I just finished my first year at GCSSM!!! It was amazing!! absolutely life changing! Through the school I grew a lot closer to God and really began to realize who I am in Christ. I am not weak and pushed around by my fears anymore. I used to be so ruled by my fears, they held me back from giving it all to God and really following Him and they held me back from truly loving other people. No more though. Fears of failure and what people think of me no longer have a hold on me, I am truly free!!
I have seen myself become way more bold over this past school year. I used to be terrified to even go pray for someone before, but now I'm so overcome by love I don't even think about it, it just feels so natural. It's so easy to love. Sometimes loving them looks like praying for them or healing them or doing some other crazy supernatural thing. But it can also be just as powerful to simply sit with someone and listen or to hold them as they cry and just be there comforting them. It can even be as simple as a hug or smile. When it's done out of love the simplest things can make the biggest difference in someones life. Love is what transforms people and sets them free. At the same time all those things can be done without love and actually do more harm than good, 1 Corinthians 13 is actually really beginning to make sense to me now.
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing. (ESV)
LOVE is the most important thing. Where love is there God is and where God is there is love. I am on this pursuit to grow in love, to really understand it and to be consumed by it all the time. I don't want to be inward focused anymore, but I want to be completely abandoned in love for God and people. I want to have His heart and His eyes for people, I want to love like Jesus loves and that's exactly what He's been teaching me so much over these past nine months, it's truly all about love.