#g0dlight

[aur0ras-a]

“ you’re my friend, but… sometimes i wish you were more than that. “ / AND I OOPS

hands are gentle , brushing through wet hair. he's a mess , not the first time she's seen him this way. he had broken his sobriety , gone since that night she had found him in the hallway with forgotten hotel key. it was now a routine for them , chrissy looking after cyrus. she didn't mind it , made her feel useful. like she belonged here. ❛ sorry that it's billy's , it's all i have right now. ❜ she helps him slip into denim shirt , buttoning pearl snaps. it'll do until his clothes are returned clean , or she can help him back to his room. turned from him now to grab water , the words catch her off guard. glass slipping from her hand , shattering against carpet floor. it would be easy to cross that line. and wouldn't it be justified , with all the time her husband spends with daisy? at the beginning , chrissy was convinced what cyrus and daisy held was a real marriage. but then through the cracks the real image seeped through. barely holding on , mirroring her own. she searches for words , trying to decide if it would be best to ignore them or not. to go on like she hadn't heard him at all. ❛ i think you've had a little too much to drink. ❜ she laughs it off , like her thoughts aren't focused on what it would be like. his hands on her , lips against his. the guilt holds her tight , threatening to swallow her entirely. it shouldn't be like this , it would be so easy. to allow herself to slip into his arms. she could weaponize him as something for herself , as a way to get back at billy. maybe it would be the same for him , only using her as a way to lash out at daisy. would it be so terrible?

cleaning up glass is an after thought now , turning back to focus gaze on cyrus. silence is heavy , the way it happens so fast. straddling his hips , she places herself in his lap. thoughts race , she doesn't mean to. but maybe , she also does. forehead against his , she lingers there for a moment before lips press against his.

[aur0ras-a]

🍒 for me 🥺

bubs , where do i even begin to start on this? it's so incredibly hard to believe that you have been in my life for nearly an amazing three years now. there are not enough words to put into possible the gratitude and love that i have for you. you are my best friend , my twin. i am so proud of you and the person that you've become. i've watched you grow in so many ways. your confidence, knowing your worth and the love you deserve. you are such an incredible human being who deserves the best and seeing you recognize that is one of the most inspiring things a person can ever witness. you've been here with me through some of the toughest things and i can say firmly that i wouldn't have made it without you. thank you for being my brother, thank you for always being here. i don't know what i would do without you in my life and i'm so glad that i'll never have to know because we'll never go far from each other and that's a promise. it always takes a while to sink in that we haven't met in person yet because i truly do believe that i've known you my entire life. thank you for being the best brother there is stinky, it's a title you should wear proudly because you deserve it ! i know this year has been hard for you too. you've seen both some up and downs. but you've moved through them both with so much grace and kept your head held high. i am always in awe of the strength that you have. i hope you never diminish that or underestimate yourself, i'm always here to remind you that you are strong. that you are capable and you can do anything. i've seen it time and time again. you're an inspiration to keep going, to keep trying. to never be afraid to be yourself , to never let anyone define you. shifting to a focus here on tumblr , i'm your biggest fan. no matter what blog you're on. you take these characters ( original or canon ) and you bring them to life. you develop them more, you add onto them and you make them your own. cyrus is the biggest example of this. you can't convince me that he doesn't exist in djats. you've put so much love and work into him , he's a real breathing person. thank you again bubs for everything, i truly don't ever say that enough. i love you so very much.

[faithchosen]

wait , wait , wait ! i'm coming with you !

as much as she would simply continue walking and leave him behind, the reality of the situation just better lend itself to sticking together (her idea after all). shadowheart does not know what to make of @g0dlight just yet (he seems so different from the crowd she usually finds herself running with) but it’s better than attempting this on her own. she looks over her shoulder, green eyes observe him. “do try and keep up, I do not know how much sunlight we have left…we have better start a fire before then.” she’s trying to be practical, in an impossible situation…under her lady’s watch surely nothing worse could happen. (she felt this inkling sense that soon things would make sense, she would never be alone in the dark after all). she only begins walking when he’s close enough, never the one to break silences as this one.

[aur0ras-a]

SPOTIFY WRAPPED STARTER.

she laughs , something bittersweet and melancholic. cigarette is held in shaking hand , ashed out onto wet blacktop of parking lot. ❛ i am my mother's child. ❜ she knows the words are lost on @g0dlight. laura cunningham was a woman who expected nothing short of perfection , who wanted a doll and not a daughter. had she become the same? in the desire for her marriage to be perceived as beautiful , to believe that it's sharp edges could be hidden beneath cloth? she swallows hard , gaze upwards on night sky. in cyrus' company , the words felt safe. a best friend , unjudging of anything that might come from perfectly glossed lips. ❛ i'm afraid i'm turning into the one thing i never wanted to be. unsatisfied. ❜

[neverrcryarch]

@g0dlight : lyric starter. 37 ft. drew - salt by alex g.

i raise a brow when i notice the others expression, a bit glazed over it seems. long day for him, maybe. or i'm just talking about stupid shit. honestly, either sound like the right option. "did you hear what i said ?" i ask after i clear my throat.

[aur0ras-a]

“ just let me sleep for five more minutes. ” / I. Listen. This could be that and it could not be.

morning sun illuminates hotel room , rays slipping in through cracked blinds. eyes flutter from beneath dark lashes , room slowly coming into view. it's hers , the familiar patterns of floral wallpaper becoming focused. the voice that comes from next to her is not something she's familiar with. at least in early morning hours. she lays still , holding breath. nothing had happened , chrissy had to be sure of it. it was like any other night , where they spent in the company of each other while their own significant others were together. billy was just looking after daisy , that line had worn down. lost it's charm that it once held. her husband was a good person , but now she questions altruistic motives.

❛ cyrus? ❜ his name croaks out , mouth dry. she gives herself away , sitting up and glancing over shoulder. desperate for any sign that this hadn't crossed a line. that this wouldn't be a secret that would implode everything. they had only shared a bed together , the rational part of her brain screams. but it's followed with those what ifs , the possibilities. usually he was long gone or sleeping on the sofa in living room of their suite. he had never been this close. she's in a shirt that's too large for her frame , sleeves rolled up. it's that familiar denim , one that belongs to billy. a heavy reminder like the gold band around her finger. ❛ everything's fine. ❜ her voice is soft , unsure of who she is trying to convince more. him or herself. chrissy stands , picking at cuticles, where skin grows red. ❛ do you remember anything? nothing happened , right? we . . . we watched tv. you were having a nightmare. and i didn't know what else to do. ❜

[aur0ras-a]

🎵 I want a playlist thx

ALMOST ( SWEET MUSIC ) , so i think this fits one of our au verses. where cyrus is still in the past , focused on either his relationship with daisy or rachel? he's learning to try and move forward but it isn't easy. SAVIOR COMPLEX , this can fit them no matter what! it's more based about chrissy and her savior complex. she sees what struggles cyrus has going on. and either has a friend or something more , she wants to save him because it's who she is. not too mention the emotional affair bit with cyrus and her forming the bond that they do over the dynamic billy and daisy often have.

HELLO MY OLD HEART , this can be taken romantically but i also think it could be just their friendship too. another one that takes on chrissy learning to help cyrus heal as friends or something more too! i just love the idea of them getting through what they're going through together and developing a bond as best friends or something more.

WHO DID THAT TO YOU , okay so this one is just seeing that chrissy has been hurt in the past and cyrus wanting to look after her more or less? COME HOME WITH ME , how could i not do a hadestown song for them because it's us. i think in a verse where they end up together, chrissy has been scorned by musicians one too many times and it's hard for her to believe that anything cyrus does or wants is genuine.

SHE CALLS ME BACK , also how could i not put a noah song on here. i think it's just the beginning stages of their relationship. maybe when cryus relapses if he goes back to rehab again , then it would be based on something like that !

[aur0ras-a]

❛ why don't you give up on me like everyone else? ❜

the answer is easy. everyone deserved a second chance , or more. giving up on people , meant walking away. she works diligently at cleaning room of mess , tossing out alcohol bottles and left over food containers. plenty of it hadn't belonged to cyrus , the spared space of bus for the six. ❛ you're family now , and we don't give up on family around here. ❜ sincere smile plays upon glossed lips , turning attention to the roadie for a moment. ❛ things aren't always pretty with families. sometimes people mess up , sometimes people get angry. but the most important thing is , we stick together. ❜ billy , graham , the rest of the six? they had been the closest thing she had to a family as long as she could remember.

her own home was painted portraits for perception of the outside world. perfection in suburban home. but the truth was found scraped beneath that paint , a father who fell into a bottle and a mother who expected a living doll. this was her family. and she'd do whatever it took to keep them together , always. ❛ so don't count yourself out, okay? we're all a little messed up around here. ❜