Hello, how are you? May i participate in your latest game please? I'm C, sun, sag, moon aries, rising scorpio, she/her.
My situation was as follows - I once had to let go of an opportunity at work for long-term relocation abroad. It is my deepest desire to settle permanently overseas, I don't know where, but certainly not here in my birth country where I quite literally relate to nothing. I'm not close to my biological family and I don't have any significant other, I don't have any shared intestine with anyone here, I'm a loner, always have been. So it's not really like I'm leaving anything important behind. And when this opportunity came, i willingly backed out of it. From my end, one of the major reasons was that i had already decided to leave that job, infact that entire career stream (I'm on a work break since then). I was done. And while I hated my work and my work environment, but I cannot deny the fact that it was indeed a golden opportunity, one that very few people get. Infact i had been working for many, many years and nothing of the sorts ever happened to me, but right when I was about to hand in my resignation this opportunity came to me. But, after yearsss of deliberation and lots of mental turmoil, saving up on finances and clearing out debt, I had finally made up my mind to leave that career. I could not back out now coz it's very difficult for me to reach any significant decision. A secret reason for my refusal was that despite me wanting to settle abroad, i suffer from extreme social anxiety due to which i find new environments very triggering. Just the thought of being in an unknown environment, with new work, new kind of people, all alone, was very scary.
So my question is, now that all is done and dusted, is there something that I didn't see then? Did I really miss out on a great opportunity or was my refusal a blessing in disguise?
Regarding your situation - Intuitively I feel that there is a very serious lack of communication between both of you. It almost feels like you both know what the other person's feelings are about each other or about the situation that is going on. But because you guys haven't put it into words, it's causing internal turmoil. I feel like one or both of you have been thinking about the other a lot, maybe both of you are thinking about each other. Whether those are happy thoughts or not, I can't say. But i feel there is a lot that is not communicated to each other. And, this lack of open talk is causing confusion of some sorts. It feels like you or him are afraid to put your thoughts into words coz you guys feel that you're not clear on what you wanna say to the other. But the longer you wait, the more confusing it gets. I would suggest to just start with one sentence and then eventually see how it leads.
Thanks a lot for this opportunity 🙏. Hugely appreciate it 🙏
Firstly I love your question, it's like a little letter.
Thank you for the exchange. I'll soon reach out to him again.
I have to say, it was a good offer and my guides are saying you should've treasured it; nope not chiding you whatsoever, but just saying you were blessed, and you will continue to be blessed if you follow what your parents, angels and guides (from above) tell you what to do. In fact, I feel you are blessed by Christianity or Catholicism or some sort of Western religion in terms of your job.
So it is more of having to do with your gratitude rather than the participation of accepting the opportunity if that makes sense. I got Death, so there was something that ended (?). Or felt stagnant or unmoving in your offer, and I'm getting you felt it some way or another. In fact, I'm getting a little defensive vibe from someone, like a higher-up (boss) who might have felt.. Scared (?) of you. I'm getting this is more.. In the feelings area than material. Like friendship. You might have known it would've caused issues in your security (you might've felt attacked).
I think it could've helped you move forward too. As well as you would've given to the company emotionally.
Whether it was a blessing in disguise or a great opportunity or both, I feel you already feel the answer. Lastly, just an advice, I think you should make decisions based on where your heart is.