#fucking sorry

[phalange-the-28th]

A honest moment

Tw: self harm, eating disorders

I know havent heard from me a lot recently, my mental health (other than on friday) has been spiraling very hard straight into the concrete ground that is life. I dont have the will to go outside, i dont have the will to do anything but lie in bed and scroll on tumblr, and when i go outside in public i have meltdowns and panic attacks.

On friday i started cutting more and more, going outside became unbearable, i was sobbing at all noise, sleeping downstairs and dying inside and out. Sunday my grandma came over and she was okay (not super predatory) and i came clean to my mom about my grandma dry humping me (not even all of it) and she said she she would keep it down to two hugs (and she kept it down to two one armed hugs). Monday i got sent home after accidentally taking to much anti-anxiety meds and falling asleep and having a panic attack over the noise after waking up. Then i got sent home for two days (until the last half day on Wednesday). I am on a lot of medication for tics right now and i feel like shit, my head is always spinny, and i haven’t eaten in 42 hours and i am so fucking depressed. I keep watching Spring Awakening and seeing Mortiz kill himself because i relate to him so much it hurts and it makes me feel something.

[lord-of-calamity-blog]

dripdripdropthebass ha respondido a tu publicación ““… “  She’s JUDGING you two.”

"BUT HOW."

... Do you want to find out?

VELVET NO

[2007frank]

honestly.......unpopular opinion here since everyone on this site loves being depressed forever and doing nothing to help it but ,i am really tired of ppl constantly feeling sorry for themselves

[volosdarling]

I ALWAYS DRAW VOLO AS ON-MODEL AS I CAN BUT I DRAW MY SONA SLIGHTLY CARTOONISH SO IT REALLY FEELS LIKE THIS:

[gayplantie]

yeah no that’s a lot of sab s2 spoilers i’m warning everyone

[mikecardensolofolkalbum]

sometimes when you have a praise kink and disordered eating, the person you're sleeping with who isn't all that good at dirty talk but tries really hard will say things like "you're such a good girl; you ate all your dinner" and you just gotta take it because, yeah, okay, sure, you are a good girl for eating all your dinner

[silllymaxxing]

I absolutely hate it when I ask someone who is absolutely amazing at art and they say "JuST prAcTicE" like please can you point me in the right direction, please just tell me the basics just practice isn't enough and will fuck with me