#gettingsmall

[drheartx9]

#gettingsmall #excuuuseme #imustsay #ohspinwheel (at Concord Pavilion)

[1213shea-blog]

I still hate that my skin is stretched out and makes me look like I'm carrying more weight than I am. I can grab fist fulls of skin, and squish it flat into my body. I'm wearing a large pair of leggings here, and they fall down on me when I walk, and sit. I'm constantly having to pull them up! This is a large tank top, and I can pull it down pay my hips. My xl tank tops go halfway down my thighs, when they used to barely cover my belly. I started my weight loss journey in September. My most weight loss has come in the last few weeks. I've been very emotional and physically ill. I've been insanely stressed, overwhelmed, and a total wreck. It takes a lot to break me down, and between the two men I let into my life and into my world, they broke me. When I get depressed, I tend to gain weight. But when I get BROKEN to my very core... when I lose myself... I lose weight. Because I am so sick now, it's become drastically worse. I have never lost weight like this before, and I am worried about my heart and my muscles. My hands shake, my legs ache, my body is tired and weak. I am drinking protein shakes, eating when my body won't reject it, and resting often. I do take care of myself as much as I can, and do my best to be good to my body. I'm not TRYING to lose weight, though I do need to lose even more. I'll keep trying to regain a healthy weight in a healthy manner. I honestly should be down to a size 7/8 for my body shape, size and height, though even with my weight loss, I'm only down to a 12/14. I'll always keep fighting for my emotional, physical, and mental health. So should you! #health #weightloss #losingweight #hugeweightloss #bigdifference #gettingsmall #needtobehealthy #spoonielife #topamax #fibromyalgia #lifeofaspoonie #somuchpain #brokenheart #heartachesucks

[1213shea-blog]

My weight loss journey has been both a celebration, and a bit scary for me. This process only began 6 months ago, and I've lost nearly 80 lbs! That's a lot of weight to lose in such a short period of time for someone who has not undergone surgery, or is not under direct supervision of a Dr for that particular matter. I've simply been so ill, and so stressed, it's next to impossible to keep the weight from falling off my stressed and worn out body. I have been working on getting as many healthy smoothies and options into my body as possible, as it simply won't digest foods at this time, however we'll have to see. But my body does what it wants under intense stress, and after what happened with JR and AN, it's been doing its own thing. I'm still happy that I'm getting back to my old body, however. I simply wish it was accomplished in a less painful way. #chronicillness #painful #stress #heartache #exhausted #weightloss #losingweight #80lbs #hugeweightloss #bigdifference #gettingsmall #needtobehealthy (at Mona, Utah)