I've been rewatching Merlin, because of course, and this time my famjis doing the remwatch with me (wack I know) and we just started s4 and all I want to do is go back to s1, where Merlin and Arthur were infinitely happier. Where Merlin did believe the best in everyone, and before he listens to the dragon. The moment when the dragon tells Merlin that him seeing the best in everyone will be his downfall, when if he only kept believing then Mordred would never have betrayed Arthur. Also it pretty much defies how TV shows should work, especially children shows, like for the whole 5 seasons it is leading up for Arthur and Merlin to unite Albion, and in any other show Merlin would have succeeded because it's his destiny, but he doesn't and it's heartbreaking and I just want them to banter like they do in the early seasons, and I want Gwen to have a personality again, as much as I love evil Morgana, I want her to help people, and the 4 of them to be besties again, and. I just have a lot of feelings even though this is approximately my 11th full rewatch and I have had the majority of these feelings before. Oh also, how had I not realised how true Gaslight Gatekeep Gaius was??
















