"As children they told us that we were unique, that we were special and don't have to change us for others ... We could reach every goal we wanted ... we were all smart, beautiful, perfect and creative
We could do anything we wanted ...
Those were the biggest and most beautiful lies we heard as children, these gave us the will to life, the will to discover everything on this planet, courage and even safety"
I always wanted to be a vet as a child, but when I started to get older I learnt how impossible was my dream ... No biggie I thought and started to follow another dream
Today another dream was scattered, even after years of training I am still too untalented to be an art teacher or to study in an art class
Fuck this life ... It has no sense if all you dreams are all unreachable
I just wanted a job that suits my personality ...
Everything is presented so easy in school, but they give you nothing for the "adult life" ... It is just a model that is easy to understand to present it to the pupils and to motivate them to work
I don't want to be dull and just work to earn money ... I want to life, be creative and feel every emotions from the best to the worst
I want colours in my life, to be inspired by emotions and to put these in my art works ... And with them I want to inspire others to be creative as well
What do I wrong everytime? Did I choose false dreams? Am I just an unnecessary piece of shit that has no talent for everything? Or is just the system the big asshole?
Oh I have to add something!
Why the fuck aren't we doing anything in school to improve our artskills? Why is it in school so underrated, but in higher schools or university so hard??? In the art lessons in my old schools I just have to draw something what my teacher said ... if I have to do the same shit why do I need to have hardcore skills in this subject?! My sibling has it even worse, their teacher is just printing things and they have to colour it! Wtf?!
If I have to be highly skilled, then the fucking school system should do more to teach us this shit properly!
