#fuckingpathetic

[liztudor-se10]

[artkiddies]

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[bpdfuck-up]

I miss my therapist

[jesus-crust-666]

I need to smash my phone or something, I just need to stop looking at it

[dudesrslywtf]

I have this idiotic moron I don't even know texting me. Called me a bitch (boo hoo) like I'm supposed to be crushed. 😒

[foureyedgem]

You never fucking care.

[rromanticize]

You made me feel like I could move mountains, then you fucking destroyed them.

[kennedykeptsecrets]

Oh I'm just gonna cry myself through the early morning hours; thinking about how handsome you looked in that photo and how good you probably look right now, cozied up in a dream all night. I will always remember the best of you and you will always remember the worst of me.

I wish you knew just how gentle and pleasant I really am now that everything is such a distance away from right now. Not one thing I complained about; nor one argument we had was ever worth it for me. I can't imagine a good enough reason to risk pushing you away or losing you. But that's now. Hindsight is the only kind of sight I have, you know? It's okay. I can let it go. But that won't stop the remorse or loneliness tonight. I will still cry. I will still wake up and have to take care of myself and my responsibilities (though they are much harder now), on my own. And it will be that way forever. A forever of waking up and immediately mourning the absence of you right next to me. Where you should be. It's not my birthday, it's always going to be yours.