so as i recently posted ive decided to switch over from getting extended metoidioplasty to rff phalloplasty due to sensitivity reasons (my bottom growth is too sensitive for my liking and meta doesnt change that so im goinf with phallo) but heres a bit about my particular goals:
-i do not want a big dick. i want something that i can comfortably have in my pants all day every day. 3-4 inches would be perfect, 5 inches is acceptable but im shooting for 3-4 for personal comfort. your size preferences may be different, i happen to not be in a position where im having casual sex. i have one sexual partner and when she gets bottom surgery theyre definitely not going to want anything huge up there either lol. if i want it bigger for any reason ill wear a sleeve, but theres no way to shrink it once its on there
-i want to completely get rid of my vagina. its really only caused me trouble. idk if ive talked about it here but my vagina doesnt work well for much of anything, plus i cant comfortably get it checked out for pelvic exams or anything due to trauma/dysphoria/pain so im better off getting rid of it. i know theres a lot of people who want to have both sets of genitals and i can totally see the appeal but i just want the one
-i want my bottom growth inside the dick, "burial" is what its called. ideally id have erotic nerve hookup as well but if it doesnt work no biggie
-scrotoplasty and glansplasty for sure. both of these are very important to me. ill probably get testical implants
-this is uncommon but i want medical tattooing on my penis to give it more dimension. you dont really need to have this done and its fully cosmetic but i definitely want it. ive seen a guy who does amazing work
-i want an internal erection decice and will probably go for the pump over the rod. im aware this needs to be changed out once every 5-10 years but im ok with that. if i ever decide i dont want it anymore i can get it taken out. you can get external erection devices as well if you dont like the idea of having to change it
so overall my ideal goal is a very cis passing penis and i have no reason to believe that i cant achieve this. i notoriously have had a fairly easy time with major surgeries and my top surgery went perfectly so im not worried at all about complications, but if they happen, im sure i can handle them. however nobody really goes into any surgery expecting complications so take that how you will
bottom surgery in general is very customizeable, ironically hrt is really the only part of medical transition where you really CANT choose what happens/what you look like (having said this hrt saved my life and all that). like you can have a bunch of different end results to your surgery and everything i mentioned above is completely at your discretion, you can leave off or change whatever you want