#gimmebackmybrain

[adhdpie]

Hi, I have ADHD with low hyper and I'm writing a story where I want the protagonist to be a guy with a lot of H - but I've no idea what this feels or looks like. I also want him to respond well to medication, but I've have no idea what's that like either, since all four (!) kinds of medications I've tried have only ever given me side effects. I hope you can help me with answers or point me to resources, that would be much appreciated! Thank you and thank you for your blog!

cool! I’m glad to help if I can.

because my answers are long-ish I’m splitting my reply into two posts. here’s links to both parts: 

part 1: symptoms of hyperactivity/impulsiveness in ADHD ppl

part 2: what it feels like to be on effective medication (coming soon I hope)

disclaimer: I’m NOT an expert - I’m just a layman diagnosed with ADHD who’s read a lot & experienced a lot! 

also: the psychiatrist evaluation I underwent found that I was ADHD-PI (primarily inattentive): that is, my ‘H’ is also (supposedly) relatively low. but now that I better understand what PI people experience - things like ‘brain fog’ - I think I’m more likely ADHD-C (combined).

ANYWAY

I hope you have fun writing!

[badamore]

for the fanfic trope ask: "oh no there's only one bed"

put a fanfic trope in my inbox

‘Yuuri,’ Viktor whispers. Yuuri’s lying on his side with his back to Viktor, refreshing Instagram over and over again in the darkness of their shared hotel room. He’s got Invert Colours on, so all the faces and figures and medal-wearing podium silhouettes look like B-movie infrared apparitions. His eyes sting. ‘Yuuri?’

Viktor’s arm has found its way over Yuuri’s waist in their sleep. He flattens his palm against Yuuri’s too-soft, too-round, not-perfect abdomen like it’s a grounding point, the wingspan of his fingers broad and safe and strong. Under the blankets, the warm inner curve of his elbow is surprisingly soft. Then he pulls.

Yuuri inhales. He rolls over, tucking himself into the coil of the embrace, tucking his face on Viktor’s shoulder where the cool slip of cotton shirt soothes his swollen eyes. Beyond the windowpane a heavy moon soaks the floor beside their bed in damp light. His phone abandoned, the world narrows to the twin heat of their bodies curled together in the nest of pillows and covers, taking up space, more than Yuuri deserves, taking up oxygen, like: I’m here. I’m here.

‘I’m here,’ Viktor says, still mostly asleep. ‘I’m here, I’m here,’ and his lips brush the top of Yuuri’s head. Yuuri sighs.

He sleeps.

[badamore]

re: top 5 ads (thank you so much for writing that), I feel this one would also give Yuuri Thoughts barechu(.)tumblr(.)com/post/157660593973/r-e-d

you hear that it’s the sound of yuuri imploding

[badamore]

Yuuri's inevitable super dramatic tango - they have a pair version of that too, right? :D

this is how yuuri and viktor unwind in their living room/their go-to track for skating together when they have the rink to themselves after a long day of practice

[puckducky]

Replies under the cut.

@blind-squirrel replied to your post “My stupid head. Personal stuff, depression and anxiety...”

I've been there (and honestly I'm almost glad my teams are out already). I hope that tomorrow is better. <3

Thank you! <3 

@dangerouslyaddictivethings replied to your post “My stupid head. Personal stuff, depression and anxiety...”

Omg you know I've been feeling the same also. As soon it happened I started sobbing and even now there's a lump in my throat. I have my finals tomorrow. The whole time I have been kind of okay. But after the incident my pent up anxiety and stress have finally burst out me. I watch hockey to destress also but it not helping me. I'm bursting into tears at random moments

It’s the stress levels, makes it so much harder to deal with other stuff! I hope your finals went well, despite it all, and you’re feeling better now! <3

@gimmebackmybrain replied to your post “My stupid head. Personal stuff, depression and anxiety...”

I had to step away from hockey almost immediately afte the cup win because all the goalie trade talk was getting to me and because school was getting more intense (I'm a time zone victim too(

(accidentially hit reply) -but the pen's turnaround and the cup run was probably what kept me sane last spring, when I was doing a really hard and important internship. It was magical and as a coping strategy it *worked* (expect for the whole time zone thing). So you not the first one with this coping strategy and you not the first to get bitten by it. But this is something else than trade rumors- It's hard and it isn't *fair*. I guess all we can do is wait and see, which sucks. Also, I'm really...

Yeah, so much this! <3 Last season was so weird, when I was mainly just focusing on Stars and Pens and those narratives happened: Especially Pens, struggling through the autumn and then rising during the spring, when my family life was getting slightly easier, I got my research grant and so on and the sun started shining again, both figuratively and literally. It’s so funny, how you attach your personal life to these things, and how it can both empower you but also stress the hell out of you.

@wheelofdawn replied to your post “My stupid head. Personal stuff, depression and anxiety...”

This isn't stupid at all. Hockey fucked me up so bad mentally last year in playoffs because I was already in a really rough spot after a suicide scare and then seeing all the anger and irrational hate on tumblr followed by my team getting blown out in game 7...it pretty much killed me inside. This is a legit thing that can happen to us, that our means of escape also turns on us and can do us harm. It's not stupid at all. That said, it sucks, and it makes things so hard.

But try to find your happiness in what you can. If you can control what you see on twitter and what not, do so. Mute people. Block them out. Don't let others ruin the experience for you.

These are such wise words, thank you, dear <3 This is why I started as trying to keep myself distanced all the time, but over time it just gets harder not to get involved and separate. But this is the main reason I never go to tags.

@madoddthings replied to your post “My stupid head. Personal stuff, depression and anxiety...”

Awe honey!

<3 

[puckducky]

@gimmebackmybrain replied to your post “Also hoping for a Canadian team so no one goes to see trump. I don't...”

step one, team win the stanley cup. step two, team go to meet trump. step three, team uses the opportunity to make some kind of anti-trump political statement. One can dream

I would give my heart for that team to keep, even if they didn’t have it yet. 

@nupharlutea replied to your post “#I just realised that the team that wins the playoffs goes to the...”

President couldn't even bother with baseball Opening Day, wonder if they'd even do visits. Also most players aren't Americans, I'd think they would be afraid NOT to go because of nasty consequences

Let’s hope he’ll be the one to skip it! I don’t think the players need to do it for being Americans, but because they are in the end employed, and that’s where the possible consequences could come from. I’d imagine it’s considered a crucial part of their job, great PR, by the owners/management. That a team not going would be more of a statement than a team going according to the tradition, as usual, even if the host this year is what he is. (Just to be clear: this is not what I think they should do, just what I assume the teams & the league think about this.)

[puckducky]

Story time: last month, I uploaded the wrong file for my bachelor paper and only found out by coincidence when I was preparing for the oral examen. Long story short, the school let me upload the real file and I did pass. But it was awful and I feel for you. I hope it works out for you - and if it doesn't, I believe you'll be able to deal with that too. I'm so proud of you for doing a phd at all, and doing it with mental health issues too - you're so awesome! *hugs if you want them*

Thank you for your message, and hugs! Never enough of those :) <3

These applications are lost now, but there will be others. One I sent today, one I’m going to send tomorrow after recovering a bit (it includes messaging my advisers about the situation :( ) and then there’s a few more later this spring, but these two were really important. And I only have myself to blame :( I think that maybe later this year, when I’m feeling better, I’ll be able to give myself a break and be more merciful… Waiting for that, eh.

[eternityinalake]

That sounds like an awful office environment :( I'm impressed at your ability to keep a straight face, so annoying that you have to! I hope tomorrow is better!

lenakroma replied to your post “[[MOR] yesterday was a bad day at work, I hope today is better....”

                   Men are just such gross pigs I hate to say that to lump them all like that but really what a steaming pile of sh*t they are. Sorry you have to deal with that :(. That frat boy mental is waaayyy too pervasive                

like honestly, I was really worried when I took this position because the branch is only 10% women (counting me) and the guys were already pretty cliquey and awful when I was just rotating in. Things have been worse since then than I could have imagined (:

today was better, mainly because the guy I share the office with was out all day so no one came in and talked to/around me.

and honestly, I’m normally of the “it’s not all of them, it’s just some of them that are bad” mindset but after incidents in college and now my experiences here, I’ve changed my mind on that. most, if not all, men seem happy to make jokes about sexual assault, rape, or harassment when surrounded by other men. it’s a sad, sad fact. I hope more and more men become aware  of the issue and work to change not only their own thoughts and words, but those of their friends and family.

(as in, if my office guy had spoken up and apologized when the coworker was still in the room, I would have been more impressed than I am with him just apologizing)