gap year anon, frog stuffie guy anon, hate comment anon
gap year anon
gap year anon, here! this isn't an ask, and more of a thank you.
i cried over your response. i don't have any adults present in my life rn, so getting this sort of advice for someone was definitely needed.
thank you so much, cas. you don't have to share this response, if you don't want to— but i hope you read it and know how much of a positive impact you have
<3
Ohhh, I'm so glad I could help a little! I really hope you're able to take care of yourself during your gap year, you deserve it <3 My inbox is open if you neeed me!
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frog stuffie guy anon
good news is; they found me a place to live!
Bad news is now i have to pack up my house in the middle of a flareup bc i move on monday
frog stuffie guy
I'm sorry <3 I'm glad you have a place to stay, though, that's a huge relief! At least in a week, you'll be moved in and not have to worry about housing!
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hate comment anon
I got a hate comment on my wolfstar oneshot and it's upset me more than I thought it would.
I feel like I'm being dramatic for being so disheartened because it's literally just one comment and so many people are so lovely.
I think I've already been having a bit of a knock to my confidence writing wise and this just felt like it confirmed something I was already feeling.
It's just frustrating because I feel like people usually function under if you don't like don't interact??
I don't know it's just made me a little bit anxious LMAO
Um first of all, you are NOT being dramatic! Hate comments on my fics make me super upset, too! You're putting yourself out there by sharing something super vulnerable (your writing) and someone is stomping all over that! That's awful, and you DONT deserve that.
First, I hope you blocked the person.
But also you should know, there's been an uptick in bot/AI-created hate comments lately. If the comment was vague at all, there's a chance that it's not even real. Not that it matters much-it's hurtful either way- but just know that it could be random.
But you have EVERY right to be upset. Please don't let this stop you from writing. You deserve to be able to share your writing with people, and fuck anyone who says differently <3
gap year anon (new), palestine anon (new), ap exams anon (new)
Gap year anon (new)
Hey Cas!
Im genuinely so lost right now and I hate it. Im about to graduate yippee! But also I feel so anxious about everything now. I got into a pretty good college and I've accepted their offer and everything already, but im starting to feel odd about it. For one it's 20k a year and unless I actually get scholarship money, im not comfortable with that and it was still the cheapest offer I had. Not to mention im getting nothing from my FAFSA but my parents aren't in a financial situation to help me with college. On top of that, this school is out of state which I thought I wanted but now I just don't know if I want to be 9 hours away from home. In general, it's been making me feel shitty. And on top of that I also dont want to take a gap year either because I'd feel like im falling behind (even though now im deeply considering it) And honestly part if me thinks it might be because I fell in love with a school closer to home but didnt get in and im not sure if I should wait and try again or not. Im sorry for all this rambling but I genuinely dont know who to talk about all this with because I feel like my parents would encourage me to stay home, but my teacher who's helped me with applications would tell me to go to the college in got into (which isnt necessarily bad, but she is far more focused on their English program for me despite the fact I'd be majoring in psych). All in all its a mess which kinda sucks because a few months ago i had been so excited and now im just not and i dont really know what to do about it🫤
Hi!!
First off, let’s take a moment to mourn the fact that the US financial aid system absolutely sucks. I’m so sorry you’re dealing with that. I, too, had to deal with the ridiculousness of the FAFSA and wtf, it’s awful.
Anyway.
After reading what you wrote, I want to make sure you know that any decision you make is more reversible than you think. I know this feels life-altering but I promise, you CAN change your mind later. A gap year won’t destroy the rest of your life, for example.
However, my advice would be this: what if you try the school you got into for a semester? Plenty of people transfer and it’s NOT a big deal at all. So go to the school you got into, but apply again to the other, closer school. If, at the end of the semester (or year) you want to go home, transfer, take a year off…then do it! But at least you can say you tried, right? It might be that you find you love it or it might be that it’s awful. Either way, though, you’re not wondering.
College is a scary decision and it feels so life-or-death but I promise, you’re allowed to make mistakes and change your mind. I believe in you! <3
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Palestine anon (new)
So half bent half wtf I am gonna do, pls help me situation:
My lover says "It's not that deep" when I want to boycott for Palestine. I can't boycott fully but I try to buy from companies that doesn't support Israel when I can.
We were gonna make a junk food picnic for my birthday. And I wanted to buy our local brands, but he said he didn't want to buy them.
Like, I am paying? It's for my birthday? I am not telling him to change his whole spending habits. Just not to buy them when I am gonna eat it too. Because I don't want to give my money to America and Israel?
(I am so sorry if it's offensive, i know you are American, but I do not agree with your president and such and would rather for my money to go to local brands in my country, I apologize if it's inconsiderate.)
And he says it's not too deep.
And I say, okay I know you can buy anything with your money, and I don't care, but I won't buy it if I have alternatives.
So he calls me too sensitive.
Okay I can deal with that.
Then.
A few days later, he tells me it's weird for me to enjoy lgbt media.
And I say I am literally bisexual? And he says it doesn't count because I am dating a man, so watching two men or women together is weird and fetishizing.
And I say who cares? I am not hurting anyone, besides I enjoy queer media and try to uplift the artists that gives us that media. I am not doing anything wrong.
And he says I am a fetishizer, and I say 'its not that deep' in a mocking voice.
Which, I know, low blow, mimicking him wasn't the healthiest way but I was so frustrated.
Then he says it is that deep and he is uncomfortable with his woman watching/reading about other men.
And I got so mad because 'why do you care? You didn't care when a war was there, and now you care because I am reading about two men kissing?'
And he says I am harming my relationship with him by consuming media with lgbt because I am in a straight relationship rn and should act like that.
And I just say fuck off you don't even respect my boundaries why should I respect your weird rules.
And I was rude but he was more.
And those two separate conversations shouldn't even be mixed from the start but since they were a few days apart we were both angry.
And I just told him if a war doesn't mean anything, but two men kissing affects, he is the problem.
And he goes "are you calling me homophobic? I am not! Is it so bad for a man to not want his woman to fantasize about those things?"
And we sleep separately since those two fights happened.
Um I don't know what to do? I am still not calm? And he refuses to apologize saying he did nothing wrong? But I honestly don't think I should apologize? Like fuck no I won't. I would do it all again if it happened.
Okay first off, I’m def not offended, you’re completely right to hate Trump lol
But when you said “You don’t even respect my boundaries” THIS is the key.
Here’s the thing: this post is FULL of red flags to begin with. Your boyfriend is showing a lack of empathy by not caring about the world around him, a lack of respect and understanding by not giving a shit about your sexuality, and a manipulative streak by basically gaslighting you into thinking this is all okay. But even besides that, you have set clear boundaries about what is important to YOU (protesting, consuming certain media) and those things have NOTHING TO DO WITH HIM. He is not allowed to control you, but he is doing a damn good job trying to do so.
This man is NOT treating you right. He is disrespecting your boundaries, your ideals, and your identity. You deserve a LOT better.
Also….he IS being homophobic lol.
Please don’t apologize.
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AP exams anon (new)
hi cas could you please not attach the ask when you reply? (redacted)
Hi!
I think you’re right to feel some type of way. The thing is, I’m a very forgetful person, right? Like I am definitely the type to forget things like tests or birthdays or something like that. But I also do try to do my best to maintain friendships in other ways. And that’s the thing-friendships don’t just continue without effort. Somehow, you need to make sure your friends feel loved. It sounds like this is part of a bigger issue here, where these friends are not making you feel valued, and THAT is the thing you have a right to feel upset about. One time of forgetfulness is excusable, but a pattern of carelessness sucks.
Have you told them flat out that you feel neglected? I think in this case, that’s the only way to even try salvaging this. But if they get upset or don’t change, then it’s also fair to say that sometimes people can be nice people but just not compatible friendship-wise. And that’s okay!
posting writing anon (new), jfp anon, gap year anon (new)
posting writing anon (new)
Hi, I hope your having a good days!
So, I recently started posting my writing and I haven't written in a few weeks and I was rereading my microfics (they're only from the last month or so) and I just feel like they suck. Like I know I'm new to writing so I'm not going to be amazing yet but I just feel like they aren't any good. So do you have any advice on what to do to?
Hi!
I think it's important to know that EVERYONE feels this way about their writing. Like I promise, I look back at my stuff and hate 99% of it. You're your own biggest critic, I guarantee other people aren;t looking at your stuff the same way.
The best thing to do is to see what you want to work on, and keep practicing. If you don't like how you described, or repeated words, or whatever, don't get too down on yourself! The important thing is to work on that in the future, and know that the more you write, the better you'll be. <3
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jfp anon
Jfp anon, hope you are well.
HOW ARE MEN SO STUPID? Do they honestly not think? (I am a man :/)
I forgot that i am in fact trying to confess to a guy who's pretty much jfp???
"Hey, I really like you"
“🫶🫶”
DUDE??? I'm trying to say l'm in love with you 😖 l'm gonna give it another go, probably not today because he’s seeing friends today but at some point.
Also, if you're thinking maybe he's being intentionally blind because he doesn't want me to be in love with him, that thought has crossed my mind but I genuinely don't think so???
In response to you asking how he acts about the age gap, he sort of doesn’t? He doesn’t really talk about the age, i don’t think he thinks about it (i don’t know that he thinks about anything after yesterday:/)
The only time he seems to remember is if I’m bullying him for being old.
(I do honestly think he’s insanely smart and incredible I’m just a little annoyed that I was freaking out over what he’d say and he just sent back heart emojis)
hahahaha this made me laugh. yeah, I think you need to be a little more obvious. "I like you" is something you could say to a friend or...like, a dog. You can 'like' a meal, you know? You need to be clearer. "I like you as more than a friend."
I mean there's a small chance he's being dense on purpose, but I'd guess he either has no idea or he's trying not to make assumptions. You have to be more forward, as scary as it is!
As far as the age, it sounds like he's a good guy, then! Like I said, as long as it's legal, he doesn't pressure you, and the people you trust don't see any red flags, then my opinion (and again, I want to stress that I don't know him or you so I'm not the best person to decide) is that it's not a huge deal. Just be careful to set boundaries where they need to be set!
Keep me updated, I'm excited to hear what happens!
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gap year anon
im planning on doing a gap year in between college and university. as a teacher, what would you recommend doing in that year?
not to sound depressing, but i genuinely don't know what to do anymore. i want to get a job, but i don't know if i can. im already struggling to get out of the house and go to college, and i know that'll impact my ability to get a job.
the thought of going to university is killing me. im barely functioning as it is. everything's going to shit, and i don't know what to do.
i just need ideas for my gap year. thank you
Hi!
Okay I'm going to be honest with you: it sounds like you need to take this time to prioritize your health. I'm guessing it's mental health that's making it so you can't leave the house? Please, take the time after high school to get some help.
I don't say this to judge at all. Trust me, Ive been there-I had to go to high school online for the last 2.5 years of school because I had such bad social anxiety.
but the thing is, you have an opportunity now to do something that you might not have to do later- to just focus on what you need.
Get a therapist, get a psychiatrist, check yourself into an inpatient program if you need to. It sounds scary, but it's SO helpful. Figure out what you need to succeed during this next phase of your life. Take baby steps to make it so you can function, you can succeed, you can thrive. This isn't a year off from studying, this is a year to study YOU.
And THEN, if you have time? Travel. Get a job to get some experience. Live.
But please don't put off doing things to help yourself, because the thing with a gap year is that it can either be super helpful by giving you the time you need, or it can be harmful when it turns into two, three, four years.
Hello Eline, happy, happy Birthday! I don´t really now what to say. I obviously don´t know you besides on here but you seem to be the person I want to be. I think I said that before but your blog really is one of my safest spaces. Thank you. You derserve the best. ♥ -gap year anon
Babe, gah. Thank you so much, that means so much??? I hope it will continue to be <3 And hey, you always seem so lovely yourself, no need to compare yourself to anyone else, yeah? <3
Hi Eline, (It's gap year anon) Storm is gone and now you are taking a break... I'm a little sad but please take your time and try to do what is best for you. We didn't chat much but your blog was always a comforting place for me, I didn't need to talk much but I didn't feel excluded vor lonely. Thank you for that. You are really a beautiful person with a beautiful character.
Hi love, I just wanted to thank you for this, and say hi. This means so, so much to me. I’m so happy the storm has passed for you, I hope you get some time to relax and enjoy things now ❤ I’m also beyond happy that my blog could be that for you and that you feel that way, it means the world to me. I’ll definitely be back (I’m already missing it and doing a shit job at staying away. Take care, I love you ❤
Today in my english lesson we read a text and it said: "Harry always says the right thing to everyone, and is great company. He´s kind and helpful, too. He´s charming." And I was just like: I know. It was kind of funny (also because in the sentence before was about a "Olivia") so I wanted to tell you. Anyway have a nice day! - gap year anon ♥
Hey babe!! No way djhsdjkhfjk those are the realest sentences hahaha <3 And Olivia in the lines before that?? Honestly what are the chances??? I can completely imagine you sitting there, going like “oh I know. I know.” . Thank you for sharing this with me, it really made me smile <3 How are you doing then?? <3
