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More and more recently its interesting how my group of friends seems to be falling apart. theres so much drama going on i might be able to choke myself with it.. what exactly happened im not sure but some of my friends are correct, when we have drama in our group its usually all at once with everyone. if thats not truthfully the case at least it seems that way. but i suppose thats aside from the point if there ever was a point. i think we all need to maybe just start hanging out again, more often. doing stuff together. like idk what, going to the movies the other day was really fun and you just dont have to think about all the shit thats going on,but i suppose theres all the drama for a reason too? is it right to just ignore these issues until they go away if they do? as;dlkfja;slkdfj
see i feel like im being a bitch for saying things like that or that this post is just a heap of dog shit really :/ i dont know but recently i just feel like a lot of my friends have gone some place without me and that my attempts to follow are.. either not being liked or dont come off as genuine. im not exactly sure.
i really do care a lot about all of my friends and i mean all of you. your my friends. im not gonna leave any of you high and dry but i guess some of you feel that i already have and im sorry for that.
im not going to delve into the reasons behind that because god only knows where that would take things and for some reason i feel like that would make situations worse. which infact... upsets me greatly i think. the amount of resistance im getting for.. certain things. its upsetting and overwhelming and feels a bit... miss placed. that.. if i were to receive this like i have been it should have been previously over previous situations, not now. because now, things in that area for me have never been better. so why resist things at their best instead of when they were at their worst?
i suppose thats just how my brain is possessing things so really you can take that as you please
but, for all of my friends.. im not forgetting any of you and im not going to ditch any of you. you all mean a lot to me. you all know what issues im having that i've stated above, i know that you do. and as ive told some of you already. Just talk to me. its a hell of a lot easier that way and i think.. causes less problems that way too. if it pertains to me, then please, just talk to me about it because chances are its something i'll want to know.
problems never get solved if they never get faced. so face me if you need to. i just want everything to be ok with all of my friends and i still feel like theyre a bit aways away from that. (that sentence felt weird o_O "aways away"... anyways *lol*)
i dont know this post... maybe its a mistake maybe its a mess who knows. i wasnt exactly direct but not so far as to say i was beating around the bush either. but i felt like i just needed to type something out and just idk i guess i thought it might help me feel better? a;slkdfj who knows. so... there i guess if i offended anyone, hurt anyones feelings by this or any other things again, you can talk to me about it ok.
