#full_of_life

[iridescent--iridescent]

There are things that as much as we want keep holding on to - dreams that we want to fight for; people we would never want to let go - we must give up and move forward to a new chapter. You see, it hurts our pride to give up on something or someone. It pains our heart. It torments our mind. But the thing is, there are times that the dreams we are dreaming of aren't really meant for us. And there are times that the people we badly want to keep in our lives aren't really destined to stay. The more we hold on to something or someone that is not for us, the more that we are drifted away from what is really dedicated for us. It is indeed lonely and difficult to give up but our courage of doing so will one day reap its fruits. We are not seeing the whole picture yet. Giving up on that certain thing or person doesn't mean giving up on life completely. Sometimes, we must lose what is not for us to gain space for what is for us.

-- gg

[iridescent--iridescent]

It’s already late at night and I decided to catch some air in the balcony before studying for an exam tomorrow. As I lifted my chin up and stretched my arms, I saw the countless number of stars shining so bright in the sky. They were like glitters spread throughout the canvas of sky. It’s my first time after a while seeing the night-sky  full of stars like that. I looked for Orion, Big and Little Dipper, and Cassiopeia. It was so relaxing and heartwarming to look at those seemingly little luminous bodies. As I watched them share their light to this world, I remembered you. I can’t help but to think of you. What would you say if I message you this time just to tell you that the sky is beautiful and full of stars, you should take a look? Years before, I didn’t know what crossed my mind - maybe, it was because I was so young back then. We were talking about a different thing but I suddenly sent you a message saying, “Hey, the sky is full of stars, it’s beautiful. Quickly, take a look.” I didn’t know that I just associated you with something that will be part of me forever. Tonight. I was reminded of the good old days - the time when we were so young - the time when things aren’t as complicated. I already convinced myself that I am completely over my feelings for you. It’s just that memories with people make us feel the same emotions we felt during those past moments. Tonight, I looked at the stars - and I remembered you. 

-- gg

[iridescent--iridescent]

We have all been broken inside. We have all experienced pain. We all have this chaos inside of us. You see, the world makes us believe that it is a shame to feel broken, hurt, and troubled. It’s as if everyone is expected to be perfectly complete individuals. Don’t be a hypocrite. Whether you accept it or not, it is true that somewhere in  your life, you felt the longing for something; your heart has been shattered by the people and by this world; your thoughts turned into shambles. As humans, it is expected for us to experience these things. We are all imperfect and flawed individuals. But, it is my hope that as we ponder on this truth, we will also see the beauty and wonders that life has for us - that despite of all the big and small cracks in our life, we can still be whole and new again.

-- gg