falling through life.

Caitlyn Allyse Penke- Nineteen years old. An aspiring conceptual and fashion photographer. I like my pictures squared in format. Born on the 8th of June in 1992. From Henrietta, New York Studying Uni at the Rochester Institute of Technology for Photography. Observant Imaginative Witty Passionate Snarky Loving Cranky Flickr Thoughts and Rambles Tumblr

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I have never welcomed a name day more in my life than this year. I say goodbye to 23 cycles around the sun, six leap years, and the hashtag #nobodylikesyouwhenyoure23 . I am very excited to be 24 years old and I graciously open my heart and mind to the opportunities that life and the world around will bring me. Oh, and of course the adventures because who would I be without those! My twenty-third year was the worst year of my life, but I can already feel twenty-four is going to be completely different. Thank you thank you thank you to the beautiful humans who have celebrated "birth-week" with me starting with my return home to Rochester. This little mermaid's heart has been truly touched and warmed and I appreciate every singe well wishing, hug, and thought I've received! Cheers to 24 years old 🐱!!! #🎉💥🎂 /// 📸 - @mmelnik__ #from adventures #thefamousbluewall #mermaid #thelavenderqueen #birthday #nameday #personaldiaries (at Glen Edith Coffee)

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'The Little Boxes that Held Hope, Despair, and Desire.' I'm full of negative vibes - my spirit just feels fractured. I question if maybe I feel too much at times? I fall so hard for people and experiences and I crave an adventure I have not yet found, but today I'm filled with these broken nuisances that I for these past couple weeks was able to shake and feel actual happiness. I have this tenacity to love, but I'm such a fragile creature and maybe sometimes I throw all my marbles in hoping for the best, but I'm so easily rejected. And this feeling of rejection is unbearable. Today that feeling weighs hard down on me. I don't understand how I can always seem so blinded and misjudge my surroundings - perhaps I evaluate too much and it's all in my head and now I'm trapped in the middle of am I just being silly, or is it real? I fear the latter. #theskiesawakesoimawake #fromadventures #nature #southside #mountwashington #pennsylvania #pittsburgh #fog #cliffside #personaldiaries

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Started watching this again today // what a way to procrastinate on an afternoon!

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| Drenched through my mind | by Henn Kim

Go Get Art Print

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Photographed by Alina Asmus for L'Officiel Mexico

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exist......

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I am terrified by this dark thing that sleeps in me.

Sylvia Plath, “The Collected Poems” (via leirelatent)

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i don’t want to wake up tomorrow, or the next day, or the day after that, check back with me on saturday.....

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'You're Just Dead Weight Anyway, Waves Shift Above and Take Me, but Strong Buoys Won't Let Me. Float On for the Calm.' Feeling a lot of mixed feels lately. Mostly lonely, tired, and fearful. #eastcoast #kennebunkport #maine #seacoast #newengland #mermaidgoeshome #fromadventures #shootingwithjason #mamiya #6x7 # #fuji #velvia #slidefilm #velvia50 #staybrokeshootfilm #shootmorefilm #filmisnotdead #120mm #personaldiaries #buoy (at Kennebunkport, Maine)

[caitlynallysepenke]

the funny thing about the phrase, “i’m sorry,” is unless your actions match the phrase, it’s absolutely meaningless. i want to know how you are, what you’re doing. i want the simple goodnight texts and the early wake up good mornings. i want to know i have you in my future and that even when my days seem bleak, that everything is going to be okay. but, all i feel like is a chore and nothing more because it’s even too hard for you to just say “hi.”

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Yumi Lambert in “Always and Forever” for Harper’s Bazaar UK photographed by Erik Madigan Heck

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“Dior” / Ola Rudnicka photographed by Annemarieke Van Drimmelen and styled by Azza Yousif / Dior Magazine May 2016 

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'Would I, Could I, Find You Again, Little Moon? I'd Keep You Closer This Time.' I've been down and aching for the coastline; but we're far from there in this moment. Instead, I grabbed some tunes and hiked the area, and took it all in. It was a sweet retreat from studying cocktails and mindlessly sitting around worrying about the little things I don't have the control to change right now. For now, this restless heart will continue to crave that salty oceanic breeze. #staybrokeshootfilm #filmisnotdead #shootmorefilm #kodak #kodakportra #portra #6x6 #holga #shootingwithjason #fromadventures #personaldiary #mermaidgoeshome #nature #theskiesawakesoimawake #moon #maine #eliot #eastcoast (at South Eliot, Maine)

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Via theincompletechronicle

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4.29.16 - journal A riot of thoughts. Let the water rise.

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[caitlynallysepenke]

What’s better than finding out you have five ulcers on your right eye that caused you go half blind? Finding out you have a massive ulcer scar on your left eye that’s very near needing a corneal transplant. Yay eyeballs!

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“Magnets” - Disclosure ft. Lorde (2015)