I'm sure we envision the day of giving birth, as we anticipate that precious moment of locking eyes with our new born child. Certainly the moment is magical, as we are filled with pride and joy. But what feelings are we left with when the support of the Doctors and Nurses vanish and its just Mother and Child? More important, do your Mother instincts immediately take place? Conversely, this was not my reality! I recall being Scared Sh***! I was drowsy and consumed with a rush of ambivalence when the Nurses graciously handed me my daughter. My husband was a true champion who stood by my side during the entire labor and delivery process; however, as loving pet owners, he left to check on our beloved cat (Bella) and Dog (Zoey). In shock, I realized my daughter and I were the only ones in the hospital room. My listless body combined with the overwhelming feeling of loneliness gave rise to the ultimate Scared Sh** moment. Although I diligently planed the day of my child's arrival, I never thought the pervasive feeling of loneliness coupled with fear would become prevalent on this day. After receiving a brief coaching on breastfeeding techniques, I was left to figure things out. My internal thoughts were.."please don't leave me alone with this child!" I was waiting for a breath of relief. Simply put, internally I was suffocating from a range of emotions and I was waiting to exhale. Soon thereafter, the Nurse returned to take my daughter to the nursery. Although I was relieved that help had arrived, I felt guilty that I was nervous to be alone with my child. I have learned that many Mothers experience this Scared S*** feeling. Although I read serval parenting books, babysat and attended parenting classes, I was not fully prepare for this particular scared sh**moment. This experience taught me that no amount of preparation can truly set the stage for the journey of parenting. In that end, when you had your first child, did you have a scared sh** moment? If so, how did you move through those feelings? By: Lanette Hodge