"my biggest fault is that the faults i was born with grow bigger each year."
‘…but isn’t that the same for everyone?’
the words slip from chanyeol’s lips rather carelessly, without any thought behind them. isn’t it natural for everyone to have faults that grow bigger each other? everyone is born with them, whether they want to admit it or not.
he sees it two ways: you either learn and grow, or you burn and suffer from them. flaws can be your biggest downfall, if you let them bury you. they can also be your greatest achievement – if you use them to your advantage and over come them. he doesn’t see them as a bad thing. how could something so simple as a flaw be a bad thing?
perfection doesn’t exist in this world, no matter how perfect something might seem. no matter how perfect someone might seem.
chanyeol, personally, is a man of many faults himself. he could probably sit and list each and every one that he’s aware of, and it might take hours to do so. but it’s not something that he likes to focus on. he’s someone who likes to take a flaw and make it into one of his strong points. he likes to do something he’s bad at until he’s good at it. because of that, he is, in a way, a perfectionist. ( just imagine the frustration he feels when he can’t get something right, and only proves to fail at what he’s trying to achieve. he doesn’t stop until he succeeds. )
there is the fact that it is different from everyone. everyone handles things differently, and chanyeol can’t expect anyone to be the same as him. his need for success and being good at things he wants to be good at is what drives him to do something about it.
‘ah, that was.. insensitive of me,’ he’s quick to apologize, giving a bow of his head and an apologetic smile. he only speaks again once he straightens up, his lower lip sucked between his teeth with his brows furrowed slightly. ‘you shouldn’t focus on your faults, though. your faults make you.. you. the you that everyone loves. and if you don’t like them very much.. well, you can work on making a better you so you can learn to love yourself, right? each year, you can be a better you than the year before.’ it made sense in his head, though saying it is a little more confusing, but he only hopes she understands.
he rubs over the back of his neck with a sheepish laugh, looking down and away from jieun. ‘are you falling into a slump over something? i know how hard it is as an idol. i can’t even begin to imagine how it is as a solo artist.’