#fuckyouitsmagic

[shecait]

#fuckyou #fuckyouitsmagic #five #eris https://www.instagram.com/p/CVrgCG5Dkfo/?utm_medium=tumblr

[enbyshaw]

the language thing, I like it that you added English first instead of German :D same really, but why for you? Also, how different is Austrian German from, well German German? Going there in a few weeks and it's been a while and I am worried about accents :D

haha yea

well, though german being my first and native language, my understanding of english (written as well as spoken) is way better than my understanding of german. 

i come from the south (actually, the smolest part of Tyrol™) where we have like 20 different dialects and accents that vary from proper german and studies actually show that for people(s) with heavy dialects, much like myself, it can be harder to speak properly, especially grammatically, as there’s slight differences in grammar (like, some sentences might work in dialect but wouldn’t be proper german) 

but like, we don’t learn dialect as another language it doesn’t vary that much! it’s far from German vs Swiss German, but it’s you know noticeable, for me when i try to speak proper German (say, proper pronunciation, to not use dialect words or prepositions, etc.) it’s harder and german grammar just makes no sense to me whatsoever (i’m also a poor reader when it comes to German, because i high key don’t know words, not even in context but that’s my own thing) 

then again, it also does vary a lot, depending on whereabout you are! Alpine areas (south to west) have a lot more noticeable changes in dialect and accents than east to north, the flat areas. 

of course it’s also different from person to person. as mentioned afore, i didn’t read much growing up and basically since i’ve been 12 or 13 or so i’ve only watched shows/movies in English or read English. Basically trained my English skills way more than I’ve ever invested into my native language, German. 

Austrian German and German™ (side note? Proper German™ was actually spread/taught via the Nationaltheater in Vienna so like…. Germany’s German is #fake) don’t vary that much either besides some words (Kartoffel - Erdäpfel, Fleischlaberl - Friakdelle, Jänner - Januar etc. u get it) or pronunciation ( the good ol’ chemie as kemie (right) vs schemie (wrong) etc.) or articles (der, die, das *clap clap* der, die, das *clap clap* wieso weshalb warum ….) 

[pallassathena]

what's your thesis about?

oh boy WOO i wish i knew but i have NO idea (i’m probably gonna stick to scandinavian literature but like. thats all i got atm. you probably have a better idea of what i could choose as a topic than me)

[enbyshaw]

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4. What do you see yourself doing in 10 years?

well, hopefully, directing a movie/show i’ve written tbh 

5. if you could be anywhere else right now, where would you be?

i’d love to be somewhere studying creative writing tbh but somewhere in an anglophone place, say UK or really the States

8. Who was your last kiss?

my last and only kiss was with 16 but i hardly count that one as one. so i never even kissed a person sooo

9. Have you ever been stood up?

don’t think so. but then again i’m hardly on occasions where i could be stood up

12. Your favorite pair of shoes?

adidas superstars

13. Honestly, have you ever cheated on your signigicant other?

i’m 19-going-on-20 years old and i’ve yet to be in a relationship so honestly, no i haven’t

15. Have you talked to anyone on tumblr that you could see yourself dating/having sex with? If possible?

yep.

16. Are you into hookups? Short or longterm relationships?

I don’t have anything against it, but i just know from and for myself i’ve not the personality to be outgoing anyhow so there’s that.I guess, either? i could see myself being in a poly relationship, though tbh.

20. Does the person you’re in love with know it?

seeing as i am not in love with anyone…. 

28. What makes you feel the happiest?

making my friends laugh :)

42. What kind of music to you listen to?

oh god, honestly anything from Disney to Musicals, from electro pop to indie-punk. 

yesterday I switched all day between the Star Wars: The Force Awakens, several Harry Potter Soundtracks and Assassin’s Creed 4: Black Flag while studying! 

In the time not spent on studying I mostly listened to Sleater Kinney, Ex Hex and i listened to some of the bands Carrie Brownstein mentioned in her book (say, Bikini Kill, Nirvana, Heavens to Betsy, Excuse 17, etc.) 

my favorite band/singer, though, is and will forever be Marina and the Diamonds. 

50. What worries you most about the future?

I’ve this habit of failing because i don’t pressure myself enough. I’m also very inconsistent. So, yea, i’m scared of failing and losing interest, yeT AGAIN

52. Are you happy with yourself?

no.. but getting there. we’re getting there.

54. What big lesson could people learn from your life?

hm, I guess, … see, last year I studied and failed “Theatre, Film & Media Studies” (*TFM) at university. Now, if you know me in person you know that there’s hardly any other topic I talk about as much as I talk about shows, movies and several forms of media and media personas. I’ve spent… more like wasted a whole year on it, before I failed entirely and couldn’t continue studying it. 

This whole year was filled with anxieties, worries, insecure if this is actually what I wanted to do! The subject included many courses I didn’t care about and it didn’t seemed to address the fields I was there for. So after I failed the last exam, I gave up. I was done. I felt mocked, ridiculed by these exams. If any professor had talked to me they would have known I was right there. I was supposed to study there. But the exams, god, nope. I wasn’t nearly as good enough, which is still a joke bc i know i was right there and good enough. 

But now, I’m studying English. With a passion for the subject that i’d never had for TFM. Although I still have anxieties bc of failing like I failed TFM, I know that this is what I care about most. This subject helps me to pick up proper writing, to get into the things I actually want to be doing eventually. 

So, the lesson would probably be, to not stop yourself after you failed but accept that maybe there are just opportunities that fit better for you. Accept certain things and also, allow yourself to be sad over failures. Don’t work yourself up about them, though, but just allow yourself to be sad in situations that are sad. That are changing your life to an unexpected turn. It’s just a new way. You probably don’t have a goal right away, hell knows I didn’t, deciding to really pursuit a career in Film is something that I decided this semester when I studied English, not when I was an anxious mess while I studied, well, Film. 

The lesson is: there are more roads that lead to Rome

73. What/who are you thinking about right now?

,,… Carrie Brownstein …. I also thought about Melli and Alba and also Pelin… hmmm 

also how i’m supposed to get ready now tbh

74. Do you like cuddling?

I guess unless I realize there are hands around my waist, particularly my belly then i’m tf out. I’m insecure about that ok

75. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?

not anymore, I guess. TFM has totally fucked me up long enough but i’m good now

77. Fave city you’ve been to?

London but I love my Vienna a lot

86. Who was your hottest ex?

…. i’ve …. been single…. all my life?

98. Do you have trust issues?

nope, I’m very trusting

99. Do you believe in love at first sight?

not really. but i believe in sympatico at first 7 seconds of interaction 

100. What are some words that you live by? Why?

“looking for the golden light” from Numb by Marina and the Diamonds. 

well, besides the personal connection I have with the song anyhow, I love that line in particular and if you put it in context of the chorus “I feel numb most of the time/ the lower i get the higher i’ll climb/ and i will wonder why/ i got dark only to shine/ looking for the golden light” numb is my journey of depressions, self loathe, self-harm, but it makes me hopeful. It gave me hope. i’m now on a path where i’m always trying to look for the golden light, where I am looking for the golden light. It got me strength and bravery to allow myself to not give up on my hopes, dreams, mostly though, myself. “I got dark only to shine” my lows aren’t signs of losing, weakness, … it was merely a dark place but i want to shine. I want to change something. i want to give a golden light. 

[softshane]

I'm sorry about how the talk went with your best friend. Her reaction was insensitive. Maybe she doesn't know how to behave around the topic. I hope you are okay!

yeah she probably doesn’t. it wouldn’t be typical of her to react in a sympathetic way. that’s not how she is but idk it was an accident, so. I hope she just forgets. and yes, I am. thanks for asking!

[viragowoman]

How did you and your girlfriend meet and start dating?

We actually met on here around this time a couple of years ago through the clone club fandom. I remember I followed her and unfollowed her several times (idk why) and then I followed her back one day and she was all nerdy about it and she kept reblogging my selfies and we started messaging every day all day and it lead from there really. We started dating on January 4th 2015 so it’s our year soon!:-D

[wickedggames]

When you get this, reply with 5 things that make you happy. Then feel free to send it to the last 10 people you have notes from in your activity!

I never do these things but I’m feeling good so..

1. My cat (that little shit is the most comforting dude ever and I’m already tearing up when I’m thinking about not seeing him every day again)

2. Meeting new people who I just click with  

3. Travelling

4. Music

5. Coffee

[themiseducationofb]

fuckyouitsmagic replied to your post: sempiternalverse asked:Hi this is...

she’s wrong tho, criteria for anorexia is bmi under 18.5. If higher it is Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified with tendencies towards anorexia.

sempiternalverse replied to your post: sempiternalverse asked:Hi this is...

to fuckyouitsmagic: oh thanks, I didn’t know that was one of the criteria! but basically my point was that anorexia is much more than just a health assessment of weight :)

This is what I found:

The severity of disease [anorexia nervosa] is based on body mass index (BMI) in adults with mild disease having a BMI of greater than 17, moderate a BMI of 16 to 17, severe a BMI of 15 to 16, and extreme a BMI less than 15.

Eating disorders not otherwise specified (EDNOS in English terminology) include on the one hand situations similar to anorexia or bulimia but who lack one of the required criteria for the diagnosis and are therefore also called partial syndromes or disorders below threshold, on the other a number of other disorders that are still not completely defined and delineated.

Individuals with EDNOS usually fall into one of three groups: sub-threshold symptoms of anorexia nervosa or bulimia nervosa, mixed features of both disorders, or extremely atypical eating behaviors that are not characterized by either of the other established disorders.

Anyway, this is internet knowledge as I’m not a doctor nor did I ever study all this. I should have checked the information before posting but even then internet can be deciving or fragmentary and sometimes even wrong. 

That’s why I’d rather stay clear from such specific claimings as to not spread possible misinformation.

The point of my post was another and had to do more with the distorded message about body positivity that the media and internet has been spreading. I already stated that there are differences that should be taken into consideration even when talking about obesity and overweight so as to avoid generalizations.

As for the anorexia talking, I just used this extreme example to underline that you’d never use the image of an anorexic to spread the message of body positivity because you already know that it’s not healthy, same as obesity isn’t healthy, despite it being at the opposite side of the spectrum. So, I’m aware that both issues are different and have different causes and specifics, the point I was trying to makes is that, at the end of the day, both are detrimental for our health.

Hope I made it all the more clear.