#fuckthinking

[sirens-of-my-own-epiphany]

Everyday I feel like I'm in a room full of people. Trying to talk and mingle amongst the crowd but no one can hear me or acknowledge I'm there, and all I want is for someone to really look at me and see me raw and real for who I really am.

[knocksyouoffyourfeet]

Fucked up huh? #stupidbrain #fuckthinking #stopcaringsomuch

[secretcollegefuckup]

(Relationship is going great, better than ever and life seems good)

Me: let's just relax and have a good day.

Brain: let's imagine your boyfriend cheating on you.

Me: ... why?

Brain: cause why not? Let's see he kisses one of your friends what do you do? Or let's say one of your friends kiss him? Ohh how about he fully cheats on you with the girl that lives right over you, and you two break up and you have to hear them having sex every night.

Me: ...

[optimisticfilmcritic]

Childhood

I miss not loving one or few things. Or few people. i miss loving everything. i miss the wonder. I miss being oblivious. i miss waking up on Saturday and the most pressing matter being "where are my action figures", or "who am i going to pretend to be today." i miss being unaware of how awful the world is. I miss not being able to comprehend the finality of death. I miss falling asleep before 10 o'clock. I miss not having to be attracted to girls. i miss not getting erections because i don't even fucking know what that means. I miss not being capable of saying "fucking" because "its a bad word." i miss being young. and i miss seeing beauty in every single thing my inquisitive eyes scanned over. i miss not having to be nervous or scared.... I miss having my whole life ahead of me.

[unravel-the-soul]

Not in the mood to live anymore...

[justbegreat]

YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES

i can drop physics, fuck yes.

[justbegreat]

fucking school

Ughh, I suck at physics and I sure would love to drop that course. On a test I thought I did really stellar at i got 23/44, at least I passed right ? Fuckk this shit. I feel like I should just drop this course and take a night school course, but my mom says I am not applying myself enough and I should stick to it. I remember when she put me in french immersion and how well did that turn out ? SHITTY. So I say fuck that I will just take an extra course next semester. Might as well make a guidance appointment and see what they say, however they are also pretty fucked in what they say too. JESUSUSSUSUSUSUS.  

[too-shall-pass]

I swear it's like you don't want me around anymore.. Like I just got used...... Again.