#glen tag

[crippleprophet]

i keep undescribed posts in my drafts until i have the energy & hand function to write an image description for them and every so often i’ll go through and check the notes to see if someone has added one since i saved it, & a not-insignificant amount of the time when that’s happened the description is by my datemate @nonbinaryezrabridger. like oh hi babe!!

[campgender]

fags & dykes go together like blankets & pillows 💖

[ID: an original poem with stylized punctuation. the text reads: say my type is mad dykes and am only half-joking. love her sharp nails and his strong arms and faer spiked clothes, the way she drives for hours, says she’ll lift as many weights as it takes to get me in and out the house intact and he hovers at the side of the road every time my motor shudders and fae mails me armor in the shape of ear plugs and flower petals and fabric painted with somebody beheading a rapist. stitch it to my purse like a crest.

the way these limp wrists need never open my own bottle or carry my own bag or bear my own burden. it’s an art, this handoff, the way you’re always already reaching before my knees buckle or lips shutter or memories take a permanent marker to my sulci.

I tease that you’re defending my honor, three-person society of spitfire and sleepless nights, but it’s true, you’ve taken a shard of glass and a sewing needle and a pocket knife and carved out space for my anger to sputter to life. hold the torch tight every time the heat’s too much for me to take.

tell faer each letter’s a draft of fresh air. tell her our wedding will be lavender. tell him I’m constructing my self-esteem in the font of his calligraphy. everything soft in me is because you’re ready to scratch eyes out on my behalf at a moment’s notice. everything soft in me is curled beneath the rampart of your forearms. say my type is mad dykes and have never been so serious, god, never been so safe. end ID]

[campgender]

was being gay about @nonbinaryezrabridger but blanked on the word datemate and ended up thinking “i love my little guy”

[crippleprophet]

saw an image description by my love on the dash 🥰

[campgender]

Hi you should talk about your partners if you want because its so lovely to hear people talk about people they love but sometimes it feels like no one wants to listen, so this is me saying- go nuts

this is suchhh a sweet ask thank you hon ily!!

everyone i’m in love with has challenged me to accept the parts of myself that don’t make sense and embrace the messiness beyond normative boxes, even when my instinct is to be nervous and uncomfortable. they’ve made me so much more comfortable with change than i ever would’ve thought possible and made me a better person to others and myself. my girlfriend told me two days ago that i fall for people who protect me, and it’s so true; they all take such profound care of me, materially and emotionally, and make me feel so deeply cherished and understood. literally i’m so lucky to know them 💞💜💙❣️💓💖

my girlfriend and i have been together for almost 5 1/2 years, i’ve been in love with her for a year more than that, and i know it’s a bit cliché but i embrace it: i’m still just as giddy about her as i was at 18. she’s attended the funeral of everything i thought i knew about myself and put in the work to love me like no one i’d known before her ever had. i’ve learned so much about self-compassion from the unbelievable and endless love she has for versions of myself that make me want to do nothing but wince, and i have so much respect for her sheer strength. she’s one of the most determined and generous and careful people i know—she’s the epitome of femme chivalry, and she truly knows me better than i know myself. i’d trust her to save my life even if she hated my guts. i wanna work to fit together with her for the rest of my life.

i first met my datemate through faer incredibly kind and thoughtful and understanding comments on a large amount of my writing, and that’s carried through the entirety of our friendship and relationship: there’s nothing i’ve told faer that fae hasn’t responded to with an immense amount of care and thoughtfulness and love, from the annoyances in my day to serious health crises to things that made me laugh lately. i’ve truly felt the effort and intentionality fae has put into every moment of getting to know me ever deeper, and things we’re discussing for the first time, even perspectives fae has never heard of before, fae approaches with such openness and nuance and trust that it’s as if fae has considered it for years. i’m continually awed by how much love fae has for the world and how consistently fae puts that into practice with faer hands and heart.

i’ll confess i saved this ask for maybe a week and a half because i wanted to wait to see if the people included within it would increase lol, and i’m glad i did because i’ll take any opportunity to be baffled and delighted by the way i wake up to find he’s been trying to single-handedly construct my self-esteem overnight, patched up walls i never realized were crumbling. i have no idea how he knew me so well so quickly, and i’m nothing short of honored by how precisely he’s used that understanding to comfort and care for and challenge me. christ, everyone i love knows what i need before i do, and he’s held me every time i’ve clawed my way to being able to ask. if you told me a year ago that it wouldn’t bother me at all when i was late for plans week after week, when i chose my body over my work, when i threw the instructions of the medical establishment out the window, i would’ve thought it impossible, but somewhere along the way he had so much grace for and faith in me that i couldn’t keep from practicing that, too.

last but certainly not least because i’m a relationship anarchist and such concepts are irrelevant, i’m not partners with a dear friend of mine but we are having a fun gay time, and he’s the embodiment of everything i’ve ever read about the antivenom of historical queer humor. everyone i love has made me laugh harder than i would’ve thought possible on some of the worst days of my life, and his wit and vibrance have absolutely buoyed me through some brutal experiences. the way he thinks about the world has expanded my understanding of myself as a queer and disabled person, and he’s made it so clear that i never need to worry about losing his respect when my perspective differs from his. his storytelling is an art i’m always awed to experience.

i really can’t overstate how much freer i am for knowing these folks and the other close friends in my life, i absolutely wish this kind of bold and wild queerness and adoration in everyone’s lives 🖤❤️💖

[campgender]

As soon as I tried to think of celebrities I hate my mind went blank but a few stuck with me:

Tom cruise he’s a mediocre white man and also apparently in a cult?

Benidict cucumberpatch one because he’s ugly and two because in middle school I was convicted by tumblr that he was hot and loudly proclaimed this to my family who will now never let me forget it

Taylor swift just because people say she’s gay when she hasn’t done anything to make that true also she took pictures with a neon*zi

Can’t think of anyone else but I’d love to hear your opinions on these three

god i hate tom cruise & taylor swift, you need to calm down makes me SEETHE. i agressively don’t care about benedict cumberbatch but they definitely should’ve hired an Asian actor for doctor strange :\

send me a character or celebrity you hate & i’ll tell you if i hate them too!

[campgender]

1, 12, 18,26,28,37 for the rawring twenties ask!!!

1. Are you more emo, scene or punk?

ngl i’m not the most informed on like, the nuances? i just wanna dress weird and be opinionated yk? i don’t consistently dress as any of them but i self-identify as punk the most probably because i associate that with being more political/activist

12. Any hair dying or haircut plans for 2020?

funny you should ask because i was actually about to send you photos lol but i just dyed my hair tonight! it’s a dark purplish auburn. once the shortest parts grow to about shoulder length i’m thinking i might shave one side of my head but we’ll see

18. Favourite My Chemical Romance song?

hmmm it depends on the mood but right now Vampire Money for sure

26. Do you think it's just a phase or that you'll be emo/punk\scene forever?

mmm i mean on the one hand it’s like thst post that says “show me a permanent state of the self,” you know, but i think i’ll be visibly gender non-conforming forever, and i think i’ll find power in making people uncomfortable with my queerness and disability forever, and i think i’ll be politically engaged forever, and i think i’ll like this kind of music forever, so in spirit at least, yes

28. Are you into Black Veil Brides?

i’ve never listened to a song by them that i’m aware of but i’m always open to recommendations!

37. Are any of your friends IRL emo/scene\punk?

a few, yeah! for example imo @spacemancharisma is the most punk motherfucker on this planet

[campgender]

i am running on less than 5 hours of sleep and Gay Thoughts let’s go