I thought I would give you all an update since it's been awhile and just incase you're waiting for one of my stories.
If you're not wondering, just ignore this!
I'm grieving. I lost my mom a few months ago and I just have not had the motivation to do anything very creative. It's been empty, and I've been holding it together because I have family that needs me to hold it together. But it's definitely affected(effected?) My work and just, my writing. It's been a process of keeping myself busy with mindless work and with people just to keep myself from thinking too long. With the holidays coming it hasn't been easy either. I'm attempting to put myself together into something thats just, okay. And I'm genuine with friends and family, it's just I'm doing so much it's hard to breathe. But I'm okay with that.
I have a job now, and I love what I'm doing. It's just that not being able to continue my life with the one person I wanted to grow with, who I thought I'd grow with, is devastating. And I'm becoming more honest with myself, about what I tell people and who I tell. And it's a rocky slope, things like this makes you reevaluate those you assumed were close. It's hard to explain to people you aren't okay and you can't be okay within a few weeks or even a month. And that you feel like they just want you to be okay.
I'm just doing a lot of reflections. Trying to live and support my loved ones and build my relationships. As for my writing, I'm interested at taking myself back to traditional writing. Just me and my composition book and just, attempting. So I'm sorry to everyone following me for my writing content. I'm not sure when I will feel well enough to continue it.