#gienwritings

[lovegien]

Minsan may mga bagay tayong hinahangad na hindi kaagad nabibigyan ng katuparan. Patuloy tayo umaasa sa mga bagay na nagbibigay senyales, tapos kinalaunan mararamdaman mong hindi pa pala yun. Paasa, masakit, nakaka-dismaya pero kahit paulit ulit na, kahit minsan naguguluhan ka na “kung ano ba talaga, kung mangyayari ba talaga o hindi” kakapit at kakapit ka sa pangakong mangyayari yan! magtiwala ka lang!

Pero minsan talaga may mga bagay na sadyang hindi pa maaaring ipagkaloob sa atin, kahit alam mong para sa ikabubuti mo naman ito. Hindi dahil na hindi ka pinapakinggan pero dahil siguro’y di ka pa handa, o kaya’y di pa tamang oras para sa bagay na iyon. Oo minsan mapanghihinaan ka ng loob pero lagi mong tatandaan na ang lahat ng bagay ay nagkakalakip lakip sa tamang panahon. Manalangin na may pagtitiwala.

[lovegien]

It’s not just the money you need to invest for something but a full trust and commitment that your partner will be yours till the end. Words are just written expression, it may not last as the book gets old, but it remains the thought until it appears in action. It may not be as strong as we could imagine, but as long as the promises pledged to each other, everything would be fine. It may not the odds favor unto everything we want. But love is more powerful than gold, or any pleasures of pleasing people. I know it’s kinda selfish for a fish doing her sail alone but I trust the magic of forgiveness that one day I did this not just to fulfill my wants for someone I love, But to keep my promises that I would love and fight for the person I really love. 

[lovegien]

From the time I was able to find myself alone from darkest side of my sorrow of being broken from my past relationship. I thought things will be so hard to swallow all the changes and move on from the things I used to have with my “not so fairy tale unknown story”. I thought everything was ruined that time I gave myself from someone I thought it would last forever but fate gave his last chance to not give up but he still choose to left me and find myself alone. I did everything I can do just to move on and let go, work hard and forget every pain in every day in every year just to be fine. 

I thought things will continue send me flashback and leaves a permanent scars that can give me fear and doubted minds and feelings to fall in love again, to find someone who will take charge of me, not just being who I am in this present situation, but to carry myself with love and acceptance together my past hurts and everything. For short, I never thought I couldn’t have a chance to find someone who will love me.  And it takes months or years for me to be fine and accept things until something magically happened.  “ And that’s the time I found you.”

I found myself in the mirror of your unconditionally love who not just give me reason to smile but to make myself falling in love with you in every moment I have a chance to be with you. I found myself falling in love again with someone who are willing to catch me, someone who give me butterflies not just in the morning when I woke up with your not so clingy long good morning messages but until the day end. Someone who take me to the places I want to go when I was alone but you just did and it’s more kinda special because I have you with me in my very special moment. Someone who will give everything, do sacrifices, being loyal, and proves that your love is not just a word but an action who will take charge whatever it takes.

I found myself being in love again, and that’s you! who give me reason to push my life into something more special. I promised to love you and only you though distance separate us temporarily but it doesn’t matter. I know things will never be easy but I will give my every best to hold on and love you for the rest of our story. “So from the day you've tried to follow me until I say I do love you call me yours” and your forever baby.

[lovegien]

A relationship with no trust is like a cell phone with no service, all you can do is play games.  Having someone to trust is one of the greatest tools a person can have in life. The trust between two human beings is one of the most wondrous reactions that two people can easily share. When we trust someone we are basically able to give them as much love as we want to knowing that they will only use this love wisely, and will never use this love against us. When we deal with people we know we can trust, we know that we have someone that we can confide in with any given secret in our lives, and know that it will not ever be leaked. We know that we could give them the shirts off of our back if they needed it, and that they would give us the shirt off of their back if we needed it. Trust is one of the biggest relationship makers and breakers, because with trust a relationship is able to grow, and without trust a relationship will crumble.

[lovegien]

Always take time to heal yourself from the things you though you can't recover. Sometimes we used to something we usually got hurt but let us take those things an inspiration to be better and stronger than to murmur and shut the door of moving on. Just do not go with the flow dear, make your own flow! Chin up!

[lovegien]

Consistency and effort are actually the things where love makes strong. Because feelings can actually change in just a sec but things who commit  consistency are actually who stay.

[lovegien]

Under his wings you will find refuge.

In this tough life we live we have to be able to find refuge and solace in God and his plans for us. Though at times we may feel like we can do it all by ourselves, the simple truth is, we cant. There is only one way to get through our lives and being able to reach our full potential requires that we trust in God when times are good and when times are bad. Many in society have placed such a stigma on being as Christ-like as possible, that many try to do so, and when they arent able to live perfectly, they turn away because they feel too unholy to further establish a continual relationship with God. Instead of worrying about the things in life that you do wrong, and trying to live life without sin or mistakes, realize that you must live your life through the strength of God and his strength alone. Know that no one is or ever will be perfect except for Jesus, and that the only way to achieve eternal salvation isnt by what you do on your own, but instead by what you do through God.

[lovegien]

Remember

There are things na dapat mong matutunan hintayin, at mga bagay ding dapat mong bitawan at wag mo ng pagaksayahan pa ng oras at panahon. Hindi dahil sa wala ng pag-asa pero kasi klaro na sitwasyon na hindi kayo para sa isa’t-isa, hindi para sayo yung chance na yan, hindi para sayo yung goal na yan, hindi yan ang forte mo, hindi kayo pwedeng pang long time, hindi kayo fit, hindi kayo bagay, hindi ka magaling sa ganyan kasi mas better ka sa ganito, hindi dahil sa hindi pwede eh dyan ka lang forever, or what they called “forever alone” kuno. What I’m try to say is, learn to accept the fact that you are not fitted with those things or person God removed from you. Hindi dahil inalis niya eh masama na yung tao yung sitwasyon na yun at kakalimutan mo na, maybe you should learn din to forgive and make it an inspiration kasi naging strong ka din naman sa sitwayson na yan. 

Learn to forgive yourself - hindi dahil hindi kayo fit eh iisipin mo ng may mali sayo, or hindi ka karapat dapat mahalin, or hindi ka maganda, hindi ka gwapo, hindi ka talented or smart katulad ng bago niyang gusto, hindi pa sapat yung mga effort mo or what. Or hindi tama yung pagkakasagot mo interview kaya hindi mo na kuha yung posisyon na gusto mo, or trabahong pinakakamkamtan mo. O kaya hindi mo natupad ngayon yung goal na matagal mo ng inaasam. Hayaan mong hilumin ka muna ng sitwasyon at unti unti mong patawarin ang sarili mo sa failure na nagawa mo sa isang tao or sa isang bagay, pero wag na wag mong sisihin ang sarili mo okay?

Learn to love yourself again - Hindi purkit iniwan ka, iniwan ka sa ere, sa lupa, sa kalye, mag-isa, umiiyak, lugmok, or ano pa yan. Nagdradrama drama sa gabi, paiyak-iyak habang iniisp kung ano pa ba ang mga bagay na hindi mo nagawa kung bakit nangyari yung sainyo o sayo. Or kung bakit hindi mo nakuha yung bagay na yun. Eh hindi purkit ganun e hindi ka na worthy para mahalin at hintayin ng kung sino mang nakatakda sayo. Ehem! hindi lang naman yung nakatakda sayo yung magmamahal sayo at hindi lang naman yung nangiwan sayo yung pwedeng magmahal sayo, ehem! may mga magulang ka, kaibigan, si Lord! at syempre pwede ka pa mabuhay ng sarili mong mga paa. Sarili mong puso at kaluluwa joke! haha 

Pero ayun nga hindi purkit nangiwan, naiwan, nawala, nasaktan, naiwan sa ere, or kung saan saan man eh hindi ka na magmomove on. At hahayaan mo na ikaw nakasilip sa bintana naghihintay sa wala. Know your worth dear. You deserve to move on, healed and be happy again. Love yourself first and everything will be in the next chapter of your life.