#fromadventures

[caitlynallysepenke]

'The Little Boxes that Held Hope, Despair, and Desire.' I'm full of negative vibes - my spirit just feels fractured. I question if maybe I feel too much at times? I fall so hard for people and experiences and I crave an adventure I have not yet found, but today I'm filled with these broken nuisances that I for these past couple weeks was able to shake and feel actual happiness. I have this tenacity to love, but I'm such a fragile creature and maybe sometimes I throw all my marbles in hoping for the best, but I'm so easily rejected. And this feeling of rejection is unbearable. Today that feeling weighs hard down on me. I don't understand how I can always seem so blinded and misjudge my surroundings - perhaps I evaluate too much and it's all in my head and now I'm trapped in the middle of am I just being silly, or is it real? I fear the latter. #theskiesawakesoimawake #fromadventures #nature #southside #mountwashington #pennsylvania #pittsburgh #fog #cliffside #personaldiaries

[caitlynallysepenke]

'You're Just Dead Weight Anyway, Waves Shift Above and Take Me, but Strong Buoys Won't Let Me. Float On for the Calm.' Feeling a lot of mixed feels lately. Mostly lonely, tired, and fearful. #eastcoast #kennebunkport #maine #seacoast #newengland #mermaidgoeshome #fromadventures #shootingwithjason #mamiya #6x7 # #fuji #velvia #slidefilm #velvia50 #staybrokeshootfilm #shootmorefilm #filmisnotdead #120mm #personaldiaries #buoy (at Kennebunkport, Maine)

[caitlynallysepenke]

'Would I, Could I, Find You Again, Little Moon? I'd Keep You Closer This Time.' I've been down and aching for the coastline; but we're far from there in this moment. Instead, I grabbed some tunes and hiked the area, and took it all in. It was a sweet retreat from studying cocktails and mindlessly sitting around worrying about the little things I don't have the control to change right now. For now, this restless heart will continue to crave that salty oceanic breeze. #staybrokeshootfilm #filmisnotdead #shootmorefilm #kodak #kodakportra #portra #6x6 #holga #shootingwithjason #fromadventures #personaldiary #mermaidgoeshome #nature #theskiesawakesoimawake #moon #maine #eliot #eastcoast (at South Eliot, Maine)

[caitlynallysepenke]

'Inadequate.' #personaldiary #floral #fromadventures #staybrokeshootfilm #filmisnotdead #shootmorefilm #kodak #kodakporta160 #film #analog #pentax #35mm #myportfolio #nature #theskiesawakesoimawake #sunset #shootingwithjason

[caitlynallysepenke]

'Finding Sleep in Somersaults' Took a walk in the strip district downtown, gazed at architecture, and ate an oyster without tossing my stomach. Spent the day talking about the future, my dreams and passions, and receiving encouragement and praise from my father who wants the world for his "little goth daughter that rocks the purple lips." We all still hold onto our dreams even in the rocky days, it's the matter of doing and finding your way forward. It's the matter of being and living in the moment, but living for the next sunrise - and I will. Thank you, dad. #personaldiaries #fromadventures #pittsburgh #pennsylvania #stripdistrict #streetart (at Pittsburgh's Strip District)

[caitlynallysepenke]

'One of These Things is Not like the Other.' I've gone MIA since leaving Rochester and my arrival here in Pittsburgh delivered some disheartening news. I'm feeling so very homesick for my Western New York living, and even more so for my ocean abode. Looking forward to summer sunsets, potential beach vacations, and better days. For now, I'm here and alive to the world and people I've been ignoring back home. #Maine #newengland #seacoast #eastcoast #theskiesawakesoimawake #sunset #fromadventures #personaldiaries #shootingwithjason

[caitlynallysepenke]

Happy Dyngus Day to my fellow Pollocks! All these fine humans of Rochester better watch out if I get my hands on some pussy willows and squirt guns cause this little kitten might just get ya ☺️! It's been sort of a frustrating weekend - I'm trying to adjust with potentially being half blind for a semi-permanent period and not letting it affect my life. It's tough I'll admit. Out of frustration I threw precious ceramic and glass pieces onto the floor and by golly as much as I loved those items, I regret nothing. If I am to be blind, I still want to climb, I still want to cycle, I want to get back into pole dancing, and most importantly not let it affect my career in photography. All I can say is even though it's a complicated road, I must try to stay as positive as I can and focus on getting my lungs healthy and my eyes as strong as they can be. And right now, relax and sort through more film imagery. ✔️ #dyngusday #polishholiday #lilacfestival #highlandpark #petals #film #analog #staybrokeshootfilm #shootmorefilm #shootingwithjason #fromadventures #filmisnotdead #mamiya #6x7 #kodak #kodakportra #portra #spring (at Highland Park, New York)

[caitlynallysepenke]

This isn't the post I wanted to make today, but as defeated as I feel today, I wanted to finish my daily analog challenge with an image I seem to go to when I need better days. I'm on my way to an emergency ophthalmology appointment as I've lost 75% of vision in my right eye due to three lacerations on my pupil. I guess the sporadic trip to Nashville I was going to take Wednesday will come another day. If anyone wants to join me in the cake and fancy cocktail binge once I'm back in Rochester, the more the merrier. I feel so very down and just want to be surrounded by the ones I love and have a good time 💕. Cheers to better days coming and to positivity. #staybrokeshootfilm #filmisnotdead #shootmorefilm #lilacfestival #Rochester #spring #kodak #portra #kodakportra #flower #personaldiaries #fromadventures #shootingwithjason (at Highland Park)