#ghost blaine

[dystopiandramaqueen]

This whole experience was so toxic

I’m glad I wrote down my feelings.

Posting them isn’t even helping though.

I think I need to like- make a channel on my private discord and leave them there. Get the screen shots off my phone. Post maybe a few last thoughts-

I’ve got a few brief vid concepts that ?might help me grieve? But I think a break might be healthy. They’ll always be there. I’ll just listen to my gut.

I know everyone is making Beautiful things and I want to see them

We did alot of processing these past 2 weeks of the worst possible scenario.

Like.

Emotionally?

This SUCKED. This was BAD.

I don’t think there’s a right way to grieve.

And I’m just glad we weren’t alone.

Still can’t believe it happened.

Def going thru the phases.

The rage is wearing off. And I’m seeing it changes nothing.

What a rollercoaster.

[briaboda]

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Save Nick Blaine – Bring Him Back as a Double Agent in The Testaments

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[dystopiandramaqueen]

SIGH

I'm trying to Sweedish death clean my house this fall.

I want my house to be full of useful things, not piles of my old shit.

So I'm going through all these old lists- of ideas for fics and videos.

And they're so good.

My absolute favorite thing to do was splice together clips from other Max and Lizzie movies- to build the scenes we never got.

Because both Max and Lizzie have a trove of content. Romantic moments, fulfilled requited love.

All it would take is time.

But I don't want to anymore. Because of the way Elizabeth Moss poisoned the heart of the story in her show. I literally can't stand her face. I don't want to carefully clip and edit footage of her anymore.

Like I don't want to cook with rotten ingredients. I don't want to paint with nasty colors. I don't want to quilt with ugly rough fabrics.

And I just wanted to grieve that out loud, here on my blog that only the coolest people on earth read.

She ruined my hobby.

Fic I can still imagine at some point in the future. Because it would be MY June. Atwood's June. Who wouldn't have to have her face.

SIGH.

Fuck.

[dystopiandramaqueen]

This is better. I’m grouping them by topic.

I’m glad I’m doing this now.

And getting it over with.

Like- our arguments are reasoned and sound

I just needed it laid out/ so I could see it clearly

I keep hearing the “UR JUST SHIPPERS ITS JUST THAT HES HOT YOU MISSED THE POINT” garbage in my mind

Like. No.

[dystopiandramaqueen]

I was watching "Kpop Deamon Hunters" with my daughter

And I pointed out- that the romance dynamic- "was Nick Blaine energy."

He's a dark soldier, convinced that he is damned and unredeemable because of his past. But she convinces him that he's still human and worthy of healing- and in the end he fights back and sacrifices his soul so that she can complete her mission fighting evil.

My daughter goes...

"Nick Blaine's dead, mom."

I had no come back. Stone cold nothing.

Fuck you, Elizabeth Moss. You ruined a story so thoroughly that I can't even defend it anymore. I hate you. May your career, and all of your past and future projects share the same fate as the beloved character you damned. Eat a moldy dick and catch an untreatable disease.

[dystopiandramaqueen]

On a positive note I had a hilarious convo over breakfast telling my kids about the new nick Blaine tag.

I explained internet comment section warfare - and how Trolls aren’t staying in their lane right now - so we made a new tag.

So we and the ghost of Nick Blaine can sit in peace and talk shit about the bitch that killed him.

🖤

[dystopiandramaqueen]

I want to stop having thoughts about this show

I want to stop feeling the compulsion to talk about it when it’s mentioned in passing

I hope that comes with time.

I think it will.

[dystopiandramaqueen]

Nick put himself between her and the soldiers

Knowing she couldn’t shoot him

Gambling his very life to keep her alive