Letters to Nobody #25: “Trust.”
“Head of Security” is my title. It was something new to hear the words. I knew my job and what I did. But to hear them from Mr. Soleil struck me oddly when I met the new security team members.
I do my job. I walk the floors, handle difficult customers. I look, I lurk, I stare down. I rarely crack a smile, keep out of trouble, mostly. I ensure my tasks run smoothly. I do my part in maintaining the inn and rare is the day I’m out of armor. if only because black makes me all the more threatening.
The three words were uttered as casually as if he was asked whether or not the inn had a bakery. Of course, Miss Gealai is Head of Security. Hello, newlings, meet your superior standing as she studies you.
What an odd feeling to be trusted.To hear someone casually say it. He doesn’t know me personally but if I drew my sword he’d likely trust what i was doing.
I can pick up body language. I can see what the fingers twitch in that second before they go for a knife. I can see how the mouth thins, shoulders move back, or know it’s Adrian by the sound of their footsteps. I know the small details, Nobody, the important things so that I can glean information in the moment. For years it’s been a good, working method.
But I always fail to see the inner thoughts, the internal workings of those around me. It’s hard to talk- I’ve so little to say- and harder still for me to maintain a conversation. All skills will rust and decay without practice and much of the common social things oft escape me.
But the way those three words were said spoke a lot. Was it just me? Perhaps. I can write for days about what is in the inn.
But if it is trust then I like that.
My lunch break is over Nobody, so I shall end the entry here.