👀 + finn, after everything that's happened, what are your honest feelings on lachesis?
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"I fear there are...many layers to that question, which will take some time to go through." Finn said after a few long moments, staring into his drink. It was a good thing that the Askrans had such a good collection of liquors, it was starting to look as if he was going to need it. He pursed his lips and closed his eyes, trying to figure out where to start with the stranger's question before letting out a deep sigh and shaking his head.
"Have you ever resented and loved someone at the same time?" He asked, quietly. "That's what I feel. I...could never see myself with someone other than Lachesis, but even back when she was around, it sometimes felt as if I was - the safe option. The option she chose to escape prying eyes or claims of nobles, someone she could count on not to hold a grudge on Diarmuid for his parentage. That would hurt, but we never had a chance to speak on it before she left us again. And..."
Despite himself, he let out a bitter bark of laughter before taking another sip. "See how that worked out. She went looking for Diarmuid, but he found us after some time anyway, and we never saw her again. Is it wrong to hate a parent for leaving one child to find another? If it was just me she had left behind, well - I have been a poor father to Nanna, I know that. Not the worst, but nowhere near as good as I should have been. Part of me does blame her for that, but..."
"...she was the love of my life. She always will be.”