#gender mood

[claradwor]

Gender moods at the uni

[memecucker]

The Neith mech from Zone of the Enders is one of my favorite anime girls of all time

[clockways]

Today's Gender is:

Dramatically wilting pothos.

[kores-pomegranate]

Today’s genderr

[charlignon]

Tumblr is like an enrichment chamber for your gender. Yesterday I was just a boy, now my gender is DEEP AND COMPLEX (vanilla flavoured)

[no-gender-means-no]

i know for sure that i’m not a cis woman. like i really don’t feel like i belong to that category, like it just doesn’t feel accurate to be called a girl.

these days i let myself just wear whatever feels good without worrying too much about gender. i really don’t like using the language of femininity or masculinity because even that feels too restrictive. i used to try to prove my queerness through my wardrobe but it doesn’t feel authentic doing that…because all along i’ve been nonbinary, i’m the same person, i just use a different label now, a different framework, i understand myself differently.

yet i can’t help but feel the social gender anxiety creep up on me again. i got top surgery that was more like a radical reduction, so i’m not flat. i bind sometimes, most of the time i don’t. this year i’m focusing more on my mental health and recovery and home life so i don’t go out much anymore. but in doing so i haven’t really gone to much queer community events, haven’t really engaged with queer community besides my close circle of friends who are all trans.

i’m nonbinary and pansexual but i’m also monogamous and married to a cis man. i’ve never dated anyone who wasn’t a cis man. but i for sure know my sexuality and attraction isn’t limited to cis men. i want to buy a home and have a kid and live a simple life with my happy little family. one time i got called “traditional” for being married and that really stung cause they were very much implying throughout the whole night that monogamous people aren’t queer enough and can’t be radical.

so yeah, i’m feeling pretty worried these days that my queerness isn’t valid because of my lack of engagement in social queer community. i just don’t think about my gender all the time. i’m getting self-conscious again about the validity of my queerness due to my relationship status and my goals in life being viewed as “traditional” therefore not queer.

If a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?

like, am i still queer if there isn’t anyone around to see it??? lol besides my partner and close friends.

these have been my thoughts lately

[moonsandstarsaregay]

Me: *puts on Mother Mother in the car with my dad*

Me: :)

[eldritchteacozy]