#full explanation

[elitaisapredator]

Okay, so i think there isn’t enough discussion on elita harkov and her being a "victim" and i’m here to explain it.

Firstly, she has never stated that she was any of the things you all say she was, (victim) i did a deep dive on it, and i found absolutely nothing about it or her saying it.

Also, there is nothing saying that Hell Hill was about elita. I have also done a deep dive on it as well, and i found again nothing saying she stated that Hell Hill was about elita.

The part some people would hate, there is also NOTHING saying that Meat Monster is about elita. Hell Hill in general isn’t about elita, "but she-" Elita is a band. It’s run by 3 people, as we all know tim, john, and emma harvey, she has also never stated that the songs they make are about her.

The part that most people would REALLY hate, i think her being a victim was made up by a hypocritical elita fan, also Hell Hill was a word she used in her past. She knows exactly what she was doing.

Here’s a video explaining it (read with captions)

Also i think she deactivated her old tumblr (not yungelita something else)

[whimsicallyreading]

I am reluctant to announce that I will be removing all of my fics until further notice. I didn’t come to this decision easily, but if you would like to know why, then I’ve given a full explanation down below

April foooooools 🥳

Couldn’t let the day go by without doing anything. I love you all so much. All of my love to anyone who cared 😂💜

[wattpadscapcons]

hi! im very confused. i havent seen the blog for some time and i'd like to know what's going on- sorry if this bothers you, you dont have to answer me if you dont want to - skid anon

Hello Skid Anon, it's nice to see you again. I have closed requests until I feel safe on my blog again.

You remember how I had a little spat with @/thetownofbirds ? Well that further escalated when someone new stepped in to try to defend me. Another simple misunderstanding I fear. I'll try to link all of the posts that are related to this.

These are in order going down the line.

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What Started the First Issue:

https://wattpadscapcons.tumblr.com/post/659088504217845760/sir-or-madam-those-anons-broke-a-rule-and-the

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Second Issue/ Defending Them:

https://wattpadscapcons.tumblr.com/post/659263609128599552/just-going-to-say-this-once-if-i-see-one-more

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Defending them to Finding Out:

https://wattpadscapcons.tumblr.com/post/659337731410984960/12-hey-i-wanted-to-say-how-deeply-sorry-i-am

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Finding out again and leading to guilt:

https://wattpadscapcons.tumblr.com/post/659341466753187840/anon-who-did-that-stupid-shit-with-fel-im-sorry

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My trust in Anons lost:

https://wattpadscapcons.tumblr.com/post/659353640639873024/huh-i-guess-i-was-wrong-for-believing-all-those

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Final Decision:

https://wattpadscapcons.tumblr.com/post/659361272465391616/decision-made

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Rule Bent for Regulars:

https://wattpadscapcons.tumblr.com/post/659508220046475264/well-either-way-treat-ill-respect-your

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Summary:

How I can best summarize it is, I had an altercation with someone, I addressed this issue with a response I thought was appropriate, and it led to that person being attacked over a misunderstanding.

Someone else stepped in saying things that only made things worse, so I ended up addressing that too, which escalated things even further, leading that person to have death threats fill up their ask box.

After having a conversation with said individual, I found that an anon from my page had sent in one of the threats or at least encouraged words of violence when stating that "we know who you are" indicating that they have, or are hinting that the threats was a planned effort by the individual or individuals involved. Seeing as how they addressed me in the ask, that only further made things a big issue for me, seeing as how they misunderstood me as well.

I no longer feel safe on my own blog knowing that hateful individuals claimed me as their motivation to do something so vile. I never would wish this kind of thing on anyone. Sure I have a sharp tongue myself, but that's only because I'm being blunt. I never meant to do any harm to Fel and White Knight. They just started a chain reaction I should have ignored since the very beginning. I knew Fel had misunderstood, and I shouldn't have pointed it out. I shouldn't have made such a big deal out of this all.

I never wanted anyone to get involved, I only wanted to protect myself from slander, and it turned into some people I don't even know getting attacked. I never asked anyone to get involved, and I'm rather sad that they chose to at all.

I take full responsibility for any harm that has come to Fel and White Knight, and have tried to deal with the issues that arise with them since we have all formed a friendship as of late.

Because I have no way of knowing whether or not said individuals claiming me will come after me next for defending them, I choose to be a coward. Yes, I said it, I am a coward. I am afraid of upsetting people, and I have tried my best to make it up to Fel and White Knight the best I could.

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I hope this answers your question.

- A very unhappy Treat

[shattered-state-of-mind]

Ocean Eyes: American Avenue

- me @ you  (could also be you @ Her but idk enough to say) 

          - so much of the lyrics hit home

          - “I’m scared/I’ve never fallen from quite this high into your ocean eyes”

                  - I don’t fall in love often but I do fall hard and for you its the hardest i   think

          - “You really know how to make me cry”

                    - Bestie you could break my heart harder than I can imagine and  yet you hold it so carefully

            - honestly all of them but those ones really stand out and worth  mentioning if you ever see this

- techno/rock fits v well into the playlist 

- good song I wanted to show you and it just hit me v strongly as you, reminding me of your eyes and I think about this song every time i look at them

[ahmadkhalid]

LeadModo Review + Huge Bounses Full Explanation

[nillawiffle]

paulmcfruity replied to your post “Sort of update sort of kind of....”

Oi, what is going on? D:

Thankfully the company that bought his company is keeping him on for a few months, mainly because they're totally incompetent, and have no idea what they are doing, but in the mean time...he needs to find a new job.

It's tricky...because he has a contract signed with this company to do work, but it's still kind of iffy, so he's been applying for more permanent work. 

Last week he got a phone interview for something that's near what he does now, and they asked him to come back in for a face to face interview this Thursday. It's a pretty good job, something he can do, close by, and honestly...the company he's interviewing for his pretty damn awesome. I'd LOOOOOVE for him to get it, but we just don't know.

Also: considering I'm due in May...it would be good to have something a bit more solid. LoL

[alwaysbeyondhope]

In Response to a Text from a Friend (because I can't text this one out...)

How is my semester going?

That's the question.

In one word: chaos.

I'm struggling so much with organization and getting everything done on time. I've missed two small assignments for two of my classes. I've given up trying to do the readings for my classes, because I'm just so focused on trying to complete the graded assignments.

I feel like I'm slacking as a partner. I'm not taking the initiative to do work like I normally do. I'm not performing my best, trying to stay on top of everything and get things done early. I'm bad at communicating and arranging times to get together with my partner, and I'm usually so responsible in that regard.

I don't feel as close to my students this semester as I did last semester. My students are younger, third grade, but they look and seem older. And although I'm in their classroom twice a week every week, I don't feel that I've gotten to know them all that well. My teacher works mostly through seat work and worksheets, so there's very little time for the students to really have a chance to socialize, work in groups, etc. Which means there's very little for me to help with or observe, ask questions about lessons, etc.

I'm trying so hard this semester to not have a mental breakdown like I did at the end of last semester (which ended with a trip to the local hospital in the back of a police vehicle), but it means that my grades and my work aren't as good. I made Dean's List last semester. That isn't going to happen this time around. And I'm afraid my GPA will plummet because of it.

I had all these plans to do other things this semester as well. Go to more of the Cardio Hoop Dance Club. Go to the Blue Pen Society. Write more. Really focus on my play. Star in Much Ado About Nothing. But I can barely keep my head above water as it is.

It doesn't help that I've had several ear infections since November, this awful, painful-gives-me-a-headache chest-full-of-mucus cough is back, which has been on and off for months. And there's nothing I can do about it. And I don't know why it's happening. And I've gained more weight, which my mother deems unhealthy, but I don't know if I'm too lazy or too depressed to do anything about it.

I've also come to the realization that if I don't nip this in the bud right now, I may develop a drinking problem. And so I am determined to not have that happen. I haven't had anything to drink in a month (minus a few sips of champagne and orange juice on Easter...) and I want to keep it that way, I think. I think I'm much better off not drinking at parties or anything of the sort. 

Other than all of that...I'm still single, I'm still not having sex like I want to. I think it's best for me to not be in a relationship right now because I legit don't have the time for one, and I would be a shit girlfriend because I'm really self-centered right now, and that's where I need to be. But I want that closeness with having someone who cares that much about you, who you can show off and let people know that you aren't the disgusting cow everyone thought you were in high school. But, again...I would be a shit girlfriend.

I'm back in therapy (which I think you knew already), although I haven't seen her in over a month. I'm not quite sure when, but it's been a while. Which isn't good. I forgot to schedule an appointment with her during my last one, and then things happened and popped up and it's been a month. Over a month. I'm so fucked. I'm seeing her on Friday, so hopefully we'll talk a lot of things out. Maybe we could talk for two hours instead of one.

I've got a possible job lined up for this summer, but I'm still waiting to hear back from them. And depending on if I get the job, I may or may not be taking that birthday trip to New Orleans with my parents. But I desperately need the money, because I'm really fucking broke.

I've made some new friends, which is good. And although I'm not constantly in a state of downward spiraling depression, I could definitely be better. Much better. I'm not doing awful, but this semester is complete and utter shit, and I hate that I have to go through it. I don't think I can make it until the end of the semester, although that's only 32 days away. It feels like forever.

So...that's about it. Which is why I had to write it here. Because there was no way I was going to be able to send that all in a text. Hopefully you'll read this (I'll probably text the link to you after I post it), and hopefully you won't mind that I put it all here. I'm only just now realizing that this could have gone in an email. But I live my life on here, so it does make sense to put it here, too.