#fourentry

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whyd you guys have to be holding hands right infront of me D;

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um

hahaha im trying to clean up my tumblr and i realize that i have too many tags about ben haha..um..wow ok

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May 5, 2013 11:21 PM

woooow. this has been awhile since... yeah. well the only reason im writing in this again is because i woke up about an hour ago & didnt realize till now that today was the day... haHaHA. i forgot about today's significance. is that bad? oh well. i looked in my journal to write about it. but when i opened the book, i apparently remembered this day 4 days ago because i wrote this:

numb.

how was i to forget 

that in 4 days it will be 2 years 

or at least would have been if we were still together 

and if we still talked 

or if you werent such a dick 

and if i didnt fall for that 

  yeah..the first time ever in my life that ive said something negative about you, because you deserve it. youve called me a slut and a whore and said that i need/ want attention and crave yours. so since you fucking make me feel like shit, ive moved on. happy anniversary dick.

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....i feel like im waiting for forever

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March 29,2013

i told myself that i was over him until he looked me in the eyes today and i just completely fell apart because my heart has been telling me to never let go.

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he can call me allegrad for so many times... i miss it 

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rings on my friends left hand,darker the days,understand the ways that i left town to hurt your feelings and i dont really know you anymore

Andy Shauf

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March 20, 2013

how do you transition to being so close and happy with someone to being alone and sad all the time...