#fourunderfour

[youmeandthebabies]

“Mom, take a picture of us!” Ok.. #thewaltontribe #fourunderfour #twinmom #momlife

[youmeandthebabies]

I’m declaring 2018 the year of the #hotmessmom. There has been way too much pressure to be this picture perfect Mom with perfect kids. I have to cook Pinterest perfect meals in my perfectly clean kitchen while I sport the latest perfect Mom fashion with my perfect Mom body. I’m raising the white flag. 🏳️ I’m done striving to be a perfect mom. I’m proud to be a #hotmessmom and I want every mama and even dad to show off their hot mess lives proudly! Let’s stop tearing each other down and start supporting one another. Parenting is so hard, but it can be easier with a great support system cheering you on. So if anyone looks at my Instagram and thinks “man she really has her s*** together.” Don’t be fooled. This is what my house looks like 95% of the time. #momoftwins #fourunderfour #TheWaltonTribe

[youmeandthebabies]

A very merry Medina Christmas! ❤️🎄🎅🏽🎁 #merrychristmas #christmas2017 #fourunderfour

[youmeandthebabies]

When you have four kids you’re just happy that no one is crying and everyone is looking at the camera. Merry Christmas. 🎄🎁 🎅🏽👦🏽👧🏽👶🏽👶🏽 #TheWaltonTribe #christmas #santaphotos #sierravista #momlife #fourunderfour #twinsofinstagram (at Sierra Vista Mall)

[youmeandthebabies]

Squad goals. 👦🏽👧🏽👶🏽👶🏽 #TheWaltonTribe #momlife #fourunderfour

[youmeandthebabies]

Trying to entertain the babies while cleaning the playroom. #momlife #momoffour #twinsofinstagram #cleaningday #fourunderfour

[mysoulrejoicesinmygod-blog]

We survived!

One year with four girls four and under in the books. Twinners are one and we are all so happy that this year has come to a close! Don’t get me wrong, there were many precious moments and lots of joy but it was so darn hard in so many ways. I survived by denial. “This isn’t that bad!”, “Breastfeeding twins isn’t a big deal,” “I don’t know why everyone said this would be so hard.” Flat out denial, people. Once I wasn’t in a delusional state of sleep deprivation at about nine or ten months, I started to realize that yep, my life has been hard the last year. I just want to thank my friends who would have a glass of wine with me at moments like these. You know who you are. And a special thanks to my boo, Gings, who has taken such good care of our big girls this year while I took care of twinners. Couldn’t have handled our crazy without you.

Highlights of the one year olds include saying “Ey da!” (Hey dad), crawling, now drinking bottles (yes, I know… they are supposed to stop not start at one but I’ve always hated rules), sitting at the table eating puffs while the rest of us eat meals, cruising furniture, standing on their own and still their favorite habit is being obsessed with their mom. I love and hate this last highlight.

Here we are :)

[mysoulrejoicesinmygod-blog]

Helplessness

Some days I feel like I'm drowning. The twins are synchronized screaming and Annika is moody and Madelyn is whining and I cannot get a handle on making anyone happy. Only when I cry out to God do I find any peace in my helplessness. Yet, something in me wants to do it on my own over and over. And I do. And that brings me back to this point of desperation. Why does it take these moments for me to step back and see that I am nothing without the Lord? I need God in my mess. When I act out of fear, anger, "what ifs," there is no fruit. Only failed attempts at me trying to control my children. I need God each and every moment of my day, whether I want to acknowledge it or not. God, help me go to you in my moments of weakness so that you can work in my heart and the lives of my children.