Vincent thinking about how small you are compared to him. Whenever he holds you, it feels like you shrink into him further just to enjoy how long his arms really are.
It's amusing to watch a content smile spread on your lips as he slips a hand on your lower back when you're in crowded areas, always watching out for you. Your fingers often entangle with his, the palms of his hands engulfing yours seamlessly.
His favorite is taking the palms you love and caressing your hair until you fall asleep. He'd spend hours idly playing with your hair, his eyes lidded with the want to slumber but his mind just not quite being able to make it there. He likes pressing secret kisses to the side of your head, inhaling the scent of your shampoo even if he feels a bit embarrassed afterwards.
Those long agile fingers often bring you pleasure when you should want it. You never even have to ask him. Most of the time you're ovulating it's very obvious as you'll wake up, languidly guiding his hand that was cupping your thigh further up until he's cupping your mound. You often rut shamelessly for a few minutes, whining, knowing he's not sleeping that heavily. But he enjoys that you take from him on your own too, that you're greedy, that you want him.
Warning: Super sloppy ramble smut ♡ minors dni heavily inspired by devils line ♡
Tags: monster-fucking, tail humping, hand job, voyeuristic, tongue sucking, drool, lots of other sloppy stuff.
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Vincent feels as pathetic as he sounds. His skin is tingling from his scalp to the tips of his fingers. Your hands are so good on him, velvet against marble, and he swears he could see stars behind this blindfold snug across his eyes. There's hardly any sound in the dim room aside from the panting and soft gasps from the both of you. The entire medical team was watching from beyond a glass, discretly checking monitors to make sure everything was okay.
This was a test to see how far Vincent could push himself without restraining everything all at once. What triggered his harsh transformations most of the time was anguish, pain, but lately even adrenaline from desire was starting to have a similar effect.
The last time you had found yourselves alone together, tongues locked in a furious battle his hands had almost ripped their leather gloves as his claws slid through like butter. He had refused to be intimate afterwards.
There's no sense of humiliation here for now letting his monsterous features out— not much anyway. His tongue is lolling out, licking at any inch of skin you push his way, savoring the taste of your lotion, your sweat. There's no time to feel ashamed of it, of this pulsing madness between the both of you. He knows you don't have the luxury of a whole night to yourselves, you had talked him through the process with the medical team- even though they were ex-shinra scientists, they had been nothing but helpful towards your group.
A chortle rips from his throat, caught as his head begins to hang a bit, the collar around his throat tight, but not restrictive.
It's been too long, a crescendo of long kisses and heavy petting only to turn each other away— afraid. His inner thighs ache to part, to grasp you and drag you on top of his splayed legs to take what you want. The idea of you controlling all the movement, the entire entanglement turns him on to infinity. Your hands gripping him as you take what you want? He would simply explode much to his chargin.
Now his hands ache to grasp, to claw, to spread you open and drink you up like you're his favorite vintage wine. He can hear your soft moans as you touch yourself right in front of him, he can hear the slip and slide of your fingers coated in your own slick. The embers in his loins grow hotter with every passing breath. He's licking stripes along your exposed neck, tongue curling between the bars of the muzzle to make it work. Like this, it's safer for both of you. He laps like a dirty dog, too out of it to care to be non-chalant or insecure. All he can think, feel, smell is you. He wants it.
He'd been pent up for too many days, too many close calls of beasts bursting from his skin. At least now he was restricted, made to obey lest all temptations stopped. The carnivorous desire to consume all you offered, savor it, beg for it like an animal was all he had left. Ambitions, pity, self-hatred be damned because he would wear humiliation like a scarlet scarf- wrapped in your fingers for all the world to see.
Well, the medical staff would definitely see.
In this moment, he was truly your prisoner, a man succombed to carnal desire. His own voice is warbler and indistinct to him, ragged, panting.
"Hah- ah—...Taste...so good...I like it..." His groans grow deeper as you catch his slippery tongue with your fingers and rub it gently. This kind of touch shouldn't send shivers down his spine, it shouldn't soothe him, but it does,
"Mhh—..ore?" He asks, the restraints of leather and chain creaking in protest as he shifts his knees apart, giving his erect cock a chance to breathe in its confined leather pants.
His hands reach out, the pull of the chains rattling around his wrists, he wants to feel the plush of your breasts to squeeze. He wants to make you come like this, to show you he's still worthy. He finds your chest being pressed into his hands, the softness is so supple, sweet. Fingers twitching but controlling his pressure, reminding himself that he can't lose his composure completely or everything stops when he becomes non-verbal.
You had prefaced that when you both agreed to this kind of test. When you led his hand to your sweet lips and kissed every knuckle, declaring your loyalty, your bravery to see him this way. To still choose him by the end of it, to try.
The way you patiently let him discover, watch him unravel over you with his dark locks falling all over his shoulders. In his half transformation, it had grown longer, pooling on the medical white sheets. His eyes were covered completely, but you could feel the heat of his gaze like he could still see you regardless with just his nose and flicks of that thick forked tongue hanging between his lips.
His fingers brushed over your nipples, a gasp releasing as you shifted closer, trying not to tow the line and get too close. He was panting, drooling like a dog, and yet your inner walls clenched around nothing. You wanted that primal part of him to take you to places you'd never dare to go. You wanted to shatter around him, to take and receive in this twisted nature.
A rough texture brushed against your leg, and in surprise, you choked back a moan as it slid between your legs. His tail had moved of its own accord, it was heavy and rough but the underside was quite smooth; it glided against your clothes clit deliciously as he continued kneading your chest.
"V-vincent...hah..." You panted, rubbing against his tail desperately, but trying to bite your lip to keep from exciting him too much.
"Yess..." He almost hissed out between his growing fangs, they were filling his mouth to the point it was hard to see his dark lips. He looked wicked, you wondered if it was more pain than pleasure.
"You're...hah—" You shuddered as he moved again against your soaked panties, the fabric catching on one of the plates of his scales, "Y-you okay?" You mustered.
"Mhmmm," He was shaking as he pulled his hands from your chest, curling them in his lap, his cheeks were red, ears absolutely torched. You could see the flush creeping around the open vest at his chest and around his forearms, "I'm fine, want you to come..." He almost whimpered, tongue flicking out between the muzzle bars again, tasting the air, tasting your arousal with a loud moan.
The sight of him pulling his own cock out from the waist of his pants and jerking it wildly was insanely hot. Your jaw was slack as you hooked a finger in your underwear to pull it over to the side. You wanted more friction to slip on the soft part of the tail. You could feel the muscles clenching as you touched it bare.
At this point his shoulders were shaking violently, spit flying from his mouth in half snarls as he rubbed himself almost angrily. You whimpered, that seemed to press him on as he curled over his thighs, hair pooling over his face. He looked to be in pain, there was an ambience there that you weren't sure about.
Against your better judgment you slid further up the tail, hand reaching out to grip some of the hair and tangle it in your fingers. You tugged lightly with a soft whisper of his name.
"Vin?" You coo'd gently, eyes half-lidded as he cocked his head at you, tilting his chin up. That delicious looking mouth parting with your name as well as you tried to get him to slow down, "Be careful, yeah? Don't hurt yourself."
He nodded, swallowing thickly as his hands continued on himself but less harsh. He could feel your knee knocking against his, sparks flying down his spine, "Miss...kissing you.." He admitted, brows furrowed.
"Stick your tongue out, silly." You chided, leaning forward across the invisible line you weren't supposed to cross. Your other finger hooked in his muzzle, tugging his face forward. You felt his tongue prodding against your lips, so you opened and let him in. You suckled gently, hips picking up tempo in grinding on him. You were grinding so hard, your own release came quickly, though you could barely focus on the white hot sensation between your legs. He was so beautiful in front of you, a man completely desperate.
Unable to speak because you were working sinful strokes along his tongue, he was crying. Tears slid from under the blindfold, collecting beneath his chin as the rush of emotion and pleasure overcame him.
Vincent cried out, tongue still trapped between your lips as you licked it slowly. You could see his body tense up, his hand stopping completely as he coated his abs and part of your leg in his cum. He was still rutting into his fist in desperation. The sticky trails were left all over his pants, his breathing staccato as he came down.
"I need to touch you, I'm fine...I can control it." His arms spread out reaching for you, needing to hold you after orgasming.
A part of you broke inside seeing him so lost afterwards, he was always seeking you out after now. It was an aftercare both of you needed. You looked towards the window, waiting to see if the team behind the glass would cut the session entirely or what they would say. As you waited, you could feel the tail beneath you sliding away, here the ragged groans of pain as Vincent was pulling himself back together.
Soft particles of magic rumiated where the limbs dispersed. He was returning to normal with every slow of his heartbeat. You took it as a sign and practically threw yourself in his lap, shirt rumbled half off your body, your pants still hanging off of one leg. You didn't care, you sighed in relief as his arms came around you.
"I'm here,"
"All I can smell is you," Vincent blurted out as he stroked the top of your hair, the coldcage of the muzzle pressing against your cheek, "was it...—"
"No it wasn't scary, you were still beautiful to me." You replied instantly, pulling the muzzle straps away from his face with care. As it fell away from his face you kissed him immediately. His lips were a bit chapped from biting them, but they were still so nice to feel against your own.
"I hate the muzzle most of all," He kicked it off the bed with his leg as you set it down to the side. You raised an eyebrow in surprise.
"That much huh?"
"You should wear it next time," He tossed back, pulling you back against his chest, legs pulled up around you to cage you in and shield you from the view of the one way mirror, "It's bad enough everyone on the other side gets to look at you."
You feel a bit of pride regardless, "But we did it, you controlled yourself again, we could work on this." You nuzzled closer. In a few moments a team of doctors would come in and take off the rest of his restraints, would physically check in on both of you, but you didn't care. Right now he was rocking you both, soft breaths stirring your hair and his fingers rubbing circles on your shoulders.
Vincent wasn't broken, just twisted and mangled. That didn't mean he couldn't enjoy what life had to offer, he just had to work through it. You would be there every step of the way.
Tags: cunnilingus f!recieving fingering public sex
Pairing: Vincent Valentine x Reader
Summary: After another month of pining and coming to terms with the fact that he will always be the one to hurt you, Vincent decides to slip a note under your pillow and escape in the night. He would get his revenge alone and then close himself off from the world as he originally planned. You find him twisting the ideas around in his mind as if he wants you to catch him. Read these for context as it's a part of a miny series: Where Desire Slumbers, A Dawn's Resolve, Eclipsed affections.
Notes: A little messy, but I wanted to give you a ramble I've had for a while about the first sexual experience between Vincent and our beloved indulgent reader. I'm not sure if I wrote him correctly, and I know I flipped through the povs back and forth. If you want a music recommendation, I listened to Cherry by Lana Del Ray and Cry by Cigarettes After Sex while writing this. Thank you for all your support!
re: edit there were so many typos and rushed sentences with no punctuation so I rewrote practically everything. I had my friend proof read it this time ;w; i've spent another 12 hours on this, nothing has changed just sentences are broken up better and not stacked like giant texts of the bible since someone said it was hard to read that way for them. Sorry about that!
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The night stretches vast and endless above, its stars pulsing in quiet rhythm—dancing without ever moving. A crisp autumn breeze stirs your hair, carrying the scent of fallen leaves and the distant hush of a sleeping town. Your bare feet patter against the cobblestone, each step pressing into the rough, cool stone, a silent reminder that you could turn back and slip beneath your cold sheets and pretend this restlessness never stirred you.
But you don’t.
You don’t know why you thought you’d find him here, beneath the waning moon, in the hush of a world on the edge of dreaming. The streetlamps flicker, their glow dimming to a somber amber, no longer fighting the darkness. You had rushed from the inn the moment you woke, a strange unease settling deep in your bones, as if something was slipping through your fingers, something you weren’t meant to miss.
The note in your hand is a crumpled mess; creased, smoothed out, then tortured all over again beneath restless fingers. Frustration coils in your chest, your thoughts seesawing between the hollow comfort of ignorance and the sharp bite of truth. You grit your teeth, biting your tongue so hard that the taste of copper lingers on your lips.
The ink, scrawled in a hand too familiar, cuts deeper than the jagged cracks of the cement beneath you. No matter how many times you crush the paper in your grip, the words refuse to disappear.
This is where I belong. Forget me.
Your teeth clench, tension locking your jaw as your eyes sting, heavy with unfallen tears. As you walk toward the back of the inn where you and the party stayed, his shadow appears before his form fully emerges beneath the moon’s glow.
He sits on the fountain steps, head tilted back, staring at the stars.
Cool grass cushions your bare feet, each blade brushing against your skin, gentle but insistent, as if urging you forward. You already know he heard you long before you rounded the corner. By the time you step into view, his gaze is already on you. His eyes tighten slightly, not quite surprised, but in recognition.
Your tongue felt heavy, thick with words you weren’t sure how to say. After everything that had passed between you, the silence felt heavier than ever.
You had built something with him. It was something quiet, something unspoken. Nights spent on watch together beneath these very stars had fostered a closeness that needed no words. Your conversations were held in glances, intimate, in the way his shoulder would shift just slightly, inviting you to rest against him. A slow blink of his eyes was permission to inch closer, to let the space between you shrink.
You had thought, maybe, you were growing close. Maybe, you understood him in ways others didn’t.
Vincent was like a cat in some ways, distant yet watchful, his presence steady but reserved. Yet when he let you in, he did so completely. It was in his gaze, the way it softened with vulnerability at times when he looked at you, the quiet warmth that lived there despite his guarded nature. And in those moments, when his walls lowered just enough for you to see inside, you found it hard to breathe.
The thought of these moments slipping away was unraveling your patience, dissolving the restraint you had clung to for so long. How many times had you wanted to pull him down to you, his sharp features inches from yours—clumsily, perhaps, but with a longing that would speak for itself in the hurried whispers of your lips? How often had you imagined holding him beneath the warmth of the sun, grasping his hand mid-mission as you wandered through deserts, forests, towns…?
He was everything you wanted, and you had laid it before him, clear as water. He may have been the one who locked himself away for thirty years, but you were the one left parched, thirsting for even the gentlest reminder of his touch. Your pulse had never forgotten. It still beat with the memory of that evening on the beach, the way he had held you close—closer than he ever had before, closer than he ever had since. He hadn't touched you that way again, but he never truly pushed you away either.
Yet you knew.
There was something he wouldn’t tell you, something heavy, something awful that kept him trapped in his silence. It lingered in his distance, in the way he lost himself in thought. And though he never said a word, his gaze always betrayed him—longing for something, for someone he couldn’t find in you.
You remember the first time you caught him fiddling with the brooch. A simple piece—white gold wrapped delicately around a worn moonstone, dulled by time and wear. His clawed fingers turned it over absently, tracing the edges as if smoothing away the years. It looked fragile in his grip, yet something about the way he held it told you it wasn’t.
Without thinking, you motioned for him to follow. He raised an eyebrow at you, his expression unreadable but clearly questioning your intent. What business did you have leading him toward the storage closet? The realization of what it must have looked like struck you immediately, heat creeping up your neck as you fumbled with the door and yanked him inside by the edge of his cloak.
If he had wanted to resist, he could have. He was immeasurably stronger than you, yet he let you maneuver him without so much as a word. That alone made your stomach twist, warmth pooling somewhere in your chest.
"Vin, light, please." Your voice was steady, but in the darkness, you were grateful he couldn’t see the way your eyes traced his silhouette.
You couldn’t make out much, but the broad curve of his hips as he shifted his weight from one leg to the other was etched into your memory.
A quiet hum of acknowledgment rumbled from him before he reached for the dangling cord, tugging it down with an effortless flick of his wrist. A dim yellow glow flickered to life, painting the small space in soft, wavering light. Shadows stretched along the walls, wrapping around the two of you like something almost tangible.
You held out your hand expectantly.
Vincent hesitated for a fraction of a second before wordlessly dropping the brooch into your palm. His crimson eyes flickered with something you couldn’t quite place—mild curiosity, perhaps, or maybe something softer. He watched in silence as you rummaged through a nearby box, fingers brushing past cold metal and glass vials until you found what you were looking for. You’d spent enough nights helping Cid polish rusted parts that you could find the right solutions in the dark.
With a quiet exhale, you pushed a few boxes aside, clearing a space just big enough for the two of you to sit. The closet was small, too small, and yet Vincent settled across from you without a word.
Your legs brushed first—just the lightest graze of your foot against his leather-clad calf. He didn’t move away. His other knee bent, resting just beside yours, framing you in a way that made your breath hitch.
Still, neither of you spoke.
Instead, Vincent watched, gaze intent, as your pale fingers soaked the cloth in the strong-smelling liquid. It was an unspoken challenge—one you knew he would intervene in the moment he thought you were being careless. His silent scrutiny was its own form of protection, his way of being present without interfering.
You gave him a reassuring smile. "I'll be gentle, promise."
His brows furrowed slightly. He didn’t understand—of course he didn’t.
With an exasperated sigh, you reached forward and took his hand, carefully wrapping his gloved pinky around yours. His fingers twitched slightly at the contact, but he didn’t pull away. Then, pressing your thumbs together, you held the lock.
"This is a promise, locked, okay?" You grinned at him. "Vincent, if you didn’t look so young, I’d swear you were sixty-eight."
For a moment, there was nothing. Then, a sound deep, low, and soft. A quiet, half-chuckle, barely there but unmistakable. The warmth of it settled deep in your ribs, spreading through your chest like firelight on cold hands.
The two of you stayed like that for the rest of the evening, tucked away in the maintenance closet, breaths nearly mingling in the close air. You worked the polish over the brooch until your fingers ached, the dull gold brightening beneath your touch. It would never be perfect—the scratches were too deep, the years too long—but when you held it up to the light, the stone gleamed once more.
That was when you noticed it.
A faint engraving on the back, previously hidden beneath the tarnish. Your eyes traced the delicate etching, lips parting before you even realized you were speaking.
"Lucrecia Crescent."
The name slipped past your lips in a whisper, barely more than breath.
Across from you, Vincent inhaled sharply.
You looked up just in time to catch the shift in his expression. His face didn’t change much, but you could see it in his eyes—the flicker of something raw, something fragile, before he carefully schooled his features once more. He reached forward, fingers steady but slow, and plucked the brooch from your hands.
Without a word, he tucked it back beneath his garments, hiding it away.
His gaze met yours, and for the first time that night, you saw something there. Uncertainty. Worry. Maybe even fear.
You swallowed down the lump in your throat. "I won’t ask."
Vincent’s eyes flickered, searching your face. Whatever he found there, it must have eased him, because his shoulders relaxed just slightly.
"Thank you."
It felt like he was thanking you for more than just your silence.
When you finally stood to leave, you nearly tripped over the boxes you had pushed aside, your foot catching on something behind you. Vincent’s hands found your hips, steadying you before you could collide with his chest. The heat of his touch, even through the fabric, sent a shiver up your spine.
Your face burned.
Without another word, you stumbled out of the closet and down the hall, the sound of Vincent’s measured steps following close behind. The faint click of his boots against the floor was the only proof that any of it had happened at all.
The cool night air pulled you from your thoughts, but the embers of your anger only burned brighter when you noticed his hands fiddling with the same brooch. His fingers ghosted over the edges, as if testing the worn metal, as if weighing its significance all over again.
Your grip tightened around the paper in your palm, the crumpled note that had shattered the fragile quiet between you. He must have heard the rustle, because his shoulders rose with a deep, weary sigh.
You took a step closer. Then another.
Your emotions, always uncontainable, spilled over as your eyes blurred with tears. You had never been good at swallowing them back, not like he was. You felt everything too much, too fast, too completely. It overwhelmed you, made you ache in ways you didn’t know how to temper.
"Why?"
The word trembled from your lips, barely holding its shape. Your fingers clenched around the note like it was your last tether to him, like if you let it go, he’d disappear entirely.
Vincent’s expression was unreadable, but there was something in the way his gaze softened, a flicker of something regretful. He hadn’t wanted you to find the note so soon. Or maybe he hadn’t wanted to leave it at all. He watched you, eyes catching the tear-streaked path down your cheek, but he didn’t move from where he stood.
"I'll always hurt you. There's no life to be had with me."
His voice carried over the space between you, rough and quiet, like he had already convinced himself of the truth in those words.
You could see it now, the things he wouldn’t say aloud. He would never give you children, maybe he was incapable of it, maybe he simply wouldn’t try. He didn’t have the heart to offer you a peaceful life, not the kind you deserved. He wasn’t going to settle down in some quiet town, wasn’t going to live in a house with a white picket fence.
He wasn't allowed.
The atonement was the only thing that made sense to him anymore. The blood, the fight, the ache, it was the only thing that stopped his mind from spiraling into a cacophony of cruel voices.
Your chest heaved as your grip on the note loosened. It fell, fluttering to the grass.
"And you get to make that choice on your own?"
Your voice cracked, but it didn’t break. The fury burning in your chest held it together.
"What about what I want?"
Vincent stiffened at the force of your words, his crimson gaze flickering with something new. It wasn't just sorrow, but surprise. He had expected your grief, your resignation, maybe even your regret. He hadn’t expected your fire, the way your anger crackled in the air between you.
You took another step forward, closing the distance. Heat radiated off your skin, a stark contrast to his own cold resolve.
Vincent barely had time to process it before you were towering over him, for once. He had to tip his head back slightly as you climbed the stairs above him, your form framed against the dim glow of the streetlamps.
His breath caught just slightly.
Your legs were bare, skin kissed by the soft golden light, and though he knew this wasn’t the time, his gaze betrayed him. It always did.
His eyes traced the line of your figure before snapping back to your face, catching the sharp rise and fall of your chest. The frustration rolling off you was palpable, and yet—
You were stunning.
You had always been stunning.
And that made all of this so much harder.
"Don't," he said, voice low, a warning that carried more weight than anger. The sound reverberated through him, steady but frayed at the edges.
But you didn’t stop.
"No, you don’t!" Your voice wavered as you scrubbed at your eyes, hands trembling against your cheeks. "I don’t care if you leave sometimes… but you can’t leave forever. Don’t go where I can’t follow."
Your breath came quick and uneven as you searched his face, hoping—pleading—to find even a small fracture in his cold resolve.
For a moment, something flickered in his gaze. A hesitation, barely there.
Then, as if retreating into himself, Vincent lowered his eyes to the brooch in his hand. His fingers brushed over it again and again, tracing the engraving as if memorizing something he had long since committed to heart. It was a habit, a ritual, one he repeated so often that you wondered if he even realized he was doing it.
"Precious things always wilt in my grasp," he murmured. "You're no different."
The words carried the weight of inevitability, as if he had already mourned you before you were even gone. As if he believed time itself would erode whatever it was you shared, leaving nothing but another memory to haunt him.
You swallowed hard. "That’s not true."
But he didn’t answer.
"I meant what I said. Forget about me." His voice was quieter now, but the certainty in it stung worse than if he had shouted. He glanced at you once, almost like he was bracing for the impact of his own words. Then his gaze broke away, darting to the ground, the fountain, anywhere but you.
Before you could move, before you could reach for him, Vincent stood. His movements were fluid, practiced, pushing you aside without effort but without force.
Then, without ceremony, he tossed the brooch into the fountain.
The sound of it hitting the water was small but sharp, sending ripples across the surface. The splash jolted through you, your breath catching as though the cold had touched your skin instead.
Vincent turned before the last ripple had even faded.
Without looking back, he stepped down from the stone ledge, cloak sweeping behind him as he descended onto solid ground. His walk was smooth, almost too composed, but there was something about the way his coat billowed behind him that felt final.
He was heading toward the treeline.
The woods would be an inconvenient pass, dense and uneven. But that was the point. In your state—bare legs, thin clothing—you wouldn’t be able to follow.
Vincent knew if he turned, if he saw the tear-streaked devastation on your face, his resolve might crack. His jaw tightened as he forced himself forward, steps slow but unwavering.
"Vincent Valentine, you absolute… i-idiot!"
Your voice rang out behind him, raw and trembling, cutting through the night like a blade. His stride faltered. The rustling of fabric followed, and instinctively, he turned his head—expecting to see you running after him, desperate for one final plea.
But what he saw instead made his breath catch.
You stood beneath the moonlight, lifting your shirt over your head, your hair catching in the neckline before you yanked it free. Then, with swift, determined fingers, you hooked into the waist of your shorts and pushed them down. Vincent's chest seized.
His gaze dragged over you before he could stop himself, taking in the sight of your bare legs, the way your linen chemise clung to your form. It was shorter than he imagined- shorter than in the fantasies he tried to convince himself weren't that indulgent.
His throat tightened, but the moment your teary eyes pierced into him, his gaze snapped up. You wiped at your face, your expression hardened, then turned away.
Without another word, you stepped into the fountain.
Vincent remained frozen, his mind struggling to catch up with your actions. You didn’t hesitate. You slipped beneath the water's surface, vanishing in an instant.
His stomach dropped.
His breath quickened as he strode forward, steps quick and heavy, his chest rising and falling harder than before. But just as he neared the edge, you emerged, breaking the surface in a rush of air and droplets.
The moment stilled and he would keep it in his memory until the day he drew one last taste of air.
You hoisted yourself up onto the stone steps, water cascading down your body in gleaming rivulets. Vincent stopped in his tracks. He could barely breathe.
You were soaked through.
Your white chemise clung obscenely to your skin, transparent where it lay flush against you. Your heaving chest, your rose-tipped nipples peeking through damp fabric, the water trailing over the delicate lines of your ribs, your stomach, pooling down the curve of your thighs—
Exquisite.
Vincent couldn’t move. He couldn’t think. His hunger hit him like a sudden storm, curling in his gut, thick and heavy, so tangible it ached. It pulsed in his throat, in his hands, in the places he had forced himself to ignore for too long.
Because hell, how long had he denied this?
How many nights had he stood under cold running water, his palm wrapped around himself, teeth gritted, your face filling the spaces in his mind? How many times had he swallowed down the need, convinced himself that this desire was something he could control?
But now, standing before you like this, seeing the heat in your eyes, the way you clutched the brooch against your chest—
He was starving.
And you were divine.
Your nipples, so often imagined in his mind, now stood in stark reality beneath his gaze, peeking shyly through the damp, clinging linen. His breath caught, his chest rising too fast, too sharp.
Your face was flushed, burning beneath the weight of his stare. Your arm moved instinctively to shield yourself, but even then, you lifted your chin in defiance. As if daring him to look. As if testing his restraint.
He could feel it, the slow, inexorable crumble of the walls he had spent decades fortifying. Self-restraint be damned. He had spent too long denying himself, denying you.
If you wanted to use him, then let it be so. His body, this body that had felt too much pain, too much weight, too many scars of the past was yours if you wished to take it. He had been a fool to pretend otherwise, a coward for running from the inevitable.
Selfish. Greedy. Unworthy.
He would let himself be all of those things for you even if it tore open old wounds.
He feared how willing he was how, if you asked it, he would pluck the moon from the sky and place it in your hands. If you whispered for vengeance, he would spill blood at your feet. If you asked for a crown, he would slay angels to bring you their feathers.
If anyone dared lay a hand on you in malice, he would tear out their throat with his teeth. He would only stop if you commanded it. Almost akin to ordering a hound.
The last time he had felt this, he had lost everything. He had watched the woman he loved die, had let it happen. He had told himself, never again. He didn’t deserve to feel this way again. And yet, here you were, undoing him with kindness.
A slow, creeping, aching torture that seeped into his very marrow, turning him starved and desperate. It was scary how you could undo him so easily with your words, your temper, your body.
As if entranced, Vincent moved.
He climbed the steps, slow and deliberate, his crimson eyes locked onto yours. When he reached you, his hand lifted, fingers curling firmly but gently around your wrist.
You tensed, your breath hitching as he pulled your arm away from your chest, no longer letting you hide. But he didn’t just look—he sheltered you with the bulk of his body blocking the cool night air from touching your skin.
Your cheeks flushed deeper, a small, startled sound escaping you. A protest? A plea?
Vincent brought your wrist to his mouth, his lips brushing against the damp skin, soft and reverent. The heat of his breath sent a shiver through you, the contrast between warmth and the cool air almost dizzying.
He kissed his way down the delicate line of your arm, slow and thorough, as if apologizing for every unspoken word, every wound he had left on your heart.
Your breath stilled as he lingered at your wrist. His tongue flicked out, warm and teasing, tasting the beads of water clinging to your skin.
And in that moment, as he devoured you with his eyes, you realized,
You would let him get away with anything.
If only he kept looking at you like that, like you were his.
Only his.
"You can't just leave her b-behind," you stammered, your voice unsteady, both from nerves and the biting chill that Vincent's cloak could only shield so much. "You can leave me behind, but don't... don't leave her when she's so important to you." The last words stuck in your throat, thick with something unnamed.
A tear slipped down your cheek as your gaze dropped to his chest. You couldn’t meet his eyes anymore, couldn’t let him see the jealousy, the insecurity gnawing at you. You knew—this woman, the one his jewelry belonged to, he must have adored her. You had spent so many nights watching him stroke the space to the left of his heart, fingers brushing over the hidden keepsake, as if reassuring himself that it was still there.
You wanted to be the one who grounded him. You wanted to pull him from the tides of self-inflicted guilt, to anchor him here, with you. But if it was her memory that kept him whole, even in the smallest way, who were you to compare?
Even as your thoughts tangled, Vincent pressed forward, his steps deliberate, urging you back. The cold kiss of water met your skin before you realized it, your feet sinking into the fountain, the surface rippling up to your hips as he followed. He didn’t stop until your back met the cool stone of the sculpture, the carved woman standing behind you, her vase endlessly pouring water in the opposite direction, as if turning away from the two of you.
The lily pads and algae drifted apart around your bodies, disturbed by movement, a quiet acknowledgment of change.
A soft click echoed through the air. Then a splash.
Vincent's gauntlet hit the water, sinking beneath the surface, ripples stretching outward.
"She's a ghost," he murmured, his voice like velvet unraveling. There was no hesitation, no retreat—just him sinking to his knees before you, his hands settling at your hips, fingers warm against your skin.
Your breath caught.
"But—"
"You'll ruin me." His voice was raw, breaking at the edges, his hand tightening in the fabric of your soaked chemise. "Fuck—"clearly lost in how close you were, disregarding your concern of his past unrequited love.
It was the first time you had heard him swear. The way the word left his lips, a rasp dripping with want, sent a shiver down your spine. He was unraveling because of you. His fingers tangled in the wet fabric at your thighs, gripping it like he needed something to cling to, like you were the only thing holding him in place.
Your heart pounded, legs trembling as his hands traced over the pale expanse of your skin, slow, reverent. He knelt there, worshipping you with his touch, his mouth hovering just above your navel, the heat of his breath making your skin prickle.
You clutched the brooch so tightly that the metal bit into your palm.
"Stay," you whispered, pleaded, demanded, prayed. Your fingers tangled into his hair, gripping, pulling, needing.
Something in him fractured.
Vincent shrugged off his cloak in a single movement, tossing it over the fountain’s edge. The moonlight traced along the sharp lines of his shoulders, his chest narrowing into the water’s depths, his throat exposed to you. His lips parted slightly, his breath uneven. He was yours to observe, yours to claim.
And he let you.
All thoughts of leaving seemed to dissolve from his mind, because his grip on your waist tightened, his arms drawing you to him as he buried his face against your stomach. Your hands fisted in his hair as his lips pressed against the soaked fabric, mouth feverish, hungry. His teeth scraped against the linen, tugging, tasting. Desperate.
"Vincent—" you whined, but your hands still pulled him closer, fingers twisting in his hair as his gloved hands continued their slow exploration of your legs.
Anyone could step outside. The back garden only hid so much. But the thought of it—the risk—only made your pulse race faster.
Vincent pulled away from tracing the soft planes of your stomach, his breath warm against your skin. "If that's what you want… I won't try again."
"Promise," you whispered, though even you weren’t sure if you meant it.
His hand came up to yours, gently prying the brooch from your fingers and setting it onto the lip of the fountain’s edge. Then he used his teeth to tug off his glove, revealing the pale skin beneath, almost translucent barely luminescent under the moons light, veins faintly visible beneath the surface.
When he interlaced his bare fingers with yours, slowly and intentionally.
"I promise," he murmured. His crimson gaze flicked up to yours, then back down to where your hands fit together. His grip tightened at your hip, his voice rough with need. "I need you… need to worship you. But if you don’t want this—any of it—I’ll stop."
The certainty in his voice eased the tension in your body, but the heat in his eyes left you trembling, your arousal slick between your thighs, mixing with the water.
You nodded, breathless, then gave him the words too. "I won’t tell you to stop."
Vincent exhaled, something like relief slipping past his lips as his grip shifted. Your fingers tangled deeper into his raven hair, steadying you.
"We’ll see," he murmured, his breath ghosting over the inside of your thigh. His lips found purchase just above your knee, his bare hand sliding along your calf, lifting it from the water, resting it over his shoulder to expose you where he needed you. You were already soaked from water, but there was a lingering dark path along your lavender panties that made his throat tighten. Your toes barely grazed his back, and as he sank lower, his mouth following the path of his hands.
You shivered, sinking further into him, his hands trembling over your form, into this
Your stomach dropped. He was insatiable.
Vincent’s slender fingers hooked into the waistband of your panties, tugging them down with deliberate ease even reaching behind his head to pull it down over your foot. Dusky lavender, he had complimented the color on you once before when you wore a similar sweater.
He wasn’t a man of many words, but his mouth was far from inexperienced. He knew exactly where to graze his teeth, where to savor the tremble in your breath. The ends of his fingers coaxed your hips to relax, guiding you toward the warmth of his breath. Every exhale that ghosted against your skin was followed by lips and tongue feverishly tasting your body.
When he finally settled between your thighs, his gaze flicked up, inky lashes framing eyes that burned into you.
That look alone could ruin you. You realized in this moment you would never deny him and he would never deny you.
You surrendered completely, already pleading.
"Vincent… please… hah… no teasing."
Your neediness didn’t go unnoticed. His mouth descended, tongue sliding through your folds, savoring the taste of you with an approving hum. He licked into you languidly, as if he had been starving for you, ready to drown in your release.
His fingers dug into your hips, sure to leave bruises, anchoring you to him. You didn’t want him to let up. Your hips rocked into his mouth, your leg bouncing against his shoulder, toes curling every time he sucked your swollen clit into the heat of his mouth before letting it go with a soft pop.
The contrast of the cool water against his feverish tongue sent shocks through your core. Your release was already building—too fast, too much.
You weren’t a virgin, far from it. You had been with men who promised, I’ll make it up to you next time, as they left you aching, unfulfilled. You had never asked for this before. You hadn’t thought a man would want it, would yearn so badly for a taste of you.
But here, beneath the vast expanse of stars, you understood pleasure. And the man giving it to you would never leave you wanting.
His tongue circled your entrance, your name tumbling from your lips in gasps. His fingers massaged your thighs, slow, teasing. He was bringing you back out of the throws of your mind, into the moment with him. You wanted them inside, needed him to fill you as you were clenching around nothing, empty.
"Vin… I… I need it…" You whimpered, grinding into his chin, shameless in your desperation.
He groaned against your skin. "Anything. Tell me."
His voice was heavy, thick with need. He had dreamed of hearing you like this of you begging for him. He shuddered when your fingers tugged at his hair again, his scalp stinging, but he loved it.
"Your fingers…" you murmured, shyly. So cute.
His lips twitched, a ghost of a smirk playing there before he dipped his head back down, teasing your entrance with his tongue as his fingers traced over your slick folds. He wasn’t in a rush, he wanted to savor the way your body responded to him maybe commit it to memory for when he was alone with his thoughts.
When he finally sank a single finger inside, your world tilted. The stars above seemed closer, or maybe it was just the way he was pulling you apart. He worked you open slowly, despite your eager pleas for more. Another digit slipped in, curling, pressing into that spot that made your whole body jolt. He was so deliberate with the scissoring motion inside, brushing against your walls so well. You'd thank whoever got him into working with guns, because fuck was that trigger finger absolutely wrecking you at this moment.
His lips latched onto your clit again, tongue circling so thoroughly, so expertly that your slick coated his hand, your thigh trembling on one side of his head.
Your breaths grew heavier, muscles clenching around his fingers. Your mouth parted, curses spilling freely as you tried to muffle your cries behind your wrist. You had waited months for this—for him to touch you like this—and now you were falling apart too fast.
Vincent groaned at the sound of your pleasure, the need in your voice. He needed more of it, more of you. It took everything in him not to let you remove his belts with that look in your eyes, as if you were already fucking him in your mind.
"Bite me," you gasped. "Please, please—ah—" You requested so insistently as you caught a glimpse of those sharp teeth hiding behind his perfect lips. Your hands fisted in his hair, urging him closer. Tears pricked your eyes, overwhelmed by how good he was making you feel, how completely he was consuming you.
How could he deny you?
A low growl rumbled from his chest. His mouth found your hip, lips parting wide before his teeth sank into the soft flesh above the bone. His fingers thrust deeper, curling, twisting, fucking you open as you pulsed and clenched around him. His bite was firm, not enough to break skin, but enough to make you shudder. His tongue soothed the mark after, sucking at it as if imprinting himself onto you.
You keened, pleading for more, and he obeyed.
He trailed bite after bite, leaving bruises across your hip, up your stomach, his lips pressing reverent kisses over each one. He lingered just beneath your breast, hungry and fevered, his body rising with yours as he pushed up onto his knees. You tilted your chest into him, offering yourself.
Vincent's hands trembled as they slid over your curves, cupping your breast, kneading, pinching. His mouth found the stiff peak of your nipple, pulling it taut between his lips, tongue flicking as he moaned against you.
You tasted like rainwater and coconut balm.
His fingers teased your other breast, rolling it between his leather clad hand. Each gasp, each moan, each sweet, desperate sound made his pulse pound harder, his cock straining against the soaked leather of his pants.
"I'm gonna… don't stop… so good… your mouth—mmh."
Your words were a drug. He groaned against your skin, hips jerking involuntarily with nothing to grind into. He wouldn’t touch himself, not yet, not when he had you falling apart in his hands.
He wanted this moment. He wanted to feel you come undone.
With a trail of kisses to your navel, he whispered, "Let go for me."
His fingers plunged deeper, fucking into you at the rhythm of your pulse, coaxing you higher, higher—until you shattered.
Your climax crashed over you, your hips rocking erratically as his name tore from your throat. Your trembling hands muffled your cries, teeth biting into your wrist to keep yourself from screaming.
Vincent didn’t stop—wouldn’t stop—until your body was completely spent, your slick coating his fingers, dripping into the water. Only then did he slow, guiding you down, letting you ride out your release on his hand. His lips pressed one last kiss against your arousal, letting his tongue taste his reward with a moan. He lapped you up, stroking a broad stripe of his tongue across your folds. You tasted absolutely delicious, his favorite kind of bitter and sweet.
Gently he lowered your leg letting you settle against him. A dull ache formed between your hips, but the way Vincent touched you now which was so soft, so sweet, made it feel like nothing at all. He kissed up your stomach, up your ribs, up the bruising havoc he had left behind. A part of him was satisfied, but the rational part of him was disappointed in his lack of self restraint. Your hands slipped from his hair, fingers framing his face as he lifted himself to meet your gaze. His chin and mouth were glistening from your slick, like you marked him too. His dark crimson eyes burning with a lot of different emotions. Fear, lust, longing, relief, shame- but most of all-
Devoted. Utterly, irrevocably devoted to you.
"Thank you," You whispered, hoping he would understand you meant for more than bringing you to the pearly gates of heaven itself.
Your fingers slid beneath his jaw, brushing the tip of his ear as you cupped his face. Your breath hitched as you watched him lick your arousal from his lips, from his fingers, methodical and unbothered by shyness. His flushed face, his lidded gaze, he was wrecked, but he still looked at you like he wanted more.
That gave you the in you needed. You leaned in, and so did he, your lips meeting in a slow, tender kiss. You guided the kiss, parting and pressing your lips together again, tasting the salt and musk of yourself on his tongue as you licked inside his mouth. He let you explore, his hands settling at your lower back, thumbs rubbing slow circles into your muscles as you sighed into him. He was so tall compared to you even on his knees and it sent a thrill down your spine. His hands could splay easily around your waist, hips, back. You felt coveted.
His lips were everything you had imagined—soft, warm, chapped in places but perfect between your teeth. When his own scraped against your tongue, a new spark ignited in your veins, rekindling your excitement. You pushed impossibly closer, hardened nipples grazing the leather of his chest, hips pressing against his, his erection prominent beneath the layers of clothing and belts.
You wanted to drop to your knees, to worship him too. But his hands held you firm. He wasn’t letting you move an inch.
You didn’t know who pulled away first for breath, only that as he rose to his feet, you clung to him, a sudden fear creeping in, a fear that he would forget your newfound promise.
But instead, Vincent knocked your legs out from under you with his forearm, catching you effortlessly against his chest. Your arms tightened around his shoulders, the water sloshing at his knees as he carried you toward the edge of the fountain.
"I didn’t give you anything," you murmured, your pout betraying your worry. You didn’t want this to be one-sided. You didn’t want to use him.
He barely paused as he stepped out of the water, carrying you with ease. "It’s fine," he murmured. "You’ve given enough."
There was a hesitation, barely a flicker, before his lips pressed softly to your head. You felt him inhale deeply before straightening again, adjusting you in his hold as he reached out, slinging his wet cloak over his shoulder.
The brooch lay on the stone’s edge, caught between his fingers. For a moment, he looked at it, as if debating whether to toss it back into the water—or keep it.
You answered the question in his eyes with a soft smile. Your hand moved to his, fingers curling over his where they held the brooch, and you clenched his fingers around it.
It was enough.
He could remember his past love. Remember who he was. You would never ask him to give that up. It made him the man you desired right now. You knew, in some way, that you could accept this ghost of his past. And you wouldn’t let a memory stop you from your pursuit of his heart.
As he carried you back toward the inn, you asked again, just needing to hear it one more time.
"You’ll stay… right?"
Vincent’s voice was velvet, rich in your ears. "I’ll stay."
In the stretching silence save for the sound of his walk and wet leather, you decided to say what you needed to while you still had a strum of bravado in you.
"I like you," you blurted out, chest tightening the moment the words left your mouth.
Vincent’s lips quirked into that charming, maddening half-smile.
"Oh?" His skin flushed at your admission, but instead of answering right away, he brushed a strand of hair from your cheek, an affectionate, unhurried gesture. He didn’t know if he was ready to name the feeling in his chest, but he could accept yours. Slowly if you would put up with it.
"You make it very clear—"
Your mouth fell open. He was teasing you.
Heat flared across your face, even down your neck. Had he noticed? The way you grumbled every time other women giggled at the mere sight of him? The way your eyes lingered when he walked past, hips swaying just enough to drive you crazy?
"I-I do not…" you tried to refute, but he only laughed. A soft, low sound that sent warmth straight through you.
"Mm." He pretended to agree, setting you down gently as you reached the front entrance of the inn. You were chilled to the bone, your body still sticky, exhaustion settling in from the night’s activities. Vincent looked entirely too smug as you wobbled slightly on your feet, and before you could recover, he pushed the door open.
The pub was quiet, lit only by a single candle on the bar. No one awake except for Cid, hunched over with a bottle in hand.
You immediately wanted to run past in embarrassment, pressing closer to Vincent. How were you going to hide your practically naked form?
He sighed, fingers lacing with yours as he pulled you behind him to give you some shred of decency, already dreading Cid’s brashness. But luck wasn’t on your side. The old man turned, grinning far too wide the moment he saw you both.
"Finally put an end to your lovers’ quarrel, huh?" Cid hooted, lifting his bottle. "’Bout damn time! Tired of watchin’ you two eye-fuck each other across the damn plane."
You buried your burning face against the middle of Vincent’s back with a groan.
"And it’s bad enough with those three," he jerked a thumb toward the hallway and set of stairs, letting out a loud laugh implying that you were as bad as Cloud, Tifa, and Aerith. That trifecta was incredibly entertaining, but annoying to witness at the same time.
Vincent sighed again, long and suffering, his thumb rubbing against your knuckles in warning before pulling you past the drunkard and toward the stairs trying to cover you but it was hard without the bulk of his cloak around him. He was quite a slender man towards his waist and hips, not quite built like a soldier, but rather like a turk. All lean and sinewy for quick attacks.
"Don’t forget, these walls are real thin!" Cid hollered after you with a chortle.
Vincent didn’t stop, dragging you down the hall before the embarrassment could suffocate you. You had never been more grateful for the quiet of the upstairs corridor. Four doors lined the hallway. Yours was at the very end, and Vincent’s which you were standing in front of it now. He had never willed himself to knock on your door before. Not even when he had slipped that note beneath your pillow in the dead of night. It still annoyed him that you never locked it, who were you hoping to meet in there? Was it him?
"I’m so tired," you mumbled, nudging his door open before he could suggest otherwise. "I’ll berate that bastard tomorrow."
The door clicked shut behind the both of you, and before he could process the moment, you were stripping. His eyes tracked the movement, the flex of your muscles as you worked the soaked fabric over your head.
Heat flared low in his stomach. Hard again. Behamaut save him.
Images flickered through his mind in rapid succession, your face pressed into his pillows, your lips wrapped around him, your hands gripping his hips as he took you for the first time in languid strokes. Your tongues exploring each other, his hands guiding your hips astride him, your fingers controlling his hair as his mouth performed his prayer...
His restraint wavered, were his knees about to become familiar with every inn floor in the future? A new religion blossoming between the apex of your thighs.
You snapped him out of it with a simple, innocent question. "Do you have anything I can wear?" your arms covering across your chest.
Vincent cleared his throat, shaking off the fantasy.
"Uh." He coughed, lowering his chin slightly, an old habit from when he could hide behind his crimson cowl. Right. Clothes.
He turned away, rummaging through his drawer until he found a tight compression shirt and a pair of his usual black briefs. Tossing them in your direction, he didn’t miss the mischievous smirk playing on your lips when you motioned for him to turn around with a twirl of your finger.
He complied.
The shuffling of fabric behind him tested his patience, especially when your scent lingered in the air, still warm, still intoxicating. He just busied his hands on hanging his wet cloak up on the dresser, hopefully by tomorrow it would dry out.
Then, your hands slid around his waist.
"You should change too," you murmured, lips pressing against the damp leather of his shoulder. Vincent turned to face you, tilting your chin up.
The air between you thickened. His greedy mouth claimed yours again, unable to help himself, hands trailing down your back. The compression shirt he had given you hung low at your hips, but it was tight at your chest, the fabric stretching where your breasts filled it out. He was definitely still a man underneath all of his armor.
You gasped his name, pressing into him, and he was unraveling all over again. His self-control frayed at the edges, his hands aching to rip that shirt off you again. Or maybe you could keep it on while he-
With a low groan, he forced himself to pull away, even though it pained him to do so. He knew you were tired, didn't want to increase the intimacy ten fold in one night when he had been on the verge of disappearing entirely.
Slow down. He told himself.
"Get comfortable," he murmured, motioning toward the bed.
Then, he turned away, undoing the buttons of his vest, but keeping himself out of your sight.
Vincent grabbed a bundle of fresh clothes and slipped into the tiny washroom, barely large enough to turn around in. He pulled them on quickly, not bothering to glance at himself. He wouldn’t ruin the night by standing there, picking himself apart. He just wanted to get back to you, sink into the covers, and fall asleep.
He wouldn’t leave again. Not if it meant seeing you cry like that.
The image of you charging through the grass, his crumpled note clenched in your fist, tear-streaked and furious, nearly brought him to his knees even now. He had made you sob, shake, scream at him. He figured he’d be making it up to you for a long time.
Stepping back into the room, he hesitated, spotting you curled up on his bed, face half-buried in his pillow. Something stirred, deep and unfamiliar.
He had never had someone sleep in his arms before. Not like this.
Sure, he had fucked before. Back when the human part of him still craved warmth, still sought out pleasure in tangled blankets and breathless gasps. But even then, his thoughts had been elsewhere. His body gave, but his heart remained locked behind bars.
But tonight?
His thoughts were only of you.
You had overtaken him completely, and he knew now—it would never be anyone else.
His feet felt too heavy as he neared the bed, as if something about this was too intimate, too real. His body wasn’t used to this kind of closeness, not after years of solitude. But you were already there, already taking up space in his life in a way that terrified him.
Carefully, stiffly, he slid under the blankets, trying not to disturb you too much. He hesitated, unsure where to place himself. His body felt too big, too cold, too unnatural for this.
Then, as if sensing his awkwardness, you shifted. Pressed your back into his chest- Sought him out.
Vincent exhaled sharply. His arm moved on instinct, resting over your waist. His fingers twitched, as if debating whether to hold you tighter. Unrelenting, he thought of his own greed, but he didn’t move away. You nuzzled into his pillow with a sleepy sigh and he felt like you wormed your way into his chest with that adorable hitch in your rhythmic breathing. He'd much rather just watch you sleep, he didn't truly need slumber at all. It did nothing for him most of the time, not like it once had.
You were so warm though. Inviting him to rest his weary self with you and something about sleeping with you felt more intimate than sex or devouring you in the fountain. He had almost thrown this away. He buried his face in your hair, inhaling deep, committing your scent to memory. His grip tightened slightly despite the whispers in his head.
"You’ll be the one to hurt her. You’re going to bury her when this is over."
He swallowed thickly, squeezing his eyes shut.
With your breath steady in his ears, your presence anchoring him in ways he didn’t understand quite yet, words he couldn't fathom, Vincent let sleep pull him under.
It was the deepest, peaceful rest he had known since waking from his coffin.
BONUS: [The next morning you would unfortunately find yourself mortified to have found yuffie beat you to the punch, digging your wet underwear, clothes, and Vincent's gauntlet from the fountain with a horrified look on her face. You would hide behind the corner of the inn, wanting to dig your palms into your eyes in humiliation.
"V-vincent got laid?!" She exclaimed in both horror and amusement with a bright grin stretching over her lips. She was going to tease him relentlessly for sure.
You groaned and shuffled back inside the inn without a word, passing everyone at the counter. You'd let Vincent collect his gauntlet on his own when he woke up.]
Tags: smut, pretty Vanille, a little first-time dirty talk, exploring, oral, mentions of creampie
Summary: You've had a really bad day, something that makes you wanna escape into the clutches of your recent beloved. He's always pleased when you ask for his help, especially if it's with his body.
Notes: Hello ♡ I wanted to post a lot sooner and not quite this ramble, but I've had a really shitty month so far. I found out I was being cheated on in my very serious and long relationship and— well. It makes you not really want to write sex or romance for awhile ♡ I'm doing a bit better, but posts from me will be sparse as I try to get my spark back. Thanks for waiting on me, and thank you for all the support on my other works.
Say yes to heaven. Spell it out on his lips with your teeth. Humor a gentle kiss lost in iridescent sunlight, filtered by curtains so sheer it hides nothing. You're used to this flavor, the taste of unsaid confessions and affections. They drip like liquor onto the seam of your lips, honeydew and smoke, a visceral combination. Addictive and you're not complacent.
Your fingers seek him out in the light, brushing along the slopes of his cheeks. His soft voice rings out in the stillness, his hand finding purchase at the hollow of your throat. Every crevice is sticky, the growing humidity sounding in your ears just like his half-growls into your jaw.
Not all dances are rushed, not every rhythm is smooth, but you find that in these moments tucked away— you love how imperfect it is. Even when Vincent holds you like he doesn't deserve too, as if you're his personal rosary to wrap around his hands— to confess every sin into your body, you're shy.
Joy is too holy for him. A purpose he's convinced needs to be returned.
How could an angel ever clip its own wings like this?
The amount of fixation in his smoldering gaze sets your heart ablaze, constantly trying to close your parted knees to force him in positions where it's harder to see it. He never relents, airy sighs escaping his mouth as he convinces you to let him partake. You're sure you can feel his previous load leaking from you, but it hadn't stopped him from overstimulating you both. He loved watching you fall apart and loved testing himself at the same time.
You had begged for him to clear your mind. He had simply done as requested. His eyes were so full of mirth when he had undressed you, your frustrated tears from a bad day still staining your cheeks. He kissed every tender patch of skin and nibbled his marks on you so you won't forget. And as he settled you in front of him and held your leg above his hips, circling your sex with his fingers and cock, you had forgotten what you were so wound up about.
That felt like hours ago.
So as his cock drags through your walls deliciously, you wonder if he ever thinks about it— what he calls his own appendage, what he thinks of talking during sex. Neither of you truly spout conversation during your activities, it's always hunger and passion, but you want to hear vulgarity.
You want poison from his mouth in your ear, to hear his faux sympathy as he tears you apart to build you back up. You stretch your body languidly, leaning your head back to press a kiss to his rather smooth chin. Your hands tap at his thighs, hips, any spot you can reach to let him know you want to switch from this cuddling position.
Vincent understands immediately, scooping you into his arms and rolling on top of you, balancing most of his weight on one arm. His eyes flecked in worry, a hand tracing down your cheek.
"Are you alright?" His voice is a little hoarse, his chest still heaving a little, tongue darting out to gather the sweat on his upper lip.
Your face lights up avidly, cherry colored fluster in patches across your naked form.
"I wanted to know...." You tried to let it out, but become tongue tied staring at his quizzical expression. His hard length is still pressing into your thigh.
Vincent tilts his head, the braid of his long hair falling over his shoulder. You had finally convinced him to let you play with it, to help him take care of it, especially before sleeping, so it wasn't always spiky— although you treasured that part about him too.
"What might you want to know?" His hand cupped your cheek, engulfing it realistically, thumb sweeping under your eyes and around the apples of your cheek, "Gauging your reaction, it must be something quite peculiar."
His lips quivered, betraying his amusement at your loss for words— seeming to have fun in this position.
You narrowed your eyes as your teeth worried the bottom of your lip, "How do you think about my..." You slowly took his hand from your face, both hands wrapped around his wrist as you slid it down your chest, along your tummy and towards your mound. His eyes darkened as his fingers found your nectar still warm, sticking to your skin, "What do you call it?"
Vincent smiled sharply, thinking twice about what he should say considering his heart wad hammering at your boldness, "I see, it's that kind of question." His fingers played with you idly, as if it was a normal thing to do as he stared you deep in the eyes, "Are you expecting me to say nether regions? Maybe thingy?" He teased.
You gaped, hips squirming against his fingers as they toyed with you, "Well, no! I don't think you're that old or immature," You scowl playfully, your other hand pinching his cheek and stretching the corner of his lips into a smug, crooked grin.
Vincent nipped at your digits as they fluttered back down to his shoulder, curling into the braid. His sharp features were so uncharacteristically soft in this light, in this bed, with his hands making playful love to you.
He let out a long sigh as he leaned down to kiss your forehead, "Normally, it's your flower, my secret garden," You feel his lips twitching.
"And other times?" Your heart is racing, and he slides a finger inside of you, lips now trailing down the bridge of your nose, sprinkling kisses along your bridge, and to your cupids bow.
"Slit..." He hisses as he feels you tighten around his finger. His face is almost redder than yours as he buries it into your chest, licking and sucking his way down.
You've never heard him say something like these words before your eyes are lidded, breathe picked up like a current on the wind.
"Vincent...." You moan, hands on his shoulders, begging for him to lower still, "Dont stop talking—...please..."
He obliges you, drawing his tongue all the way down your center until he reaches the hood of your clit, pressing a ghost of a kiss there. His finger is still pulling and pushing, coaxing that tide of pleasure within while keeping it at bay.
"Poor thing, you're drooling here..." To implicate his words further, he makes a show of sucking up the wet mess on your inner thighs, tongue sweeping the creases of your folds as well. The slurping sounds humiliate you, but you don't ask him to stop. This is what you wanted, a part of him unfiltered. You can tell he's getting off on speaking so much as well, his cock is twitching into the bed sheets, his hips subtly shifting against them for some relief.
"I want to know what you want to hear me say? Does it turn you on so much?" Vincent gazed up at you from between your knees, tongue flat against your hood as he began to add kitten licks with his soft kisses. As you're thrashing on the bed he knows getting a straight answer out of you isn't going to happen— not with your pupils blown wide like you've been caught with your wild fantasies.
"You want me to call it your cunt?" He asked while slipping another finger inside to continue the stretch. His teeth perfectly executed the word, it sounded so divine and yet so shameful. Your legs trembled as you gripped his shoulders tighter, bending at the waist to observe him better.
"Or do you prefer if I refer to it as your pussy? Maybe I should call it mine..." He sighs breathily, caught up in the fantasy itself, his cheeks are red betraying any of the smugness he had before. His cock is absolutely leaking, your hips grinding against his mouth and chin.
You grab his hair forcefully, hauling him up with little resistance and clashing your mouths together. Your hand reaches between you both, a startled groan erupting from your lover as you move his hand away. He readjusts between your knees, hands cupping the curve of your waist. Your hand guides him to your entrance, the sounds obscene as you fail and his cock slips over your lips. A whine escapes you, your other hand still fisted in his braid, his mouth is busy kissing you languidly, letting you do as you please with him.
"I cant...anymore— please, fuck me...I need it.." With a loud gasp you join again as one— the tension melting from your body as he hits home within. The grip is tighter, your walls are covered in more slick, and it feels hotter. He's already shuddering as he pushes into you, balls pressing against your ass, tongue licking at your mouth as he sets the pace just how you like it.
"So vulgar..." He smiles, moans tumbling from his mouth, "I'll do whatever you ask, just to feel your pleasure." He admits thickly, diving back to your lips for more.
Tags: sloppy and heavy makeout, undressing, semi-public sex, mentions of assaults (very light), mentions of death, scars, mentions of mutilation.
Pairing: Reader x Vincent Valentine
Synopsis: After Yuffie has stolen your materia and passed off the group, you've gone through he'll chasing her around wutai. Everything seems to work out until it doesnt- Don corneo and his goons wind up kidnapping Yuffie and Reader. Vincent is the first to find and rescue them, but is frantic in hiding Reader away to selfishly check her himself and make sure she's as she was before she was stolen away without him by her side.
Notes: This took me forever, and I'm afraid it is very little proofread or edited, so it might just be word vomit. I was also in a rough place while writing, so Vincent might be very OOC here. I wanted to split it into two parts because I do want to make their coupling pretty deep and poetic for the most part as I feel Vincent really deserves that in this mini series. I'm sorry for the large gap in my posting but here's a small treat ♡ ALSO thank you all so much for the continous love on this series and my rambles in general ♡ I had so many notifications and it made my brain buzz seeing so many of you clicking through all the mini writings ♡♡♡♡♡
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The cave is quiet except for the dripping of water somewhere in the back. Every third drop breaks you from your spiraling thoughts, your body all too aware of his hands on your waist. You can hear his breath, shaken—not as if he is exhausted, just ragged.
There is no need for words as you cling to each other. You had thought you were going to die; Vincent had obviously thought the same. The sight of you tied up in such a vulnerable position, hanging off of the cliff face. He could still remember the fury that wracked his body, then the ice cold resolve to kill after.
His body backs you up into the wall, your back digging into the stone a bit further. His hands slip over your chest, your pulse catching as he flexes his fingers over the spot above your heart. His tepid fingers are gliding over the top of your breast. He is waiting, listening—it makes you feel all the more vulnerable.
"Vincent—" You whined.
"Let me listen." He demanded, voice ragged.
His sound is dry, the delivery stern, but there is a tremble ever so slight. In the dim light from the crack above, you can barely make out his rigid expression. He is entirely focused on your heartbeat. His breathing begins to slow even as your heart continues to pulse rapidly.
Here is your one and only beloved, holding it together as he listens to your inner clockwork. His eyes roam over your face, capturing your reddened eyes, the paths of tears long dry upon your cheeks. The glowing embers of his own are burning into your memory, as if you could ever forget. You don't realize you are shivering until his other hand rubs your arm soothingly, warming the skin under it.
Your teeth chatter this time, the adrenaline of the moment giving way to the chill of the night. Your body seeks the heat radiating off od your partner.
"If you don't pull me closer, I'll never forgive you." You smile weakly, trying not to let your desperation show. You just need him as much as he needs you, you need his breaths, his voice, his lips, his taste. You want to be unburdened by your night of misery.
He seems to agree, wrapping you up instantly, a long shudder running through him. His arms go under yours, picking you up so your legs are dependent on his waist. He crushes you together, his cowl and hair covering parts of your vision in a scarlet hue. One hand is cupping the back of your head as it rests against the stony wall. Always protecting you even in the smallest ways.
"I was so scared," you admit, your hands tangling in the fabric as he buries his face deeper into your hair. "But I knew you would find me, I knew you'd come." Your hands move to unbundle his cloak, not caring if he will refute. You need to feel his skin against yours—some part of it, even if it is the tip of his nose.
He lets it fall to the ground without making a fuss. His mouth immediately kisses your pulse, lingering there as if to feel the beating with his lips. There's a pause in his kiss, tongue lavishing over the point before he stills.
"I was so angry, I almost lost it." His arms tighten around you. "I wanted to torture him, for putting his hands on you—" A growl leaves him; you can feel his teeth being bared. Your hands go to his hair, rubbing, soothing, doing anything to douse the anger.
You tug to pull him away from your throat, looking into that malice-filled gaze. It softens for you as you cup his face, trailing his features with your thumbs. He takes in a deep breath before exhaling loudly.
"I couldn't bear it if you had been hurt, it would simply seek to destroy whatever is left of me." The light in his eyes flicker, as if imagining such an ending.
He readjusts your form in his arms, ready to set you down.
"We should go back...it's cold-" Something in Vincent's face screams reluctantance and you latch onto it.
"Warm me up, here." you cut him off, "I missed you, even if for a night..." You face flushed in the darkened room.
His eyes burn into you, but his lips inch closer to yours without debate. Your eyes flutter shut as his breath ghosts across your face—you can still feel his gaze on your mouth. It makes you swallow, wondering what expression he could possibly have. You crack your eyes open to see, the glint of his bright eye trained meticulously on the trembling of your bottom lip.
Maybe it is wrong, maybe it is weird, but you drink each other in by gaze as your lips touch, not wanting to miss each other in the cloak of darkness already. It feels a different sort of intimate as he slowly devours you, his fingers orchestrating your chin, whispering against your mouth,
"Mouth...open... more."
Your gaze breaks from his eyes to see his own mouth part, his tongue peaking out and the sight a lone makes heat pool in your belly. The idea that you're deranged enough in this moment to stare at him while he ravages your lips, locks at the saliva inside of your mouth— it's a different kind of intimacy.
You do as you've been demanded, the strings of saliva on your lips from his prodding tongue begin to stretch as you open to accommodate. Your flushed face under his scrutiny as you leave your mouth agape for him to explore. His tongue, his scent, his taste—you are sinking deeper into it all. He is your intoxication, a new brand of liquor yet to be discovered. You finally close your eyes, unable to handle that intense stare of his.
You'd be lying if you didnt want him to tell you what to do more often. You'd do anything he requested, anything at all. You wanted the words, "On your knees for me," to leave his mouth just once. A quiet moan rose from your throat at the idea. He unmatched your tongues, breathing heavily as his hands skimmed over your sides, the back of your thighs as well.
"Did they touch you… anywhere?"
"They talked about it… in detail… but they didn't have time to do anything," you explain while he lets you breathe, your soft pants hitting his cheek. You can feel his body softening slightly, hands becoming more gentle and less desperate.
You should be trembling, you should be scared, you should be crying. But you can't. You had known the moment you were taken that he would come for you, and in some way, that makes all the other experiences melt away.
Vincent continues to hold your chin, inspecting your jaw and neck. There is a small lingering trail of bruises down your collarbone where you had been handled roughly. Your hands had been bound, so they often grabbed you by your shoulder or the back of your neck and shoved you where they pleased. You feel his eyes raking over it like hot coals, feel his lips as he pauses over them, hesitant to touch.
"No one who marks you like this should live," his growl returns, the shaking in his arms intensifying. "I should go back and make sure that descent down the canyon really finished that pathetic—" He cuts himself off with a sneer.
Your eyes widen as his trembling picks up again. "Vincent, I'm okay. Truly, I'm okay. Please." You reach for his face as he unwinds your legs from his waist. He's stronger than you—easily able to set you aside, but you cling to him regardless, your arms still locked around his neck as you stretch onto your toes to stay close.
"Please, I'm sure Cloud is checking right now," you argue, voice unsteady. If he leaves you alone here, you'll lose the comfort, the stability. His hands remain on your forearms, as if still considering prying you off. Your safety is his priority, and any lurking threats must be dealt with first. It’s always been like that and Vincent needs vengeance the way a plant needs the deep embrace of good earth.
His crimson eyes narrow in the dim light, a finger ghosting over your nose, tracing along the bridge. His other hand threads through your hair, the motion soothing not just for you, but for himself.
"I don't like when you say his name like that."
"Vincent—" The quiet jealousy in his voice startles a laugh from you, and you catch the slight dip of his lips into a frown.
"Well, you are the reason I'm breathless," you tease, stretching up to capture his lips, pulling his hand away from your face in the process. "Shouldn’t you take more responsibility instead of being jealous?"
A smirk finally tugs at Vincent’s lips. "Mmh, I have conditions."
"And?"
"Say your name for me," he whispers.
You giggle at first, eyes glimmering with amusement. Wasn’t that silly? Saying your own name in front of him? You can’t even remember the last time you called it out yourself. It’s not something you go around announcing.
But then, the smile on Vincent’s face shifts into something softer, something more thoughtful, and you swallow nervously. Was this some kind of test?
Tentatively, you murmur your name, a bit shy, the moment suddenly feeling less playful and more like something unspoken unfolding between you. His eyes darken, thumb gently parting your lips, trailing over your bottom teeth—not quite touching your tongue. Heat creeps up your jaw, slow and aching, as if your obedience itself is being acknowledged.
"Again."
This time, with his thumb in your mouth, pronouncing it is harder, but you manage. He exhales softly, pressing a kiss to the tip of your nose, rewarding you with a slow rub along the wet muscle in your mouth.
"Listen to you," he purrs, sharp teeth flashing as he presses another kiss to your nose, this time biting down lightly. It’s playful—unexpected from him. Your face is hot, chest rising and falling as warmth coils low in your stomach.
"I-It sounds funny," you murmur, flustered.
"Does it?" Vincent tilts his head, his hand slipping beneath your shirt, fingers tracing along your stomach before trailing higher. His knuckles brush teasingly along the underside of your breast, featherlight.
You tense, back arching slightly, aching for more.
"Say it," he coaxes, voice laced with amusement.
But you shake your head—you don’t want to play this game without getting something in return. He clicks his tongue, a soft sound of disapproval, before his hands suddenly tighten around your chest, squeezing firmly.
A gasp rips from your throat, your name tumbling out in the process.
Vincent captures your lips the moment it leaves.
"Your voice is my undoing, now do you see why simply saying a name in that tone....it's unfair." He was unbuttoning your jeans before you could catch up, his hand stuffing itself in the tight fabric. Fingers rubbing at your clit as you moaned his name.
"I need you, Vincent, please.... all of you." You begged, your own hands were exploring his narrow hips. You wanted to grab him without the barrier of clothes. Without the sting of belts on your inner legs as you rutted together. You were tugging at his belts as he groaned, not quite pushing you away.
"All of me..." He seemed to promise, "You may have...but it's not—"
"Vincent, I want everything, whatever is there under your clothes will not change how much I want you." Your frustrated sigh makes him stiffen a bit as your hand pauses on his last buckle.
"You're mine...." You murmur, your eyes locking as his flare.
"Yours." He almost whimpers, the sound alone sends sparks down your spine, "All yours."
You don't remember how you got fully undressed. You don't remember being able to pull off his clothes. It was like a whirlwind, hot and hazy. One moment you were astride him, grinding down on his briefs as he played with your chest— the next you were lying on his cloak, legs wide for him as you stared up at his panting face. His chest was riddled in scars, a large on bisecting his chest and traveling to his navel. He was configured in a way like he had been starving for a good long while. You always wondered what his stomach had looked like, it was normal but far too small for someone of his stature.
He was watching you watch him, you couldn't let anything show that would make him uncomfortable.
"The scars are..." His voice quivered, "I needed to warn you first.."
You chastised him with a broad stroke of your tongue over the large scar tissue just under his ribs. Your mouth lavished it, hands gliding over the other scars as you took your time kissing the large ones. They felt cold under your tongue, your mind could only imagine how much pain these must've caused.
"Should I have warned you about my bruises and freckles?" Your lips turn down at the corners, it was extremely bizarre and quite frightening. But you weren't repulsed in the slightest. This was the body of the man you loved, a body he fought to hold together lest he succumb to the beasts inside. He was doing his best, who were you to add layers onto his burden.
"Absolutely not," Vincent's teeth grit, "But this is different, he gestures with one hand, sitting back up on his knees and running that hand through his hair, pausing so it sheltered over his eyes. "You couldn't possibly understand what it is,"
"Hey," You reached out with your hand, fingers resting at his navel, the furthest you could reach without sitting up. Your heart ached then for this man, this gentle soul who had never asked for this. He had probably been so shocked to recieved this amount of pain, to be experimented on like he didn't have a say.
"Stop prying, please."
"Vincent," Your tone grew more worried at the sight of his shaking shoulders, you instantly shot up, hands on his shoulders now, "Hey, don't hide from me," You pleaded.
"I didn't mean to compare or to pry-" You struggled to apologize, your heart heavy, "I just meant that, of course I would accept you." You tongue grew heavy with words.
"I love you, Vincent," Your voice trembled as you tried to move his hand, he let you lower it slowly,
You continued, frantic to get your point across, "I love you so much, I care about your scars, your past, but it doesn't shake my foundations." Your eyes flickered between his, trying to read his stormy thoughts.
"Maybe I'm the only one of us who feels this strongly so fast," Your eyes flicker down to your naked lap, "I just think you're beautiful and I've always thought that. Since the day we met I-I've always looked at you, I'm sorry." The tears were building in your eyes too as you remembered all the hurdles you had to overcome to get close to him.
Now you've just gone and fucked it up maybe by saying something stupid. Of course he would get upset about you comparing his mutilation to something akin to sunburn. Your wounds have always been temporary, there's never been a scar that wasn't smaller than a pebble. You got bruises from falling down, running into things.
"Love?" He was back to pushing you down into his cloak, his hands on either side of your head as you lowered yourself back down, fingers gripping his shoulders for support along the way, "How could you love someone bereft of humanity- akin to a monster?" A snarl, his eyes held a bit of anger, but never towards you, never.
Your tears came out even harder at the sight, your hands sliding up his neck, cupping his face. The tension in his face eased as he watched your tears for his plight.
"Because my monster is ruthless, but gentle. He is sad," You traced the shape of his cheek bone with your thumb, "He is so contempt with himself that it hurts me." Your breaths shuddered.
"I love him," Your lips trembled but you continued, pressing further into him, legs wrapping around his hips as you pulled him into a clumsy embrace, "Even if it hurts, please bear it."
As your voice fades to murmurs, his chin nozzles into your shoulder, claiming your comforting embrace as you continue to stroke his hair with your fingers.
Your heart ached to be with him, your hunger for his body to join with you had ebbed but sparks of it were still there. You tested the waters by wriggling your hips. A grunt left him, his head dropping to your shoulder. He whispered apologies in your ear, eyes full of sorrow and something you couldn't quite place when he pulled back. You wordlessly slipped your fingers down to slide off your remaining garment, showing yourself bare, eyes looking over him again.
His hair was tousled, dirty, tangled, but beautiful against his pale skin. His right arm was fully uncovered, his claw like hands settling on your collarbone. You took time to calm down, your breaths returning to normal. He was staring so intensly at you that he didn't seem to mind you tugging at the waistband of his underwear. He wiggled out of it as well, finally slotting himself between your thighs.
"You're sure?"
"Are you?"
Vincent breathed out shakily, nerves alight as he leaned down to capture your lips in a sweet but chaste kiss. You had both decided long ago to follow each other into whatever dark abyss lingered around you. You were entangled in the coals of his agony, a simmering fire that refused to sleep; a bed of coals you would rake across for one touch of his breath against your cheek. You knew in that yearning sunlit eye that stared back at you, that he felt similar.
One hand traveled to caress your face, pulling your lips back together into something deeper, a kiss that felt more like breathing.
You would take from him, he would take from you this night.
Summary: After the tragic end of your friend Aerith, you wonder what time will allow for you. So when you end up in Icicle village with an opportunity to cherish your beloved, you take it, even though it's a fleeting memory.
Notes: I wish I could keep going, but I think I'll burn myself out if I do. Vincent might be a little ooc or progressive in this one with his comfort, but i felt like it was okie given the extreme circumstance. This one is a long read and a little too all over the place for my own tastes— I did do some proof reading and editing, but the longer it got the more I started to not care if any of my sentences were repetitive so I'm sorry if it's sloppy ♡ enjoy~
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Time has never been a virtue to anyone, it liked to remind people about that in the most malicious ways. You always thought you had moments, hours, days, years to say all that you wanted— to cherish the people you love.
But when you watched a man descend from the sky and skewer your friend like she was nothing but flesh to be discarded, time ceased to exist. Everything unraveled in slow motion, mockingly, as if you had any power to stop it; As if you could reach out and pull her away. If you had been better, if you weren't weak, if you had a single skill to display— that soft laughter that everyone loved, those gentle eyes, teasing smiles, maybe that hand that always helped you up would still be here.
You knew it wasn't just you who felt this way, more than anyone Cloud was facing the brunt of the cruelty, his shoulders weighed with it. He was the one after all who was standing the closest, weapon raised to strike her himself. That had been terrifying.
You were there. You smelled the copper of her blood, the schlick of the sword being removed from her insides. You watched her eyes flutter openly for a moment, wordless, no smiles, light faded before they closed and never opened again. You could see the copious amounts of scarlet— a color you once harbored with love puddle beneath her, spreading out in a web.
You could hear Tifa's wracking sobs, felt the tears on your shoulder as you tried to console her with your arms while you fell apart too. You remembered the way she looked so serene, as if she was sleeping— wondering...will she wake up?
Your hands trembled when you finally reached Aerith, her skin so pale already, she looked cold. You wanted to cover her up, pretend she was just sick, but your hands and knees were covered in her essence. The red of her ending up on your shirt. You cradled her head softly, lips brushing the top of her head before scrambling away. Her skin was ice cole, no life at all.
You couldn't watch Tifa break apart, the way she cradled the cetra's face so gently, rubbing her cheek as if trying to bring a rosiness back to them.
Cloud took her into the water after that and she sank below slowly, everything about her becoming shadowed by the green water. She would be consumed, left to become bones beneath it.
You remember running from that scene, wrenching yourself from Tifa in a gasp, not wanting to see her drift to the murky depths. You didn't want to let go of her smiling face, her teasing nature, those times you connected over feeling so useless sometimes or so ordinary.
You ran and ran and ran until your lungs hurt and your throat felt raw. On shaken legs you made it back to the temporary camp, the others were there, having stood back to let you find Aerith while watching over your supplies since you were being tailed. The devastation on your face was evident, the blood on your shirt and pants, your panicked expression.
It only took one audible cry to leave your lips and he was there.
Vincent had stepped out from the tent, eyes zeroing in on you with blood, but for some reason you found yourself pushing forward, running until you collided with him. You almost knocked yourself down if he didn't grip you tightly by your arms, he was busy checking over you, gauntlet carefully aside as his other hand lifted your shirt hurriedly to check for wounds until you cried louder,
"It's not mine, it's not—" You gripped your head and almost sank to your knees, you felt his arms embrace you then. You couldn't see the others but you could feel their stare, you could hear the anguish.
"She's gone...." You hands would tighten around Vincent's cloak, your head spinning until you felt like you'd pass out.
Vincent would carefully pick you up and take you inside the tent, like a wounded soldier he would sit you down, kneeling in front of you. He handled you with so much gentleness as you stared wide off into space, you didn't want to think. You felt him around you, slowly gathering some of your stuff, packing up your supplies for you.
No one wanted to stay here.
You left as soon as everything was packed, but you couldn't change out of your soaked clothes so you sat in a corner, legs tucked up under you, head leaning into the wall. You don't remember how long you sat like that, dejected, feeling more sorry for yourself than you could ever imagine possible. Even though Vincent tried to be there for you, you shut him out, didn't make any want for him to be near you.
It took you a an entire day to reach Icicle village, a quaint little place with twinkling lights and blankets of snow. Normally you'd be excited for a new destination, but no one was cheerful— how could they be? You remember everyone shuffling out one by one, it was must more quiet except the idle chatter.
Cloud was no longer really hearing anyone, he was lost in his own head and seemingly Tifa was the only stability you had, but you could see her hands trembling when no one was looking. Barett and Cid were the first to speak up for everyone, their banter sometimes causing everyone to smile even if it felt a little hopeless.
It was like you were running on autopilot, you were numb, unwanting for anything. That was until you settled at an Inn, everyone was exhausted, tired, emotional. Surprisingly there was a few rooms with double beds and a quaint little loft room that would be taken by Nanaki since he insisted he wouldn't need much room to sleep. That meant that Cid and Barret could share a room, Cloud and Vincent, you and Tifa; Although you could tell it was going to be hard to pry the two of them apart with how longingly they held onto each other with their glances. You sensed a snap in their distance, like they hovered closer than before.
You felt Vincent's stare as you glanced away from the two, he spoke up insisting he'd room with you. It was the first time he'd been so forward, requesting anything really. Usually he would go with whatever the group wanted, but your hand tangled in the edge of his cloak told him you needed time. You didn't want to separate and he wasn't going to deny you after you had shut down on him all day.
"Is that what you want? Did you think to ask Tifa?" Barrett settled his gaze on you, flickering between the four of you.
Tifa brought her hand up and smiled meekly, "I-I don't really mind its not a big deal to me—"
"Argh, if she wants the walking funeral in her room, let her be. I'm too exhausted for this, we all are, let's just get some sleep and we'll come back to the drawing board tomorrow." Cid cut her off with a curt exaggeration, pinching his brow and digging in his pockets for a cigarette.
"If we're done," he paused to look at everyone, "I'm going to relax the best way I can, up and at'm." He snapped his lighter shut after lighting the cigarette which caused the front desk lady to glare.
You nodded towards Tifa in thanks which she just smiled through, even though her eyes shimmered with unease. Cloud hadn't moved from his seat on one of the benches, one hand carding through his spiky blonde locks.
When the deciding was done you felt Vincent take your hand as he had done all day, and pull you towards the room. He dropped your things down for you, clearly struggling a bit with how to comfort you, how to be there for you.
Pain was something he knew well himself, but he often swallowed it. He didn't want you to do that, to go through it alone until you closed in on yourself. He had figured you out pretty well over the months, he knew when you curled up on yourself you were thinking the worst thought. But this expression— this blank slate with dried tears and blood on your clothes, it pained.
With a sigh he stepped towards you who were sat in a chair. He leaned over you one hand coming up to caress your hair as he spoke softly.
"Do you want out of those clothes?"
You looked up, the warmth of the sun in his eyes that melted you a little, gave you a small purpose to nod. You didn't want to have this blood on you anymore, you had tried picking off the dried pieces on your arms but it did was fruitless.
He hummed in response gathering a bundle of your clothes from your bag, opening the washroom to reveal an old style wooden tub with copper faucets. With a squeak you could hear the knobs turn and water filling in.
Your hands trembled as you tried to peel off the shirt, but the blood was still there and it made you want to be sick. You grimmanced, but Vincent was there again, his gauntlet set aside and his glove off on his human hand. He didn't think twice about helping you, slipping it off as quickly as possible. His gaze didn't trace any part of you, only focusing on your face, stroking your hair and pulling you towards him when your eyes welled with tears again.
"I'm sorry," you would cry into his chest arms snaking around his waist, "I'm so sorry, I can't pull— I can't pull it together." You would choke out.
You would feel his hand stroke the back of your head, his arm wrapping you tighter, as if holding together all your broken pieces.
"You cry because it hurts," He whispered into your hair, his other hand rubbing circled on your back, "You never have to apologize for that."
Your tears were hot, feeling validated in your situation, you rubbed a hand down your face and pulled back a little. Vincent let you go with ease, brushing your hair from your face, his mouth was hidden by his cowl but you could see by his eyes that he was genuinely worried for you.
"Don't leave," you said, "Don't leave tonight,"
"Of course,"
And that's how you'd find yourself bare naked with him. Nothing sexual permiated the air, just a couple of broken people trying to comfort each other in silence. You were sitting in the hot water, your skin tingling as you scrubbed the soap into your skin harshly.
Vincent was there to pull your hand away, tilt his head at you and begin to wash you himself. He would always murmur, "May I?" Before washing something considered intimate. He worked dutifully but softly on your skin, gazing long and hard at the red spots from where you disturbed it. He would pour water gently over your head, helping to sud your hair, his fingers a little clumsy but you appreciated him for trying.
You would grimace when his hands would hoist your foot from the water, bending at your knees which were scraped to oblivion from tripping and sinking to them. He made sure to carefully wash away the dirt, blowing on the cuts as if someone had once done that for him before.
He had unbundled the cloak so it hung on his shoulders, revealing his face to you. He was nothing short of an angel, your gentle angel with talons who touched you like petals of a flower. He would take the time to massage your calf a little, you would gasp at the pain shooting up your limbs.
"It hurts here?" His fingers lessened their pressure instantly, looking down at you, hunkering into the hot water.
"Mm," You would nod as his jaw ticked, you couldn't tell if he was thinking about you or the events of today. He would make sure to scrub your feet as well, normally you'd find it ticklish, but you were just tired.
After washing you up he would help you out of the bath, offering a towel. He would escape into the other room, letting you dry up and put on your clothes. By the time you finished he was taking off his boots and cloak, slipping out of his vest so he was only in his long sleeve shirt and pants. Your fingers inched to be touching him, taking comfort in this gentle beast before you.
Vincent sat on the bed, his back resting on the head board and motioned with his fingers. You padded over, slipping between the sheets and letting your legs straddle his hips. You tucked your face in your favorite spot, the connection of his neck and shoulder, rubbing your nose in his shirt and inhaling deeply. A warm smell, something so grounding. It was a mix of his ages leather clothes, something earthy like mahogany, and the faint smoke of gunpowder. No matter how many showers you believe he took, he always smelled the same.
"Better?" He probed, his hands trailing up and down your sides slowly.
It was completely dark in the room save for the lantern on the side. This place had electricity, but the lantern was softer, its amber light more cozy. You pondered if he thought of that too when lighting it.
"Mhm." You hummed in acknowledgement, nuzzling closer. At one point in time you would've been elated to be held so close, it was scarce that you got moments like these with him. You could only enjoy it as it was, hoping that the images in your mind would settle for the night.
Time ticked by, your body was tired but your mind was still strung up. You wondered if this was even comfortable for him considering he didn't even move or shift beneath you. He was good at being still, like a statue, if you didnt know any better youd assume he was made of marble.
Another flash of her body floating in the water washed into your mind. You were here, safe, comfortable, and she was in the deep and dark waters of a forgotten city. You let out another sigh of contempt, your fingers tangling in your hair. You didn't deserve to be comfortable right now.
In the silence he spoke again, while untangling your fingers from your hair gently, not wanting you to hurt yourself subconsciously.
"It's not your fault," He would raise your chin with his pointer finger to look at him, his face more expressive without that damn cowl.
How was he so good at reading your thoughts aloud?
You would chew your lip,
"I just couldnt— it was so fast..."
"No one could," He declared, something flashing in his eyes, undechipherable.
He was right, you knew it. There was no point in placing the blame on anyone when it would take away from the real villain of the story entirely. It was his fault, that cat eyed bastard who popped up all over the place. Your teeth worried your lip still, now a little bit in anger, you hated Sephiroth. You hated that he was taking so much from everyone constantly.
He was also tragic in his own way, a hero fallen to ruin, a puppet for Shinra. Like every soldier, every employee.
As you shook out the thoughts, looking back into the crimson that was surveying you, you realized how dream like he was. He was such a kind heart, so gentle with you, always giving you his time and working on himself. He wasn't the most steady, but he was there when you needed him. Sure, he pulled away often and got lost in his self deprecation. Often deluding himself into thinking he wasn't meant to have anything good.
But that made you try harder, because you wanted his whole being to feel like he belonged in the waking world. As cliche as it was, you wanted him to stay because you didn't know what he would do after this mission was over and if everyone lived it, would he just disappear like smoke?
You weakly grabbed at his hair, the strands hanging over his shoulders, his eyes already falling to a close with a sigh as you combed through it. You liked him like this, without his cloak, without his gloves. He was vulnerable with you, a part of you gluttonous for that.
You don't know what enticed the words to fall from your tongue, but in the heat of the moment you spoke anyway.
"I want to forget all of it," your eyes still watering, your fingers clenching in his long locks of hair. Pulling his face towards you; wanting the smell of his sweet breath, "Make me forget, please, that's what I want"
You could feel the hesitation in the air, thick, spiraling between you both as he gauged your emotions. He looked torn between wanting to give you the world and wanting to chastise you, to tell you it wasn't okay.
You whimpered, a mantra of his name falling from your lips with begging,"Please, Vincent, please...." Your mouth inched closer, he didn't pull you away, but held firmly.
Vincent's chest heaved beneath you, shifting you on his lap the more you got closer to his face. His eyes were darting everywhere, from your lips, to your cheeks, your eyes. He seemed a little lost for how to reject you— or to welcome it?
You kissed him softly, your bottom lip catching his upper. The tears on your cheeks mingled in the middle ofthe connection. Your hands gripped his hair harder, tugging at him, wanting him to reciprocate. He didn't so much as part his mouth with a sigh and you wanted to dive in. Every part of him intoxicated you, made you so dizzy you couldn't think of anything but his touch.
He whispered your name, slowly hiking you up further on his lap, hands sliding under the back of your shirt, under your thighs, fingers slaying out as he did so. He relinquished control to you for a blissful moment. A swell of gentle victory arose in your heart, your lips eagerly chasing his that seemed to at least brush back with renewed vigor. You felt your kiss deepen slowly. Your body wanted his mouth to be faster, hungrier, to make your heart resound in your ears. To drown out the cries of the day.
Your back arched into his touch as he slipped his hands back onto your lower back, your chest pressing with his which caused a purr to rumble from him.
Your hands continued to thread in his hair, the silken strands flowing like sharp ribbons through those fingers; Knowing he liked it, you tugged, you often took control of your kisses this way. You would be allowed more access to his mouth, maneuvering his face this way and that to your discretion. You could swallow each breathy sigh and gasp alike, greedily taking all he was offering you. Your body began to tingle, his hands slowing their circles on your back, gripping your hips as you tried to grind down into him. He groaned as you barely misses your mark,
"Behave," He grumbled, his lips pressing into a straight line at your intentions.
"Make me," You countered, wondering if it was okay to test his patience at the moment.
You nibbled on his lip, an act of protesting his grip halting your movement. You felt it only become more firm, keeping your hips from colliding with his. You didn't want to settle or behave, you were sure of this of wanting him all to yourself in this cramped bed.
Although before you could think to beg again to plead your case, he was plunging his tongue inside of your mouth, exploring at his own leisure now. It was like a thin string had snapped, his nails digging into your back a little. Thought it was just for a moment, right as you moaned, before he slid his mouth away.
When you broke for air he trailed kisses over your cheek, down the column of your throat, teeth grazing over your pulse point with a warning. The kisses were too tender, too soft, you wanted more open mouthed kisses on your skin. More of his tongue lavishing your neck instead of your mouth. You wanted him to be feverent and hungry. Everything was going according to your idea, you thought, until he unweaved, grabbing one of your arms gently as you panted. You were clearly a little frustrated.
"It may be best that we wait—" He started, his eyes smoldering, glints of amber and yellow in the dark, lips wet from your tongue and tears. He could see your cheeks almost bulging, sulking.
"Why?" You probed, those intense eyes of your settling on his straightforward.
"Because you're grieving, I don't wish to—"
"So you don't want me like that?" Your voice trembled, your shoulders slumping in defeat. You let go of his hair, hands folding into your lap, the tears welling up again to drip down your face. You were being a bit eccentric, your belly was heated and you were sulking for him putting out the embers. For dowsing you back in the cold of reality.
Vincent let out a whine almost animalistic in nature, pressing his forehead to yours, "You know this is untrue,"
You did. You knew you were being stubborn. Throwing a tantrum most likely, you were acting as a greedy child. But it did little to sway your eyes from keeping their gaze locked on your lap where you hands lay, fingers twisting.
"Look at me, please,"
You shut your eyes tighter. Your name left his lips again, calling for your attention.
You opened them, slowly lifting them under your lashes to find his intensly boring into you with flecks of yellow. It wasn't often you saw the yellow, beastly eyes lurking beneath, but sometimes they made an appearance. You felt a little shy like you had an audience between you two. You saw his yearning, but you also saw how worried he was for you. He was entirely cautious for good reason, he didn't want to break you, bend you, tarnish you in any way.
"There you are," he offered one of his rare crooked smiles, lips curling at the ends in that way you love.
"Your tears are very enchanting, but I dislike seeing you cry," he whispered, leaning forward to press his lips under your eyes, a warm wet sensation following as he licked the traces of your tears away.
Maybe it should've repulsed you, but it was a little comforting. Crying had left your eyes sore, the skin below was dry and the soft sweep of his tongue and a bit of cool breath made all the difference. It was also somewhat bold of him, almost uncharacteristically bold.
It made you ache.
"You make it hard not to protest when you do that," you mumbled, already feeling the mood lighten a little from his shennigans. He was trying to comfort you in his own way.
He chuckled, a sound that didn't reach his eyes as he brushed a thumb along your jaw, "I want when we...", he cleared his throat, suddenly seeming a little bashful.
"Fuck?" You offered, announciating it a bit too sharply which he seemed to wince at.
"Mmh," He pushed on your waist until you were laying with your head against his chest, able to hear the rhythm of his heart.
"When we join," he continued while stroking your hair, you felt all the fight leaving you, "I want it to be because you desire to remember, nothing more and nothing less,"
You sniffle, feeling really silly for your earlier antics but still dealing with that deeply rooted sadness. You wondered if this is what Vincent carried all the time. If it felt so hollow, how did he have the strength to burden himself alone?
You're certain there was something that happened to him so twisted that he wouldn't let you touch him in certain places, wouldn't let you see him without clothes. It was the way his eyes darkened when you asked if it was because it had been a long time since he'd been with someone in general.
To you it didn't matter if he was the virgin Saint Mary or if his body count was in the one hundreds, you just wanted him to feel as comfortable as he made you feel.
Unfortunately he refused reciprocation, sometimes allowing you to make him feel good over his clothes with your hands or hips, but nothing beyond this. You knew he didn't climax once with you this way. You were often interrupted, not really allowed to embellish your desires as you please. You also only ever had cramped places to yourselves where it was hard to touch.
There had been nights during watch together that you lounged in his lap, his fingers gliding under your waistband when you were worked up. He painted these occasions as "Helping you relax".
His fingers would make you fall apart under the stars once more, but it was always hushed, too quick to sink into the desire. You wanted more time—more of him.
As the silence droned on, you became aware of your spiraling thoughts once again, trying to think of anything but what happened in the past day. You wanted to sleep it off, wake up and discover it was all a dream.
"Vincent?"
"Mhm?"
"Do these wounds heal?" You pushed closer to him as if it were possible, he was drawing the covers up around your shoulders. The blanket made your nose itchy, but your body was so exhausted you wouldn't bother lifting you fingers to relieve it.
You could feel the heave of his sigh, "With time,"
A lie, dripping bittersweet, but one that would give you hope.
———- a week passes ———-
You hadn't grown used to waking up to Vincent in a long time. What with Aerith dying, the group finally admitting they needed some rest— you were in a period of welcomed warmth. Cloud busied himself in sidework with Barret, Tifa helped the pub downstairs to help pay for your extended stay at the Inn. You helped out as well, scrubbing tables down, serving food, and sometimes it felt like a part of your old life in Midgar had resurfaced. Though, your memory was a bit hazy with certain details. You couldn't remember what brought you to the city in the first place, just that you ended up there and had to survive.
The sound of the wind howling outside brought you out of your memories. You forgot how still it was when Vincent slept next to you, the steady fall of his chest, his hair sprawled across the pillows. His legs were often longer than the mattress so he often slept with them curled up, looped with yours when you would insist to take more room. You liked waking up before he did because you got to see a side of him no one ever did.
Even when he awoke suddenly in the middle of the night, sweat pouring off of him— he would retreat from you. Like clockwork he would put his walls back up for awhile after, assuring you that you did not need to know what lingered in the crevice of his mind. He would then spend the rest of the night cleaning his weaponry, oiling his gauntlet, or reading— Anything to prevent himself from landing back in the bed with you.
So, you liked when he rested dreamlessly— though that was few and far between.
Your fingers fluttered over his sharp cheekbones, reaching the corner of his eyelids. The first tell of Vincent waking up would be the working of his jaw, his tongue moving around in his mouth, lips parted to breathe in a deep mouthful of air. Often he would keep his eyes closed, just letting you hold his face. But today he opened those carmine eyes just for you, sleep heavy.
His eyes always looked more bleary in the morning, languid and lazy as he took in your face as well. He would usually bring a hand up to graze knuckles over your jaw, his other arm around you pulling you in a bit more. He often made you lay back down, his voice so throaty it made your heart stutter.
"A bit more,"
But you had other plans, you would lean up on your elbow propping your head up. You would study his features still, finger smoothing out the furrow of his brow.
"Has anyone ever told you how hot your morning voice is?" you teased, your finger outlining his jaw, going down to his collarbone and back up. You were basking in the afterglow of a good dreamless sleep.
You were greedy for his affection. You had been going to sleep early almost every night after working with Tifa so often you had time to embrace and then you were drooling on your pillow.
His eyes opened once more at that as you began to shift above him, straddling his hips. You had insisted on borrowing a shirt of his yesterday, using everything to your advantage for your villianous idea to make him lose self control. His hands rested on the top of your thighs, fingers playing with the edge of the shirt, a lingering expression of sleep on his face. His blinks were really slow, eyes wandering over you as if considering letting you have what you wanted. His will was too damn strong though, ignoring your curious glances at his shirt and pants.
You leaned down, brushing your lips to the shell of his ear, "Do vampires get hard in the morning?" You nibbled his ear lobe.
Vincent let out a sound of self contempt, his fingers gripping you more roughly as you sat down harshly right over his bulge. He wasn't rock hard but you could feel him twitching and tensing beneath you already.
He gripped your face between two fingers with a long ardent sigh, a smug look as your face heated up from his bodies reaction. He squished your cheeks together, making your lips jut out. You were losing your bravado as you could almost feel the length of it.
He was big.
He knew it too.
"On second thought, breakfast?" You squeaked out, your lips still pinched between his fingers.
"Mm, but I thought you were offering a delectable buffet?" Vincent pondered, voice thick, his hand drawing your face near.
"After all, vampires are quite insatiable." He drawled, "Silly girl."
You forced your eyes away, glancing out at the snowfall from the window.
"All bark but no bite," you muttered, your blush deepening. You doubt he would take it farther than teasing, even though you'd had alone time recently he hadn't shown that much low restraint. You even tried sleeping with your shirt rocked up around your thighs, sleep shorts forgotten— he looked of course, but never slid his hands any further than the tops of your legs.
In a whirl you found yourself flipped over in your moment of distraction. His forearms caging your head, his legs astride your thigh. Was that his teeth at your jugular? You felt your heart pick up speed when his hot breath ghosted over your throat.He didn't bite down, just lets the prick of his canines indent your flesh ever so lightly— a dangerous little reminder. When he felt you gulp, your throat moving beneath him he removed his mouth, satisfied it seemed with your reaction. Vincent settled his weight onto you carefully so as not to crush you, the spaces between your bodies nonexistent now, his belts pressing into your hips. He was so long compared to you that most times it was a bit awkward, the size difference really made you swoon though.
Your hands gripped his narrow waist, teasing your fingers on the hem on his shirt. Normally this is where he would stop, but he seemed a little delighted to play your game. His eager hands grabbed yours away from his waist, collecting them in one hand and pinning them above your head against the smooth wood of the headboard.
"V-vincent wait—"
He looked up from your throat, sitting up slightly to hover his face over you directly, moving his leg so it parted your thighs. He was waiting as you requested, idly tracing your side with his other hand still covered by his glove. He never touched you with it unless you asked nicely, but you often had to spend a long time getting him to take it off.
You weren't in a patient mood.
He cocked his head, playing the fool, "I'm waiting,"
"I hope that good ol' self restraint is doing you wonders." You bit back a grin, he truly was the best for making you feel giddy. These playful banters were scarce.
This side of him you wanted to keep forever before you had to exit this room for the day When you left it would be back to grunts, sighs and the occasional twitch of his eyes. His thigh shifted abruptly, touching your center and shooting sparks down your spine.
He let out a low chuckle, the sleep in his voice making it deeper as he purred, "No undergarments today as well? You're bold,"
"I'm very thorough in my tactics," You let out breathily, wiggling subtly to get that same friction.
"Oh?" He brought his lips to yours softly, giving you more access to his leg as you shamlessly started to grind against it, "Indulge" a gentle kiss, with a hint of his tongue running over your bottom lip, "Me?"
"Seduction," You whispered, biting his bottom lip, "Foreplay.....Orgasm..."
He waited with baited breath as you moaned, the friction was heavenly, not the same as his hands or his mouth, but the leather on his leg was smooth.
"Mm," He encouraged you wordlessly, letting you grind on him as you pleased. His hand continued to graze over your ribs with his fingertips, pushing the shirt up even more.
"Dont tease," you pleaded
"Says the temptress with tactics," He sighed lazily against your mouth, deepening your kisses, your tongue slipped inside his eager mouth, dancing for dominance. His was winning with all the places he could touch you while your hands were still pinned, making you moan for him, letting you slip.
"I want it," You whined, devastated, hungry. "Want you s'bad," Your voice slurred, drunk on his touch.
He pulled away, almost untangling himself in an attempt to let the flames simmer.
"N-No we don't have to....all the way..." You explained, your eyes wide, begging, "I don't mind not....you know.."
He seemed to relax at that, shifting and letting your hands fall to his shoulders, free. You flexed your fingers, the ache between your legs growing, you werent sure exactly what you wanted to do here but he was staring at you expectantly.
"I wanted to touch you," You admitted, "Maybe....each other..." You face was creeping with heat, you lips became the perfect place for your teeth to tug and bite.
Vincent looked lost in thought, his shoulders tensing forward, "I won't remove my clothes," He said slowly, waiting for you to reject the idea. Reject him. Reject his vulnerability.
You nodded, cupping his cheek, brushing a thumb across it, "That's fine with me, we can go at your pace, always." You affirmed with a kiss to his mouth, pulling him back down to you which he surrenders.
You made sure to give him an out though since you felt a bit irrational, "But if you don't want to, don't force yourself...promise?"
He wordlessly grips your hand with his bare one, sliding your fingers together like he did in the fountain. The gesture was a 1,000 words, a promise without needing clarification.
His hand releases yours to explore, to tease around your stomach. There's no fabric beneath your waist but he still takes his time sliding his hand further down, fingers splayed as if in muscle memory. He was drinking in your heated expressions as his hand finally descends your mound. His middle and pointer seeking out your folds.
Before you can lose courage you also begin to fiddle with the zipper on his leather pants, your fingers tremble.
"Inside or outside the underwear?" You asked with a teasing lilt of your hand palming him through the pants. You noticed his body's reaction immediately. His back tensed, arms quivering.
"Start outside," He bit out, he didn't know if he could hold it If you just reached in and grabbed him in one go.
You just nodded, feeling his head descend to your neck, breaths already heavy. He slid his hand lower taking his time to run both fingers down each side of your folds. You whimpered, hips rolling into those digits. You could feel how sticky and slick you were from having rubbed on his leg, the evidence spread all over your inner thighs.
While he coaxed you with his hands, you pulled the waist of his pants down just slightly, it was resting lower on his hips, your hand able to brush over his underwear now. Oh he was definitely hard, absolutely leaking. Your finger that grazed his clothed cock was damp, the thought warming you up even further.
You heard the low groan come from the back of his throat, face burrowing into your shoulder— Almost pained, like he was straining himself.
"It's okay. I've got you," You coo'd.
His fingers were carefully exploring you still, finding your clit and giving it a gentle pinch. It caused you to gasp, pleasure shooting through your body. Your other hand would rest on his slender waist, rubbing soothingly as you prepared him for more firmer grips. You didn't want to make a move too fast, disrupt whatever pleasure he was feeling just because you loved watching him fall apart.
But you almost couldn't help yourself, maneuvering him in his underwear so it was easier to trail your fingers over his long shaft. You mouth suddenly felt too dry, your tongue thick. What would he taste like?
A feral sound escaped him, he reigned himself in with a harsh inhale, "Be patient, not too hard," He guided your hand to rest at the base of his covered cock. He was groaning in the hollow of your throat, his hips freezing at the simple touch. You licked your lips, heart pounding, fingers flexing over him in a slow rhythm.
He didn't give you time to quip back at him, fingers rubbing you thoroughly now, gliding into the center of your slick heat and growling at how much of a mess was between your legs already.
You cried out, biting into his shoulder, you couldn't afford to be too loud afterall. Your hips rolled with his technique, wanting those fingers to go lower, to dip inside. He knew it well enough, slowing his pace to a torturous stroke. You were a bowstring pulled taught, arching into him regardless of the simple touch.
He hummed in amusement, toying with your clit and running those digits back up and down your center, index and middle finger running lightly over your entrance. He could feel you trying to take the tips of his fingers inside, the pulsing of the hole widening to accommodate. To say it turned him on was an understandment, he could probably peak from fingering you alone.
You whined, pushing closer with your hand on his hips. Your nails were digging into his waist, little marks would be left over. It wouldn't hurt what so ever if you dragged your nails deeper, though he wished you would. You would push against his fingers, moaning when you would successfully cause him to rub your core more intensly, finger tips sinking inside to stroke the warmth.
"Needy little thing," He rasped, raised himself up to your ear, licking and sucking just behind it. In response to this teasing your hand engulfed his clothed shaft, squeezing firmly while stroking faster. His fingers took their time slipping inside of you teasingly, going back up to your clit to rub the mess around.
A broken moan escaped him, his arms shaking as he kept himself upright, eyes fluttering close. You grabbed the tips of his hair, his fingers had stilled their torture so you could tug, pulling him to face you and capturing his lips. He drank greedily from your tongue, almost panting. Just a touch like this and he was spiraling too fast.
You bite down harshly, wanting to make these as yours for the time being. When you pulled apart all that was left was a string of saliva connecting your parted lips. The indent of your teeth prominent, little beads of blood forming there. You should feel bad, you think, maybe a little embarrassed by such a carnal desire to mark him in a place so vivid. He seemed to like it enough, those glowing eyes roaming over you in his shirt, tongue darting out to clean the drops of red from his mouth.
"Slowly," He chastised you with a gasp as you continued to grasp him so firmly, his hand going back to your wrist to slow you down, "I cant think..."
You smiled, kissing his cheeks tenderly. You could see that he was battling the pleasure, his brow furrowing, he always wanted to pleasure you first. It was endearing, but you wanted to make him come.
"I have an idea, let me up." You commanded with another tug to his hair. He complied immediately, letting you rise but having to remove his fingers from you as well. You grimmaced at the disappearance, but pushed him back to the end of the bed with the flat of your palm to his chest, climbing across his lap.
"Like this," You demonstrated with a swivel of your hips, your bare core touching his briefs. His belts dug into your legs but the sting was welcome. It sent electric up your spine as you settled fully into the weight. His hips arched into you, his eyes lidded as you rocked forward. He was biting his lip already, eyes rolling practically as you slid yourself over him with practiced glides.
Oh
Vincent was so hot, you could feel how wound up he was, the throbbing very apparent even in this state. You could feel the length against your clit, making you fall forward a little. Your one hand balanced yourself with his chest, the other cupping his cheek which he nuzzled in it. His teeth scrap over your palm as he nibbled gently. You chased the sensation of those sparks over and over. He looked so vulnerable, so open, overwhelmed. His chest was heaving beneath your hand as you continued, his hands settling on your hips to help you along or to slow you down— you couldn't analyze properly.
You were already panting too, feeling the wetness trailing down your legs as you shivered. It felt so good like this, you wanted so badly for that aching emptiness to be filled but you didn't want to push your luck in asking. The barrier of clothing between you was so wet you swear you could almost feel him bare anyway.
You couldn't help the tears that welled in your eyes, not wanting to scare Vincent you tried to hold them in. The pleasure was so much, his gentle but firm grasp on you was so rooting. How had you never had this before? It was electrifying.
"Do you want to stop?" He was asking you so tenderly, as if letting you know you could and he wouldn't blame you for it.
You answered with a feral kiss, rutting faster. You wanted him to crumble, wanted to see when he experienced bliss.
"Vincent...hah...mm—" was the only thing you could manage— hoping, praying the repsonse would be read into it well enough.
He whispered back, thrusting up as well with small pulses of his hips, "Make yourself the priority, I can hold." His voice was measured, each word lingered with a soft sigh each time you connected below.
Your heat soared, looking down into his eyes, fingers clenching in his shirt.
"Please, don't hold, let go...please..." You begged, not caring if you sounded needy. Just the thought of making him come was making your release climb. So you leaned up and away to add more pressure to his cock. You wouldn't accept anything less for him, you wouldn't let him deny himself.
You were babbling, a blush creeping over your cheeks as you looked down on him, "I want to see it...when you come for me," You leaned bafk down to kiss him again.
Those perfect lips colored slightly darker red than your own were too irresistible. You loved kissing him, every kiss was sweet. Was it always this addictive before though? You couldn't remember a time where you yearned for lips against yours so heavily. You could devour them day and night.
Vincent's hands came up to tangle in your hair, holding you there like you were his oxygen. Gripping you in place, ravishing your lips in equal measure as you gave yourself over to every desire you had.
You could feel his hips stuttering, losing rhythm with you.
"You're so good to me, Vincent, so sweet," You praised into his mouth as he hissed, his body seizing after that like it was too much. The mess between you two was splattering against his abdomen, an obscene sloppy sound coming from your grinding hips.
"I cant hold, please," He ground out the words, his jaw clenched as he reached for one of your breasts, hand cupping it. "You first,"
He leaned up on one of his elbows, moving the shirt so it was at your neckline and took the flesh inside of his mouth. He pulled it taut with his teeth, knowing you liked him to be a little rough with this area.
You were losing as quickly as you started this game of tug and war. You keened, slick dripping all over him as you picked up the pace with fervor. He was busy with the nipple in his mouth, teeth clamping down again with a harsh suck.
You cried out as it hit you suddenly, you could equate it to seeing static when you got dizzy. All your sensitivty went straight to the hunger between your legs, growing as you came. Your hips were not longer able to handle being upright, almost slumping forward into him. He growled and pushed you down harder, hands adjusting you to where he needed you— rubbing against you to chase his own release which wasn't far behind. You fell into his arms deeper, his mouth next to your ear.
You could hear every groan, every whimper as he chased pleasure with your soaking core. You were still trembling, the prices of white hot pleasure lingering as he overstimulated you. You cried into his shoulder, lips pressing hot kisses there.
"Just like that," You mouthed into his collar, "Feels so good,"
With a final trail of kisses to his mouth he tensed, hips rocking once, twice, three times in a quick succession of snaps. He called out your name so sweetly even with that raspy voice, dripping with desperation as he came.
Your breaths mingled as you soaked in his pleasure. The hot material underneath you grew even warmer, sticking to your skin.
He was shaking harder than you had, eyes rolling up, he looked so blissed out. It was like all the weight of his troubles disappeared for that moment, his body becoming soft and pilant as you stroked his abdomen over his shirt. Your voice cooing gently as his torso kept spasming along with the muscles in his legs.
You felt him tugging you down, naturally wanting to feel the press of your chest, the undeniable race of your heartbeats that gave him a sense of calm. He couldnt get close enough, burrowing his face in your neck with a cry. You could feel those hot tears streak over your skin. He was downright crumbling.
"Hah— fuck— nnnh." He was still shivering, you could feel the hot dampness of his come sticking to his underwear. You didn't move, not wanting to push him over too far. It seemed like he was overwhelmed with the pleasure of it all, looking a little lost so you just let him hold you close through the throws of it.
"You did so well, just let it happen, its okay," You reassured, kissing his head, taking one of his hands from your waist and lacing your fingers together.
"Hmmm," He hummed, closing his eyes and trying to steady his breaths as you began to coax his hips to move slowly from their stillness, drawing him back down to you in a relaxing way. Letting him ride out the high as he needed too even if it stoked the embers inside you once more. You knew he probably wouldn't be able to handle another right now.
"That's it," You murmured, gently brushing his hair from his face. You waited there, the silence stretching. Nothing but the sound of Vincent's idle gasps, throaty moans. When his hips finally stopped shivering you made sure not to press down on him again, keeping your weight on one of his legs instead.
He was still squeezing his eyes shut so you stroked a thumb over his cheek encouraging him to open. When he did you smiled so brightly, a happiness surging within you, you had finally had an experience together. You were elated.
"Are you okay?" You mused.
"Are you?"
You both asked each other, your lips twitching with the humor of it all. You leaned further onto his chest.
"Never better," You could feel, however, the quickly cooling release on your thighs. It was technically a mixture of your own and his. You didn't mind though, you didn't want anything to pull you apart right now.
You could see his mind spiraling, a look of shame in his eyes that wouldn't disappear. You quickly covered his mouth with your hand as if knowing he was going to ruin it with something incredibly ridiculous about himself.
He reached up to peel the fingers from his mouth but you insisted.
"Don't think about anything, you were perfect, all of it.." Your lopsided smile coming into play, "I came just from seeing your expression..." You admitted, shyly. You let him remove your hand finally, his eyes searching yours for any traces of regret.
Vincent let his fingers brush your hair stuck to your face away, "You'll be the death of me," the corner of his lip twitched but you could see the relief in his eyes. He kissed your palm, a gesture of affection that made your toes curl.
With a groan he started to sit up and you held on tightly, your bodies were slick with sweat and to your embarrassment a lot of your fluids.He looked at his drenched lap with something of pride, your cheeks growing darker. You could easily see the staining white from you all over his black clothing.
"Let's clean you up," He suggested instead, leading you off the bed with a hand but pausing to gain his balance. His legs were a little jelly like, his other arm reaching out to lean on the bed post. That made him feel just as shy as you, with the way his ears went scarlet. You giggled behind a hand, standing up beside him and tugging him towards the bath.
"We'll practice," You promised, eyes alight as he watched you remove the shirt from your body, "You'll get used to it, I'll make sure of it," His gaze was locked on the center of your thighs, the dripping arousal, his eyes glowing.
"Mm, careful."
And then you were whisked into the bath where you were awarded another taste of his fingers and teasing. You wondered how it could get better than that.
But time was still ticking regardless of your little bubble of happiness. You would have to step out of it soon, but in the moment you relished him.
Summary: Vincent has nightly thoughts about you, always the gentlemen to never act on them though.
⋆˙⟡Notes: I'm pretty new to tumblr in general and I'm usually only here to self indulge in fanfiction and the occasional art piece. I might drop ideas or ramblings that just come to my mind- currently that being of final fantasy vii characters as well as other video game characters that capture my hyperfixation. Enjoy~
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A man bleeding from the inside, quietly so it disturbs no one. But you see it—you’re the first to cup your hands around these invisible wounds. You’re there at every corner, a soft, benign malice beginning to grow for you. You’re annoying in every sense of the word. Your smile is too bright, your eyes still lit with a radiance untouched by the darkest nights. When he’s around you, he often thinks of himself even more—how it would feel to go all the way back to secret whispers in the night and naps in the sunlight. There’s a longing for that euphoric dream, where he replaces the unsightly with visions of you in his waking hours, when sleep is far from his thoughts.
He imagines pulling that smile from your lips with his fingers, brushing your bottom lip with just a caress of his thumb, while you fall apart above him.
You wear your innocence so thin, the dusting of rouge on your cheeks like the sunset when you’re caught staring. He remembers these stolen glances, observing you now more than ever. He wonders if you’d bite down on your own hands and fingers, silencing melodies he so desperately wants to hear. Would you act shyly, perched above him in your night chemise? Would you let him in so close, so easily, if he only murmured a soft, “Please”?
Oh.
How would you act if he were to beg? If he gave in to every carnal desire, would you fear the embers—or are you afraid of being burned? He pictures you so sweetly in the night. He shouldn’t; he can’t fathom being the one to taint you so badly. But a part of his guilt revels in it. It would cause him so much misery, so much self-doubt, but he would enjoy it. He wouldn’t falter. He wouldn’t let your lithe hips escape when it became too much. He would still you, murmuring endearing words like a sedative poison.
“So good. Don’t steal away from me yet.”
Of course, if you wanted none of this, his hands would remain forever untouched by you. But the days that blend around you wind him to believe that you think of him sometimes—perhaps in your makeshift bed during your travels, sweetly trailing your hands between the apex of your thighs, while the candescent glow of a candle is your only audience and the thin walls of an inn do little to hold back your hushed gasps and cries.
He would wait for you to approach him. Always. He couldn’t allow himself such a luxury—a taste of something so sweet. Instead, he would sink deeper into his thoughts, where he always had you, cherished you, devoured you. And in return, you marked him back with golden smiles and reassuring caresses through his long hair. He wanted love so bittersweet it stung and left him breathless.
He does his daily tasks of cleaning his section of the Highwind. It isn’t much, but it keeps his mind busy when mornings feel bleak. After landing to gather resources or take on small jobs, he finds a quiet place to brood. Normally, he wanders into ruins or shrouded places to feel the first rays of the sun fall across his pale lids. He could watch the kaleidoscope colors forever if time allowed. He’s warming up to the idea of naps in the sun, after all.
“Vincent?” A gentle, quivering voice calls out to him. He can almost hear her fingers fidgeting with the fabric of her shirt without even needing to look. She pushes through when he finally exhales and offers a glance, accompanied by a slight tilt of his head.
Me: I can't wait to finish this romantic smut i should really finish this wip-
Also me: *looks at this wip of complete sinful hot and sloppy smut with restraints and pathetic Vincent half transformed into a monster and oh yeah he's letting you ride his tail and jerking himself off all while he's blindfolded and can only taste with his serpent like tongue* hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm