town

And in my brain it’s gonna burn to the ground

He said “I’m sorry baby

Didn’t know you were making your plans

U should’ve told me

but i gotta go chase my man”

Yeah i think i fell in love at 15

People tell me that I’m speaking a lie

But i think im saying what i mean

Cause when he left he took all my light

It’s the kinda thing that crumbles your life

and you don’t wanna put up a fight

for the one thing that loves you

one thing that hugs you

the one thing you gave everything

that you had in you

And now your picking of pieces of yourself

sorting each and everyone of them out

From the ones he left a mark on

and the ones that you made,

but i wanna just start over

with a

fresh

clean

slate.

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THE HEAT OF A MOMENT

Today is a bad day. I'm not wanted, by anyone really When there is a better option, I am left I'm the plan b best friend of none Acquaintance of many Friend to few Lover to no one. I spend years working on something that I know will crumble. Shocked when it crumbles I bend for him as he breaks for someone else Whenever I go I always leave the door open behind me Hoping someone will follow. They never do I'm a patient person I'll wait for anyone I'll wait for them to talk for me first. I'll wait for him to change his mind Wait for something to turn my life around I keep waiting. However I don't have time for love songs anymore Filling my head with false hoping Enriching the dreams in my head

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FORGIVE AND FORGET

I don't love you

but I'm in love with you.

You are not the best person

I know you don't care about me

You are friends with me for the benefits

Not

friends with benefits

Only you benefit

The feel meals, free rides,

free ears that will listen to you

no

matter

what.

I spilled my guts into your hands

and you ignored it throwing it over your shoulder

and leaving it in the past

I forgave you like I always do

Forgive and forget

forgive and forget

forgive forgive forgive forgive

breakdown.

Screaming into the pillow isn't enough anymore

Breakdown

breakdown

breakdown

I do not call you to talk

I don't want to interrupt

So I sit in my room

spilling my heart out

to the posters on my bedroom walls

because they

listened.

They don't flip the conversation

and list why their life is worse.

How can I forgive and still make a point?

And someone please tell me

How do I

forget?

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THE SUN STILL RISES

beauty of dancing constellations

. Gentle touch sensations.

Pillows unstained

Every moment engrained.

Then the time finally came for you to go

Never heard of tears in the afterglow

17 minutes left untill the flight

We sat in the glow of head lights and

said goodbye

I watched you cry as I stood in my driveway

Your feeling fade away

Your names still sketch on my bed by the way

But the sun still rises

The birds still sing and sky's still blue

But he never apologizes

And thats when the thoughts

just seem to cut through

But the sun still rises

The birds still sing and sky's still blue

But he never apologizes

And that's when the thoughts

just seem to cut through OooooooooooooooOoOooOoOoo

Beauty of dancing constellations

No Gentle touch sensations

Pillows with black stains

Every moment was engrained

But the sun still rises

Birds will sing and skies still blue

But he never apologizes

Just use all of that I fuel all of you

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WITHOUT THE THE LIGHT SOMEONE ELSE

He comes and goes just like the flickering light in my backyard. All at once or not at all. Headlights going out not functioning all the same as they used to. 2 years ago they shone so bright You'd think it was bliss. You'd think it would always be that way until the flickering starts. Not so alarming at first but then you begin to wonder. What happens when they go out? How do I find myself without the light of someone else?

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I STILL FEEL IT

I still feel it sometimes...

When Your driving and I see the shimmering of the stoplights in your eyes.

Sometimes when the lights

of the tv are bouncing off your skin.

We'd sit in the treetops

and talk about how we'll never leave each other.

Pinkies hooking

smiles on our face.

We didn't have forced smiles or teary eyes

yet.

We didn't have to worry about those

1004 miles.

We were okay.

I miss when I used to play with your hair.

you'd get tired on the ride home and lay your head in my lap.

I wanted to let you know I care.

I still feel it

when I cry about not

kissing you

that night in my basement.

I still feel it Even when I know

your brain is decaying from the chemicals

day by day

because,

it's hard to stay sober

when you have to deal with that much pain

on your own.

I wish I would wrap my arms around you

and tell you it is going to be okay.

I love you.

We're going to be okay.

1004 miles

and I still feel it.